"How You Feeling Today ?"Shawn
Asked While We're Heading Out
The Gates On The Football Field
After The Game"Good,Really I
Am"I Patted His Shoulder Telling
Him Not To Worry.
"Report Cards Will Be Giving To Us Next Week I'm Freaking Out"Rylie
Said To Yammy"Me Too"Me And
Andrew Said At The Same Time"You
Guys Are Straight"A" Nerds I'm Sure
You Two Will Be Fine"Trevor Said
I Laugh Small Fiddling With My
Bracelet Itching My Arm
"Your Dad Is Here"Andrew Said I Looked Around And Saw Dad With Elizabeth"DAD"I Happily Ran To
Him Hearing The Guys And Girls Laugh"There's My Boy"Dad Said
And Put His Hands Out Picking Me
Up Spinning Me Around.
"How Was School ?"Dad Said Ruffling My Hair Setting Me Down"Good,How Is Your Case ?"I Asked Walking To The
Main Building To The Principal's Office
"The Same"Herny Said They All Looked Stressed And Tired"Why...We Heading
To The Principal's Office?"I Asked
"Your Principal Called Me Wanted To
Talk To Me With You,Lucas Is Busy So
He Couldn't Come"Andy Said Andrew
Was Waiting By The Front Desk With
His Mom And Step Dad"Mrs And Ms.
Turner"I Waved To Them"Hi Marcus"
Andrew's Mother Said With A Smile.
"Give Us A Minute"Andrew Said
Pulling Me To The Side"You Got
Called In Too?"He Questioned I
Nodded Saying I Didn't Know Why
"I'm Sure It's Nothing Just Relax"
I Whispered Back To Him And
Walked Into The Principal's Office
With Everyone
"Andrew And Marcus Have A Seat"
Our Principal Said We Sat Down With Everyone"I'm Sure All Of You Are Wondering Why I Called You"She
Said And Smiled To Me And Andrew
"I'm Pleased To Say That You Both Made Valedictorian And Scored The Highest Out Of The Whole School"
Our Principal Said.
WN:A Valedictorian Is A Student
That Has Had The Highest Academic Achievements Of The Class,Who
Also Delivers The Valedictory At
A Graduation Ceremony
"We Did ?"Me And Andrew Said At
The Same Time Looking At Eachother
"Yes,Congratulations You Both Worked
Hard"She Said I Looked Over To Dad
He Smiled Proudly With Momma Beth
"I'm So Proud Of You Both"Henry Said To Me And Andrew.
"Which Leads Me To Ask Who Will
Be Giving The Graduation Ceremony
Speech"Our Principal Said Me And Andrew Looked At Eachother"I Think
You Should Do It"I Said To Him
"You Sure ?"Andrew Said I Nod Saying He Should Give The Speech Since He's
Been Here Longer Than Me And I Just Know He Wants To Give The Speech
"Andrew Will Do It"I Said To Our
Principal"It's Settled You Have Alot
Of Time To Prepare So No Rush"She
Said To Andrew And Congratulated Us
One More Time.
"We Did It Marcus,Everything We
Have Worked For"Andrew Said We
Crashed Into Eachother I Smiled Being
Proud Of Us And Myself Knowing That
My Parents Would Of Been Proud Of Me"Heck Yeah,I'm Proud Of You Too"
I Smiled To Him I Admired How Proud
His Mother And Step Dad Was Of Andrew
"Andy And Miss.Standford Is It Okay
After Graduation Marcus Comes
Stay The Night At My House As A
Celebration,Please ?"Andrew Begged
Momma Beth And Dad"We're Okay
With It,We Will Take You Both To
Celebrate"Andrew's Mother Said.
"Of Course He Can"Dad Said To Andrew Saying I Was Allowed To Have A Sleep Over At His House"I'm Gonna Go Home And Call My Dad And Tell Him"Andrew Said Happily Running
Out The Door Andrew's Parents Divorced Then His Mother Got
Remarried To Andrew's Step Dad
Andrew And His Siblings See Their Dad
Every Weekend Surprisingly All Of Them Get Along Andrew And His Siblings Have A Good Bond With
Their Step Dad Since He's Been In
His Life Since He Was Fourteen"I'm
So Proud Of You Mijo You Worked Really Hard"Dad Said Walking Back Out Right By My Side.
