I got woken up to Avery crying. I stood up and went over to her. I took her to the doctors the day after my shoot and she had a cold, so they gave me medicine for her.
"Shh, mammy is here now baby." I said and she stopped crying and smiled at me. "Hello, baby." I said and rubbed her back. I put her down on my bed and checked the time.
"Let's go get your food then." I said.
"Oh." I could smell Avery and it wasn't pleasant. "Have you done a poo poo." I said.
I changed her nappy and then walked into the kitchen. Niall and Luca where sitting around the island.
"Good morning." I said with Luca on my hip.
"Morning, morning baby girl." Luca squeezed Avery's cheeks and Avery giggled.
"Have her please, I need to make her milk warm and then make myself some breakfast." I said.
"Me and Niall made you food and we got the milk ready, it just needs to be warmed up." She said.
"Oh my god. I love you pair." I said.
"Yes, I do. I love auntie Luca and uncle Niall." Avery smiled and then looked back at Luca.
"Have you spoke to Harry?" Niall asked.
"He called last night. Why?" I asked.
"Uh, nothing." Niall said and looked down.
"Why Niall?" I asked.
Luca passed me her phone and it was an article which read.
Harry Styles spotted out and about with Kendall Jenner.
Just days after being seen with his ex wife, Tiffany Brooks (Styles), Harry Styles was spotted out for lunch with Kendall Jenner. They were seen looking very close, holding hands and even having a kiss here and there.
On Monday 24th of October, Harry was seen out for dinner with Louis, Eleanor and Lucas Tomlinson whilst he looked after his baby (Avery) with former ex wife. He was seen leaving the restaurant round about 8pm and was seen picking Tiffany up. They even held hands once they got back to the restaurant. Just hours after that Harry was seen leaving Tiffany's apartment building, in London. But I can't blame him for wanting to be with her, they have a beautiful baby girl together. Tiffany even posted a photo of Harry holding baby Avery.
The day after Harry was at Heathrow airport, heading aboard a plane to LAX, Los Angeles, California. He was quiet for a few days and then suddenly he was spotted with Kendall (Jenner) who he supposedly had a relationship with him the late 2013. It was quite a shock for most people as they haven't been seen in 3 years in public.
To most people, Tiffany and Harry's relationship, came and went way too quickly, most people think that it was set up by management and others blame Tiffany for the relationship ending, but we never know.
But, let's see what Harry does when he gets back to London, will he choose Tiffany or Kendall?
I gave Luca her phone back and carried on warming Avery's milk up.
"Are you ok?" Luca asked.
"I'm fine." I shrugged my shoulders. "We're not together anymore." I finished Avery's milk.
"It didn't look like that the other day." She said.
"I'm fine, honestly. If he wants to be with her, I'm ok with it. We haven't been together for ten months, it's about time we moved on." I said.
"As long as your ok." She said.
"I'm ok." I poured the milk into her bottle and tasted some to see if it was just the right temperature and it was fine. "Come to mammy." I said to Avery and gave her the bottle, I held her on my hip and held the bottle in the mouth.
"Have you fed buddy?" I asked.
"Yeah, he's sleeping in the living room." She said.
I walked into the living room and seen him lying on the sete. I sat down next to him and put Avery on my lap. She finished the milk so I started to burp her.
"Well done baby." I said as she burped.
I turned the telly on and put on beauty and the beast, my favourite Disney film.
"Tiffany?" I looked up and seen Niall with my phone.
"It's Harry." He passed the phone. "He wants to talk." He said. I rolled my eyes and took the phone.
"Can you look after Ave please? I want to go speak to him in my room and then I want a shower." I asked.
"Of course." He said and I walked over to my room and left Avery sitting on the sofa.
"Hello?" I said.
"Hey, Tiffany. How are you and the baby?" He asked.
"I'm fine, well, we're fine. How about you?" I asked.
"I'm good." He said.
"Harry, I want to talk to you about us." I looked out of the window and leaned against my bed on the floor. "Are you alone?" I asked.
"Yeah, I'm in bed." He said.
"I don't think it's going to work." I bit my lip. "I seen that you were with Kendall last night and I don't want to get in between your relationship. Of course I'd rather you here with me and Avery but, it's been ten months, I think it's time we moved on." I said.
"Tiffany, Kendall and I are friends." He said.
"It didn't look like that. There's photos everywhere of you two kissing, it hurts Harry. It kills me to see you with her, but, I want you to be happy and I don't think you will be happy with me. You know your more than welcome to see Avery whenever you want." I said.
"Tiffany, I want to be with you. I love you." I could hear a break in his voice. He's crying, fuck.
"It doesn't seem like that. After all you are in California, your not here with me and Avery. I don't want to make you do this but, Harry it time you choose." I sighed. "It's either me or Kendall." I said.
"You can't make me do this." He said.
"I have too. Because I can't have you messing with my feelings anymore. If you loved me you'd come home." I said.
"I can't come home." He whispered.