"Thanks Dad,Take Me Back To
Lucas's Place You Guys Must Be
Busy With Your Case"I Said Henry
Opened The Back For Me To The Car
I Got Inside Smiling To The Fact That
Andy Is Proud Of Me That's All I Wanted Was To Make Him Proud
"Your Dad Has Been Cracky All Day Just To See You"Elizabeth Said The News Showed The Vintage Doll Killer Has Been Off The Rails Like Oliver
Said He'll Stop But Then Again He's
A Sadistic That Gets Off On Others Pain So I Hope He Doesn't Harm Another Person.
"That Boy Still Missing ?"I Asked Since Apparently Oliver Took A Boy Two Days Ago And Haven't Found His Body Yet Henry Said They Had Small Hope That The Boy Was Still Alive
"Guys,Don't Tell Him That You'll
Scare Him"Dad Said Driving Off"I
Saw The News I Was Just Asking Dad"
I Said"I Told You To Stop Watching
The News I Don't Want You Seeing That"Dad Said Scolding Me"I Like
Watching You Guys On The News"
Elizabeth Laughed From The Front.
"Did Lucas Already Take You To See Dr.Cooper ?"Herny Asked"Yeah,Then My Doctors Appointment"I Told Dad That I Needed To Come Back In On Friday For A Weight Check Again
And Have One Appointment For
Today Later"I Gained Seven Pounds This Time"Henry Was Proud I Was Starting To Slowly Gain Weight Again
"That's Good Son"Dad Said And
Pulled To The Side Of Lucas's
House"Be Safe You Three"I Said
And Gave Dad A Kiss On The
Cheek Getting Out The Car
Waving To Them Getting Inside.
"Your Here,You Hungry?"Lucas
Said Talking With His Friend David
"I'll Get A Snack....Oliver Here ?"
I Said Getting Some Orange Juice
Boxs And Some Snack's"No His
Dad Wanting Him Home"Lucas
Said I Was More Relaxed Knowing
He Wasn't Here
"OH,GUESS WHAT"I Said Happily
Going Over To Him"What ?"Lucas
Asked Laughing Seeing How Happy
I Was"Me And My Friend Andrew
Made Valedictorian Making The
Highest Grades In The Whole
School"I Said Lucas Smiled Proudly
"Out Of The Whole School ?"David
Said Surprised And Shocked.
"Yup,We Made The Highest Ranks
For The Whole Semesters In A Row"
I Said And Lucas Said He Was So
Proud Of Me"That's Amazing Congratulations"David Said
"Really I'm Proud Of You All That
Studying Went Somewhere"Lucas
Said I Giggled"And...After I Graduate
Me And All My Friends Are Going Out
To Eat... And I'm Having A Sleep Over
At Andrews Andy And Momma Beth Said It Was Okay,So Can I ?"I Asked.
"Momma Beth?"Lucas Said Confused
"Elizabeth,I Call Her That Sometimes"
I Said"I Don't Feel Uncomfortable Having You Sleep Over At Someone's
House I Don't Know Yet"Lucas Said
"Don't Worry Andy Always Ran
Background Checks On My Friends
And Their Parents And He's Met Them
All"I Begged Him Telling Him I'll Be
Fine"Seriously All Your Friends?"David Said"That's Andy I Haven't Met Them"
Lucas Said Saying He'll Think About It.
"Please,Pretty Please They Are
Good People"I Hugged Onto His Arm Trying To Get Him To Let Me Go"Fine
I Guess-"I Cut Him Off By Hugging
Him Tight Running Off To The
Room"THANK YOU"I Heard David Laugh From The Kitchen
I Turned On My Phone Flopping Down Onto The Bed Looking At The News
"Sergeant Lewis Is It True There's A Survivor Who Escaped From The Vintage Doll Serial Killer Being Treated Right Now At The Hospital?"One Of The News Reporters Said I Payed All My Attention To My Phone.
"No Comment To The Doll Case"
Uncle Ian Said And Walked Passed
The Camera's With Todd And Gracie
"I'm Leaving I'll See You Later"David Said To Lucas Hearing The Door I Immediately Called One Of Dad's
Cop Friends
"You Busy?"I Said In Spanish Since
He Spoke It The Most"You Okay?,The Whole Precinct Is Busy"Detective Diaz Said Saying Herny And Elizabeth We're At The Hospital With The Survivor Saying He's Still In The Operation Room.
"Okay,I Just Wanted To See
How Everything Was Good Luck
I Gotta Go"I Said And Hung Up
Seeing Shawn Was Texting Me
"Marcus,Who Is The Lady
I Saw At Your House Fighting
With Your Dad?".
Shawn Said In The Text Message I
Frowned Wondering What He Was
Talking About And Called Shawn
"Who Did You See Arguing With
My Dad ?"I Asked And He Said That
He Saw Dad Fighting With A Women
"Your Dad Looked Pretty Pissed"
Shawn Said Saying He Wanted To
Stop By And Check On Me Into He
Heard Andy And The Women.
"When Was This ?"
"Today,I Think I Heard Your Dad
Call Her Tiffany"Shawn Said And
I Started To Get A Little Jealous To Why Andy's Ex-Wife Was There I
Was Overthinking And Getting Nervous.
"Thanks,I'll Call You Back"I Said
And Hung Up Starting To Get Blurry
Vision I Took A Breath Out Wondering
If I Should Go See For Myself"You Okay?"Lucas Said From Behind Me
Scaring Me Abit"I Need You To Take
Me To See Andy For A Second"I Said
And He Walked Out With Me
I Sat In The Car Putting Some Eye
Drops In My Eyes Not Being Able
To See Clearly For A Second Again
"Your Phone Is Going Off"Lucas Said
Getting Me Out Of My Thoughts I Took
My Phone Seeing It Was A Reminder
I Have A Doctors Appointment With
My Ophthalmologist Today.
WN : A Osteopathic Physician Is
Someone Who Specializes In Eye
And Vision Care
"We're Here"Lucas Said And We
Got Out Of The Car Getting Inside
The Precinct I Greeted Some Of The Detectives On The Elevator Right
When We Got Off I Heard Dad And
His Ex-Wife Talking.
"Say Whatever You Want Andy She Is Your Daughter"My Movements Paused When I Heard The Women Yell That
To Dad When I Opened The Door Half Way To His Office I Was Angry And Jealous Starting To Get Overwhelmed
"After Seven Years You Show Up?"Dad Said In A Firm Tone To The Women
"Your Daughter Needs Her Father
You Give All Your Attention To This
Kid Who's Not Even Really Yours"
Tiffany Yelled At Dad My Chest And
My Hands Were Starting To Shake
Watching And Hearing What Is
Happening"Don't You Dare Bring
My Son Into This"Dad Said Being
Brought Away From The Women
By Uncle Ian.
"Your Son ?,Wake Up Andy The Kid Isn't Your Biological Kid What's So Special About Him?"She Yelled And
Then Dad Started Yelling Small At
The Women"Andy"Uncle Ian Said
Noticing I Was Behind Them
"Marcus...It's Not What It Sounds
Like"Dad Said I Just Ran From There To The Elevator"Wait Marcus"Before
Dad Can Say Anything Else The Doors
To The Elevator Shut My Heart Was
Shaking And Beating So Fast.
I Never Liked The Idea Of Sharing
Dad With Anyone So When I Heard
That It Was Worse Than My First
Break Up And Worse Than Having
Withdrawals It Was Hurting So Much
I Was Starting To Think I Was Losing
Dad To Someone Else
"You Okay ?"Lucas Asked Getting
In The Car"Please Let's Go"I Clenched
Onto My Hand Digging My Nails Into
My Palm To Keep Myself From Crying
Or Shaking More I Just Wanted To
Get Out Of Here The Whole Idea Of
Losing Dad Or Sharing Him Made
Me Get This Possessive Feeling To
Him Again.
"Take Me To The Mall,I Have A
Appointment"I Said Shutting Both
Our Phones Off Ignoring All The
Calls From Ian And Dad The Words
To What That Women Said Hit Me
Hard That I Wasn't Dad's Biological
Kid My Heart Was Getting So Heavy
Again Thinking All These Thoughts
Dad Would Just Forget About Me
It Was Hurting Me Both Emotionally
And Physically Just Thinking About It
So Much Was Giving Me That Painful
Pit To My Heart Again I Just Needed
To Take The Edge Off Right Now When
We Got To The Mall I Told Lucas To
Have Me Check In At My Eye Doctor.