"Then, I guess it's over for me and you." I ran my hand through my hair. "Bye Harry." A tear rolled down my cheek.
"No Tiffany, please don't do this." He said.
"Bye." I said and ended the call.
I threw my phone on the floor. I ran my hand over my face and tears rolled down.
"Tiffany, do you want to-" I looked up and Luca was standing there.
"Babe, what's wrong?" She came and sat next to me.
"I can't do this anymore." I cried into her chest. "I told Harry he either chose me or Kendall. And he said I can't make him do that. I said if he loved me, he'd come home and he said he couldn't come home so I told him that it's over. There's no more of me and Harry. I can't do it anymore, it kills me to say it but I can't be single forever waiting for him to make his mind up." I said.
"Aw babe, you done the right thing. But are you going to be ok when he asks to come see Avery?" She asked.
"He's got custody of her, either I take her over to his or he comes and picks her up. I can't do this anymore, my feelings are fucked up, I need to move on." I said.
"Ok, come on. Let's get ready and we can go and take the baby for a walk. Niall is going to meet Liam and his parents so I told him I'd spend the day here with you." She said.
"Ok. I'm going to go in the shower." I said.
"Ok, do you want me to get Avery ready?" She asked.
"If you don't mind." I said.
"Of course I don't." She said.
****
Now showered in dressed wearing a thick great jumper, leather trousers and my white and red Stan Smiths. Luca dressed Avery in a knitted dress which read 'pretty pretty little girl' with grey tights with white polka dots on them. She had a white parka coat with fur on the hood on and a white bobble hat.
"How's my gorgeous little girl." I said picked her up.
"Come on then." I said put her in the pram. I wrapped a blanket over her and she started crying.
"What? Do you want teddy?" I asked her. I grabbed her teddy from the bedroom. I passed her teddy and she started smiling.
"Good girl." I said.
"Luca, are you ready?" I asked.
"Yeah, I'm putting my boots on." She said.
"Buddy, come here boy." I said and he came over. I put his lead on and then picked him up so Avery could see him.
"Bow bow." I said and she stroked his head, well more like hit him.
"Be careful." I said and put him down.
Luca came out and grabbed Buddy's lead.
"Come on then." She said.
I grabbed my phone and keys and then we left.
We walked down to the lobby and thankfully there was no paps around.
Luca opened the door and we walked to the park.
"Have Harry tried to contact you?" She asked.
"I don't think so." I said.
"So what shall we do for my birthday?" Luca asked.
"Let's have a little party in ours? Our parents can come, we can invite the boys. It'll be nice." I said.
"What about Avery?" She asked.
"Well she can stay. My parents are thinking about renting a place here in London, since my dad is better now, they are expanding the business to London." I looked at Avery who was sleeping. "She can go and stay with them." I said.
"Aw I'd love to do that." She said.
"Ok, it's a plan." I said.
"Excuse me?" I turned around and there was a group of girls standing there.
"Hello." I smiled.
"Please can we have a photo with you?" She asked.
"Of course. Do you want a group one?" I asked.
"Yes please." They said.
"Ok, I'll go at the back." I said and passed Luca the girls phone.
"So, where are you guys from?" I asked.
"We're from Wales." She said.
"Aw I love it there." I said. "I went there with the boys to watch them in Cardiff is it?" I asked.
"Yes, we were there." Another girl said.
We had the photo and chatted to them for a bit.
"Is this Avery?" They asked.
"Yes." I smiled and pull the blanket down a bit so they could see her face.
"Aw she is so beautiful." One girl said and they awed at her.
"Thank you for coming over to us girls. It was lovely meeting you." I said.
"Thank you." They all said.
"Bye." I said and waved to them.
*****
We walked for a bit longer and then Avery started to wake up.
"Shall we head home?" Luca asked.
"If you want to." I said.
"Ok, come on we can go home." She said.
"Shit," I looked around. "The paparazzi are here." I said and we started to walk faster. "Why the hell are the paparazzi here?" I shouted.
"You were married to one of the most famous boys in the world." Luca said.
"I know but I'm not anymore. They're probably here for you." I said.
We went up to our apartment and thankfully the paparazzi didn't bother us that much.
Once we got into the apartment I took Avery out of the pram and took her coat and hat off. I then took my coat and boots off. Luca made us both cup of coffee and I gave Avery her bottle.
I sat down on the sofa and buddy came and sat next to me and Luca. Avery was sat on my lap drinking her bottle.
"Put on the Ellen show, I need to catch up." I said.
We watched 2 episodes of the Ellen show when there was a knock on the door. I held Avery with her head in m the crook of my neck and went to answer the door.
I opened the door and standing there was Anne and my mum.
"Mum, Anne." I put my hand over my mouth.
"Honey." They said.
"How are you guys here?" I asked.
"Well we wanted to see our grand daughter." Anne said.
"Where's dad? And Robin?" I asked.
"Oh we left them watching the golf in our house." Mum said.
"You drove all the way here?" I asked.
"Of course we didn't." Anne laughed.