I Went Straight To The Bathroom And
Just Took Some Marijuana Trying To
Keep Myself To Crying And Thinking
So Much I Eventually Did After I Was
Alittle At Ease And High Abit
"Your Eyes Still Zoom In And Out?"
My Eye Doctor Said I Nod While He
Checked My Eyes"Having Any Trouble
With Your Vision Again ?"He Asked.
"Yeah,It Was Alittle Blurry For A
Few Seconds Today And Yesterday"
"Haven't Been Sleeping?".
"No Even If I Tried"
"Been Checking Your Blood
Pressure?".
"Yes Sir"
"Any Stress Lately?".
"...I Guess I-I Try To Keep It
Down"
"Are You Eating Well ?".
"Yes,The Same Three To Four
Meals A Day"
"Still Off Your Sleeping Meds ?".
"Yessir They Don't Help So I
Don't Take Them When I Can't
Sleep"
"You Have Memory Trouble?".
"Sometimes"
"Have You Been Skipping Your Meds?"He Asked And I Watched Lucas Look At My Doctor Then Me"No,And I'm Still Using My Eye Drops When I Need Too"I Said And He Nodded Taking His Gloves Off Testing Me
To See If I Can See Clearly.
"If You Start Having Trouble Not
Being Able To See Again Let Me
Know,Okay ?"He Said"I Will"I
Said And He Gave Me A New Pair
Of Blue Light Clear Glasses To
Have Me Wear"I Have My Pair
At Home,Do I Need Another ?"
I Asked
"You Don't Have Them Now And
This Is For You To Put On Like
Right Now And Keep Them On
For A Few Hours"He Said I Took
The Glasses Case Thanking Him
He Gave Me A New Date To My
Next Appointment.
"And Who Is This ?"My Doctor
Asked Referring To Lucas"His Father Doctor"Lucas Said And My Doctor Looked At Him Then Me"Huh,I Thought You Were His Uncle Or Something"He Said Lucas Was Offended By What He Said I
Thought It Was Funny
"My Apologies"He Said And Told
Me To Take It Easy I Said Goodbye
To My Doctor Putting My Glasses
On"Seriously Uncle?I Was About
To Give Him A Piece Of My Mind"
Lucas Mumbled To Himself.
"Relax Lucas It Was Funny"I Said
Laughing It Off Getting To The Food
Court With Him"No It Wasn't That
Was Harsh That Was The First I
Heard"Lucas Said Annoyed"Let's
Get A Snack And Go Out To Eat
Later,Yeah ?"He Asked Me
"Okay,I Want Ice Cream"I Took A
Step Back Taking His Hand Out Of
Habit When Too Much People And
Noises Start To Get Me Anxious I
Was High But Not High Enough Yet
To Not Let The Sounds And People Bother Me"It's Okay Just Look At My Hand"Lucas Said Putting My Hoodie Over My Hand I Did What He Told Me To Do And Sweezed His Hand.
Lucas Kept Me Close To Him At
All Times All The Way Out To The
Exit And Back To The Car Handing
Me My Ice Cream"Wanna Stay Out
For Another Hour ?"He Asked
"Where Should We Go ?"I Said He Suggested That We Can Just Sit At
The Parking Lot In The Public Park
By The Mall I Liked The Idea So We Went With It We Sat On The Bench
By His Car At The Park Just Talking.
"Emma Said She Will Come So We
Can Go Get Dinner She Is Just Handling
With Work"Lucas Said Taking A Bite
From My Ice Cream"You Have A Ice
Cream Cone"I Said Going Back To
Eating My Chocolate Ice Cream
"I Wanted Some Of Yours"Lucas
Said And Ruffled The Top Of My
Head"You Feeling Better Now ?"
He Asked"Yeah...My Eyes Just
Want To Mess With Me Today"
I Said Rubbing Under My Left
Eye Blinking To Get A Clear Vision.
"Did You Have A Problem With
Your Eyes?,Is That Why They
Zoom In And Out Sometimes ?"
Lucas Asked I Looked Up From
My Cup Turing To Him"You
Really Wanna Know ?"
He Nodded Getting Concerned
"A Week After...The Last Trail I
Lost My Vision Temporary"Lucas
Gave Me This Face The Same One
He Gave Me When He Saw Me Walk
Through The Doors In The Court
Room In The First Trail.
"You...Went Blind ?"He Said Hearing
His Voice Get Low But Clear For Me
To Hear Him"For A Few Months I
Stayed In A Health Center For Kids
Into I Could Get My Vision Back"I Said Rembering How Dark It Was I Could Hear Every Single Person Around Me But I Just Couldn't See Them And It Was Scary Seeing Nothing But Pitch Darkness Like How It Was In That Cabinet
"How Long ?"Lucas Asked"Five To
Six Months I Gain My Vision Back
Somewhere In November Then Went
Back Into The Foster System"I Said
And Got The Chills Getting Paranoid
Again"But Your Okay Right ?"Lucas
Said Sounding More Painful In His
Voice"Oh Yeah,I Am I'm Just Glad
I Can See Now"I Said And Looked
Around Not Seeing Oliver Anywhere.
"Did They Tell You How You Lost Your
Vision?"He Asked"Some Doctors Said
It Was Because Of Emotional Pain
And Physically Trauma And Mental
Some Said It Was Because Of What
I Felt Inside Myself "I Said And
Stood Up
"What I Mean By That...Some Of My Therapists Said That You Going To Prison Hurt Me More Then I Wanted You To Really Go They Said Deep Down I Wanted To Convince Myself It Wasn't You Because I Missed How It Was With You"I Said Walking To Throw Our
Trash Away Lucas Held My Hand
To Get Me To Look At Him And Stop My Movements.
"Was It True?"Lucas Almost Said
As A Light Voice"...Yeah Sometimes
I Didn't Want To Believe It Wasn't You
And I Was Just Seeing Things In The
End Even When I Felt Hatred Forwards
You I Loved You More Than I Wanted
To Be Scared Of You"I Said I Saw A Glimpse Of Lucas's Eyes Tear Up Quickly Turing His Head Away
"Your Not Scared Of Me ?"Lucas Said
Hearing How Low His Voice Was To
Be Honest I Was More Scared Even
Terrified Of Oliver Than I Was Scared
Of Lucas Now"No,Atleast Not How
I Was To Passing Out From Panic
Attacks"I Said Before He Say Something Emma Came Up To Us.
"Andy Is Asking Where He Is"Emma
Said To Lucas Holding His Hand"Tell
Him Marcus Wants To Be Alone"Lucas
Said Emma Looked At Me I Nod To Her
Not Wanting To Face Dad Right Now And Think He'll Tell Me He's Leaving Me For His Real Family
"Let's Go Get Something To Eat And
Head Back Home"Emma Said"I Could
Eat I Want A Frappe"I Dragged Lucas
To The Car Getting Inside The Front Seat"Lucas When We Get Back Can
We Watch A Movie ?"I Asked He Held
My Hand Driving To A Restaurant.
"We Can Do Whatever You Want
Today"Lucas Said The Way He Was
Holding My Hand Made Me Have That
Weird Feeling Like I Have Been Having Since The Day He Told Me About His
Tattoos Or How Patience He Is With
Me I Still Couldn't Understand How I Felt
After We Went Out To Eat I Still Kept Thinking About Losing Dad And Felt How My Greed To Keep Him To Myself Was Growing I Hated The Idea Of Sharing My Dad With Anyone I Just
Wanted To Have Him For Myself.
"Andy Is Here,Want Me To Give
You A Minute?"Lucas Asked When
He Was Pulling Into The Driveway
By His House Turing The Car Off
"...Yeah Make Some Snacks I'll Be
There In A Minute"I Said And Got Out
Of The Car Watching Dad Speed
Walk To Me
"Marcus Son,Let Me Explain"Dad Said
"You Don't Have Too I Understand"
I Said And Took His Hand Looking
Down At The Ground"Your Leaving
Me Aren't You ?"The Moment Those
Words Came Out My Attachment To
Dad Didn't Want To Let Him Go.