"We caught the train. So where Luca?" Mum asked.
"Luca?" I called.
"Coming." She came out and stopped in her tracks when she seen my mum.
"Amanda." She ran over and hugged my mum, wrapping her legs around my mother.
"Luca, honey." Mum said. Luca jumped down and laughed.
"Hello, Anne." Luca said and hugged her.
"Hi, sweetie." Anne said.
"Let's have a hold of my baby." Mum said. I passed her Avery and she was waking up.
"Hello, gorgeous." Mum said and Avery smiled. "She's a smiler isn't she." Mum laughed.
"That photo Harry sent me of you tickling her and he laughing is gorgeous." Anne hugged my arm. "It's even my lock screen, look." She showed me her phone.
"Aw I love that photo." I said.
"Can you send that to me please Anne?" Mum asked.
"Of course." She said.
"So, where are you staying tonight?" I asked them.
"Me and Dad, have rented out that apartment in the building next door." Mum said.
"Really?" I asked and mum nodded her head. Mum gave Anne Avery and we all went into the living room.
"So mum, for Luca's birthday we're having a little party here, obviously you are coming so will you have Avery that night?" I asked.
"Of course I will sweetie." She said.
"Anne, you and Robin can come if you'd like too?" I asked.
"We'd love to, can Gemma come? She misses you." She asked.
"Of course she can." I said.
My phone went off and it was a notification from Twitter.
There was a photo of me and the group of girls. Today we met @tiffanybrooks what an amazing person, she was so lovely and I'm so happy we went and spoke to her.
I decided to retweet it and then like it.
"Amanda, can you come and help me please I really want to make your special spaghetti bolognese." Luca said.
"Oh of course." Mum stood up and went into the kitchen.
"So have you spoke to Harry?" Anne asked as I held Avery up so she was sitting up looking around.
"Yeah, I spoke to him earlier." I said.
"I saw that you went out for dinner with him last week." She said.
"Yeah." I said.
"Is everything ok between you two?" She asked and I bit my lip.
"Not really." I said.
"Why sweetie?" She asked.
"I- I love him, but I want to be a proper family and be together all the time, but with him always in LA I can't do it." Avery started to scream. "Sh baby. Do you want auntie Luca?" I asked.
"I'll be back now." I gave Avery to Luca and she was happy then.
"Tiffany." Anne said as I sat down. "That's Harry's job and he loves doing it." She said.
"Does he love messing around with my feelings also?" I asked. "Because he's doing a good job at it." I said.
"Why? What's he done?" She asked.
"You don't know? Last night he was out with Kendall Jenner, there's photos of them kissing, hugging and holding hands. And the day before he went when we went out, he told me he wanted to be with me, but he was with her yesterday. Yes we're divorced, but he's playing with my feelings." I said.
"He was with her? Sweetie, I don't know what to do? Because your not teenagers anymore, you've got a baby and I can't be getting involved. I'll talk to him and see how he feels. He told me the other day that you are coming home at the end of the month to bring Avery to see us." She said my
"I don't know what to do either, anymore." I sighed. "I'll hopefully be coming, even if it's not with Harry I'll be up to see everyone." I said.
"It'll be ok sweetie." She said and hugged me.
"Tiffany, can you come get Avery, she's done a poo." Luca called.
"Coming." I laughed.
I grabbed a nappy and wipes. I picked Avery up and carried her into the living room.
"Oo, you've done a smelly one." I said and Avery giggled.
Anne passed me the mat and I placed Avery on it, I took her tights off and then removed her nappy. I wiped her bottom clean.
"What's the time Anne?" I asked and she looked at her watch.
"8pm." She said.
"Oh, let's go run a bath for you, is it Ave." I stood up.
"Do you want my help?" Anne asked.
"I'd love it if you would." I said.
"Mum, Luca? Me and Anne a bathing Avery, then we'll be out for dinner." I said.
"Ok." They both shouted.
I went into the closet and grabbed Avery's baby grow and vest. Anne was sat on the bed with Avery and was playing with her.
"Let me run the bath, I'll call you when it's done." I said.
*****
Me and Anne bathed Avery and now we're in the kitchen, eating our dinner. Avery is on my lap, drinking her milk, for bedtime. I ate my food and Avery was still drinking her milk.
I held her in my arms and he finally finished her milk and fell asleep. I checked the time and it was 9:30pm.
"Guys, I'm going to put Avery to bed, but I'm also going to go to sleep myself." I yawned and held Avery in my arms.
"Goodnight baby." Mum said. "Goodnight." I hugged her and she kissed Avery's head.
"Goodnight, honey." Anne hugged me and kissed Avery. "Goodnight."
"I'll see you in the morning Luca." I said and hugged her.
I walked into the bedroom and placed Avery in her Moses blanket.
"Goodnight baby." I said and kissed her. I pulled the string on her dog and the music started playing. I walked into my closet and changed into clean pyjamas.
I put my phone on charge and jumped into bed. I fell asleep with in seconds.