"Your Going To Go With Your Daughter Bec-ause Sh-e's You-r Real Kid A-nd
I'm Nothing I'm Go-ing To Be A-ll Al-one Ag-ain I-I Kn-ew Som-eday
You'll...Leave Me Your My Dad And Mine Only I-I Don't Wa-nt You To Le-ave..Me So Do-n't Go D-ad Please Do-n't...Abandoned Me"I Cried And
Hyperventilated As I Spoke Shaking
Down To My Knees Not Being Able
To Breathe
"Hey Look At Me"Dad Said Crying
Slightly When I Went Off Talking
Really Fast"I'm...Be-ing Gre-edy A-nd S-elfis-h Right N-Now But I-I Do-n't Ca-re Ca-use The...Truth Is Dad I-If I
Lose Yo-u I Won't..Be Able...To Live Anymore"I Cried On The Floor
Begging Dad Not To Leave Me
Hugging Andy For My Dear Life.
"Look At Me"Dad Said Pulling Me Away Slightly Watching His Tears
Come Out His Beautiful Eye's Cupping
My Face"Don't...You Ever Say That Your Not Nothing You Are My Real
Son Never Will I Leave You Nor Will
You Be Alone Ever Again I Will Never Abandoned You Marcus Ever"Dad Said
In A Shaky Breath Pulling Me Into A
Tight Hug
"I'll Never Abandoned You I Could Never Leave You Never"Dad Said In
A Light Cry Tone I Cried In Relief Hugging Him Tighter With My Shaky Hands"Okay?,I Need You To Say It"Dad Said Pulling Me Away Slightly Holding My Face"...You'll Nev-er Leave Me"He Nodded Small Wiping My Tears Away.
"You Mean So Much To Me Mijo
Nothing Anyone Will Do Will Make
Me Leave You"Dad Said I Put My Hands On His Face Wiping His
Tears Away Resting My Head On
Him Trying To Breathe Right
"I'm Not Going Anywhere"He
Whispered In My Ear Taking A
Low Breath Out Rocking Himself
And Me To Smooth Me Down Placing
A Light Kiss On The Side Bringing Us Back Up Seeing Momma Beth Was
Crying"How Many Candles ?"Dad
Said Leaning Against His Car Placing
Soft Kisses On My Hand I Locked My
Hand With His Leaning On His Shoulder.
"Three"I Took Three Deep Breathes
Out Holding The Side Of Dad's Neck
Not Wanting To Let Him Go And Just
Try To Smooth Down To His Soft Touch
And Easy Heart Beat Against My Chest
"I Had A DNA Test Run She Lied To Get
Money Out Of Me"Dad Said I Was Able To Breathe More Hearing Those Words
"Really?"I Felt Dad Nod Bringing Me
More Closer To Him"Give Us A Minute
Elizabeth"Dad Said To Her"Do You
Believe Me?"He Asked"Yes,I'm Sorry
For Not Answering The Phone I...Was
Just Overwhelmed When I Left"I Said.
"It's Okay I Know You Were"Dad
Said And Held Me For A Long Time
We Didn't Say Anything And Just Stood There In Eachothers Arm's"Dad I Love
You"I Looked Up From His Shoulder
Watching Him Look Down At Me
Playing With My Hair
"Not As Much As I Love You"Dad
Said And Asked How My Doctor's
Appointment Went"I Need To Wear
These For Another Hour He Said
My Eyes Are Fine Just To Keep My
Stress Down"I Told Dad I Was Okay
And That I Was Taking My Meds.
"Why Didn't You Tell Me You We're Having Trouble With Your Vision Again ?"He Said Scolding Me"I
Thought It Was My Meds I'll Let
You Know Next Time"I Made The Puppy Eyes Knowing He Can't Get
Mad At Me If I Did That
"You Just Know The Puppy Eyes
Are My Weakness"He Said Pitching
My Cheeks"I Trust You Keep Taking
Your Meds On Time And Try To Rest
Today,Alright ?"Dad Said My Heart
Was Sinking Now With All The Secrets
I Have Andy Believes In Me.
"Y..You Trust Me ?"I Repeated What
He Said His Face Changed Getting
Confused"Of Course Why Wouldn't I ?"
He Questioned I Just Laid My Head
On His Shoulder Wanting To Tell
Dad Everything"You Know You Can Tell Me Anything,Right ?"He Said
"I-I Know I'm Okay Really I Am"
I Said Assuring Andy I Was Doing
Better Now That He's Here With Me
Dad Asked How I Was Doing Knowing My Parents Death Anniversary Is Coming Soon"I Think I'm Okay Today"
I Said And Just Stared At Him Trying
Not To Cry Again"I Promise I'll Come
Get You When That Day Comes So We
Can Go Home For Awhile"Dad Said.
I Slowly Put My Hands On His Face Smiling Small Grateful For Andy But Ashamed I Keep The Things I Hate About Myself Locked Away From Him
Because Losing Him Is Something I
Will Not Let Happen I Just Can't
"Thank You".
"For What Son?"Dad Asked"Just
Being My Dad For Staying By My
Side....Giving Me A Reason To Live"
Andy Hated It When I Spoke Like
That He Didn't Like Me Talking As
If It Was The Last Time I Would See
Him
"Son You Know I Don't Like It When
You Talk Like That"Dad Said Getting Worried Holding My Left Hand That
Was Creasing His Face"I Mean It I
Say It Alot But...I Need To Tell You Now"I Took A Breath Out Watching That Soft Look In His Eyes He Has
Giving Me For Years.
"I Believe...You Being In My Life Gave
Me A Gift It Was The First Time In A Long Time I Was Able To See Myself And Not Want To Hate My Life...Not Only Did You Save Me But You Gave Me The Courage To Want To Live Like The Things You Done When Y...You Stayed Up On Those Nights With Me When I Can't Be Alone...Or When You Would Hold Me For Hours And Just Lay There With Me...And The Times
You Would Let Me Cry When I'm
Crawled Up In A Ball When The Pain
Is Too Much And Let Me Know I'm Okay...Even If I Laid In Bed All Day
You Would Still Say Your Proud..."
I Wiped My Tears Away Silently
Crying Watching Dad Cry I Slightly
Crashed Into Him Thanking God He
Brought Andy To Me"Thank You For Being My Light In This Dark World"
I Slowly Whispered To Him And Dad
Did Not Hesitate To Tighten His Hold
On Me Hearing His Breathing Get
Uneasy.
"No Son There Is No Need To Thank Me You Truly Have Changed Me For The Better Really,I Wouldn't Know
What I Have Done Without You For A
Long Time I Knew I Was Missing Something Then I Found You,You
Make Me Forget All The Stress From Work When I See You I Love You More Than I Loved Anyone Else And There Nothing I Wouldn't Do To Protect You"
Dad Said I Was A Little Kid Again Over The Moon Crying Even More
"Give Me A Kiss"Dad Said I Kissed His Cheek He Smiled Happily Showing His Dimples Stroking My Hair"One More"
He Said I Giggled And Kissed Both Sides Of His Cheeks Dad Wiped My
Dry Tear Stains Away.
"Sorry To Ruin The Moment Sweetie But We Got To Go"Elizabeth Said Dad Groaned Annoyed Pulling Away"It's
Okay,They Need You Be Safe You Two"
I Gave Momma Beth A Hug Then Dad
He Kissed My Head Telling Me To Get Back Inside Cause It Was Getting Cold
"I Love You Try To Rest"He Said I Waved To Them Emma Walked Me
Back Inside
"Why Don't You Go Change Into
Comfortable Clothes"Emma Said
I Agreed With Her And Went To
The Bathroom And Changed Into
More Warm Clothes For The Night
Checking My Blood Pressure Seeing
How High It Was From Mixed Emotions All Day Today.
"Where's Lucas ?"I Asked Emma
Getting Some Water Sitting On The Couch"Getting Out The Shower"She Said Then Looked Down The Hallway
Turing Back To Me"Can I Ask You A
Question Cupcake?"She Said I Nod
"What Is Detective Standford To
You And All The Others?"Emma
Asked.
"Family,I Call Elizabeth Momma Beth
Sometimes,My Uncle Is Ian,Herny Is
My Godparent And Of Course Andy Is
You Already Know My Dad"I Said Happily She Smiled Nodding
"Are You...Attached To Andy With
All Of Them ?"She Asked"Well..I
Suppose With Andy And Momma
Beth I Really Do Try To Control
My Speration Anxiety With Them"
I Said Fiddling With My Mother's
Ring"It's Okay I Can See How Much
They Mean To You"She Said Washing
Some Of The Grapes.
"Any Of Them Have Family ?"She
Said"Todd Has Kids And Married
Along With Uncle Ian But Elizabeth
Lives Alone And Pays Her Attention
To Work Like Andy And Herny Lives
With His Dog And Married To The Job
Too"I Said She Laughed Then Lucas
Came Out His Room Coming To The
Kitchen
"After This You Need To Try And
Get Some Rest You Been Up For Days
It Worries Me"Lucas Said Handing Me
Some Grapes To Eat For Now"I Feel
Fine But I'll Try Don't Worry"I Said
Eating My Green Grapes.
I Looked Down Noticing All The
Calories Logo From All The Chips
And Juices Were Either Taken Off
Or Written Over Black Sharpie Dad
Did The Same Thing The First Time
He Brought Me Home And Still Does
That Andy Would Draw Over The Logo With All The Calories And Fat I Cried When He Did That Now Lucas Was Doing It
"What's All This ?"I Said Showing
The Colored Over Calories"Just So
You Feel Safe And Not Worry About
The Calories With Your ED"Lucas
Said I Smiled To Him Looking Back
Down At It"Thanks You Didn't Have
Too"He Ruffled My Hair Saying He
Just Wanted Me To Feel Safe Eating
The Foods I Could.
Time Skip;
"You Should Head To Bed Now,I'm
Just Gonna Be Texting Some Friends"
I Said To Lucas Noticing He Was
Kinda Tired"It's Only Nine,A Few
More Minutes Won't Hurt"He Said
Smiling To Me I Smiled Back Looking
Back At My Phone Texting Andrew.
"Can I Ask You Something?"Lucas
Asked I Told Him To Go Ahead And
Tell Me What He Wants To Ask
"What Did They Help You With At
The Health Center?"Lucas Asked
When Emma Went To Bed And The Movie Finished"A Lot Actually To Feel With Your Hands And Sense What's Around You,Stuff Like That "I Said.
"Drawing Out How You Look Like
With My Hands"I Said Putting My Phone Down And Took A Deep Breath Out Closing My Eyes Putting My Hands Out Feeling I Was Holding Lucas's Face And Trying To Feel The Details Of His Face Without Seeing It That's What They Taught Me When I Lost My Vision After Trail
I Moved My Hands Down To Lucas's
Shoulders Just Feeling The Difference
In His Left And Right Arm"I Can Feel
The Difference Between The Arm With
Your Tattoos And Without"I Said And
Lucas Locked His Left Hand In Mines
When I Went Back To Creasing His Face Noticing How Smooth And Soft
It Was In My Hands.
"Th...That's One Of The Things I Was
Taught"I Said And Opened My Eyes
I Was Excited To Show One Of The
Things I Learned In That Center To Lucas But I Also Wanted To Try And Work On My Fear Of The Dark
"Come"Lucas Said Putting His Hands Out I Slowly Pulled My Hands Out
And He Gently Held Me It Felt Different Something I Haven't Felt Before But It
Made My Heart Feel Weird Again"I
Love You I Just Hope You Know I'm
Sorry I Caused You Alot Pain"Lucas Whispered In My Ear.
I Can Hear The Saddens And Empathy
In His Voice How Low It Was But Sincere My Vision Started To Get
Watery Wanting To Cry Ever Since
He Told Me The Meaning About His
Tattoos I Saw The Look In His Eyes
He Has Been Giving Me Like I'm All That Matters To Him
I Realized Right Now That I Was
Forgiving Him And Slowly Started
To Feel Safe Again Wanting To What
It Was Like Before With Me And Him.
Where I Can Say I Love Him That Feeling Was Scaring Me Right Now
I'm A Person Of God Because Of My Mother I Was Taught That Whatever Lucas Has Done To Fight With Them All The Time I Would Need To Forgive Him And I Always Did
I Guess That Is What's My Heart Was
Doing It Was Forgiving Him"I'm Sorry
Marcus I'm So Sorry"Lucas Deep And Low Tone Said Hearing How He Meant It And He Did I Just Sat There Patting
His Back My Love For Him Was Slowly Coming Back Up Mixed With That Hatred I Have For Him.