It might seem as if I'm upset because he didn't have sex with me...
Girl please...
Yeah, that's exactly what it is. But who wouldn't? I mean to be fair it's been a while since somebody touched me like that.
And den again him know whe him a duh.
Probably a try fi spite mi because I never listened him to him earlier.
Well if a suh be the case spite him back den.
Realll
Now taking up my clothes that were thrown across the room. I Went into the bathroom for a towel and wrapped it around my body.
Dwayne was in standing front of the sink washing his hands. Watching my every move through the mirror but I ignored his steer
Old shit house.
Cause why yuh start summ and nuh wah finish it?
Summ muss wrong wid him or summ.
Exactly
I gave you the green light so why not take it?
Something have to wrong wid me for real because ain't no way.
I left him there and went downstairs to the washroom.
Aguh wash it out tomorrow when mi wake. I said to myself as I threw my clothes in the basket and then went back to the bedroom.
"Can give me a T-shirt fi put on mi nave nun else fi sleep inna," I told him.
"Vex yuh vex parrot?" He asked ignoring my question.
"Dwayne just gimme one shirt nuh please mi wah gah mi bed now." I clapped back, he's taking it for a joke despite of how serious I was.
He took a white T-shirt from his drawer and passed it to me. I grabbed the T-shirt aggressively and put it on. After doing so, I Took a clean underwear from my bag and put it on.
After which I got comfortable in bed turned the TV on and put it on baddies.
Uncle did end up guh fi the remote.
It was on the bed when I came back into the room.
"Mi ask a question and all now yuh nuh ansa mi." He says. He puts his phone on the nightstand and gives me his undivided attention.
"Which question," I asked back
"Yuh really upset seh mi turn down having sex with yuh?"
"Yuh nuh attracted to mi or summ?" I say
"Mi ask a question first. Stop try run whe from yuh feelings if a suh yuh feel a suh yuh feel." He points out.
He's right. I don't want to admit the fact that I feel some type of way he turned down sex with me just now.
I took a deep sigh and thought about how I was going to structure my words to him before responding.
"Yes, mi feel some type a way because yuh see seh mi did want it and then the fact seh yuh just turn it down just suh, a nuff things start to run through mi mind," I spoke softly
"Things like what?" He questions as he starts rubbing my thighs.
"Like....if yuh nuh like mi dem way or a because yuh have other options and already duh things wid dem dats why yuh nuh want It."
"First of all mi wouldn't look yuh if mi neva attracted to yuh sexually. Trust mi a from the fuss time mi see yuh mi wah Ben yuh ova. But a because mi respect you and yuh standards. Den again mi realize seh yuh love overthink and yuh still a wull back wid yuh feelings. And mi nuh wah Jump and have sex wid yuh knowing yuh nuh fully open up to me yet yuh get whe mi a seh." He says as he looks up at me. I could not stop myself from smiling.
Him like off the doll enuh
Maybe man nuh suh bad after all.
"Suh yuh like like mi den?" I asked with a wide grin on my face
"Mi wouldn't keep up wid yuh stinking attitude if mi neva like yuh dem way deh babe."
My heart starts pounding in my chest at what I'm about to say next.
Please nuh, mek mi regret doing this.....
"Well I like you too, so now we even."
He sat up beside me and leaned in for a kiss. His lips were soft, warm and so inviting. We both pulled away from the kiss and started smiling at each other.
"Yuh fi move suh more often." he states as he rubs my lips with his thumb.
"Aguh try, nah mek nuh promises.
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Sometimes I cant help but to imagine what my life would be like if chose a different path. The path where I didn't have to go out every day and busy myself right around the clock. The path where I could go anywhere at any time and do as I pleased without having to worry about being watched or followed. The path where I could be around the people I love and care about without putting them at risk.
Don't get me wrong I was allowed to walk away but I'm not gonna lie I didn't want to walk away.
Dem lifestyle yah fit mi more, only problem whe run pon mi mind is I'm putting another person life at risk.
Her life to be exact...
I exhaled the smoke through my nose and my nostrils as I admired nature on my balcony. Still deep in My thoughts.
Chawgie yuh know yuh affi tell her at some point right??
Of course.
Knowing Niyoka she changes her mind very quickly. She's very careful and sceptical about her love life. Maybe it's something from her past. At a time like this, I shouldn't be falling for anyone or being seen with anyone.
A problem when yuh enemy dem find out yuh weakness yer, I can testify to that cause the plans mi ave fi some a dem pussyole yah....
As said before I chose this lifestyle and I love the fact that it keeps me on the go. This is why I'm so clinged to Niyoka. She keeps me on my toes by challenging me.
Cyah tek eh easy gyal whe duh as mi seh and fling dem self pon mi.
I like how she keeps me thinking, and how she's very protective with her feelings and cautious with her emotions.
I would love it if she opened up a bit more but the fact that she's trying to protect herself makes me respect her even more.
Wonda if mi fi give har the sex now and trap har that way if mi tell her whe mi duh pon a daily she nuh leave Cah by that time she mad out????
Niyoka she name enuh she goodly walk out pon yuh same way killa. wouldn't know if yuh nuh try though...
I shook my head and chuckled at my subconsciousness.
"A wah sweet yuh sir?" She asked as she sat in my lap.
Think she neva did Aguh wake
Mi sexy parrot enuh...
I adjusted myself in the chair, so she could sit properly on my lap. My hands now rubbing her thighs as we sat in silence.
Coulda get use to diss mi nah lie
Peace of mind...
The silence was interrupted when her phone began ringing.
"Shit." She whispered
Which man a call har phone suh early
KL nuh killa a not even yuh woman yet.
Afta title nuh mean nothing if a me she dah wid a mi woman.
"Girl look from when yuh seh yah guh call back." A familiar voice yells.
Jordanne wife cyah gimme a buss inna life mon....
"Neva memba Girl did drop asleep." She informs her.
"A whe yuh deh? Yuh background look different."
"Yah question mi woman fah ash?" I intervened
Niyoka turns her gaze to me with a shocked expression on her face.
Nah, tek it back Cah mi serious.
"A lie, yuh move fast eh, mi tek back whe mi did seh." She responds, excitement now evident in her voice as Niyoka continues to give me a deadpan steer.
"Anyways Girl back to the main reason you called." She told Ashley.
"No when yuh reach home yuh call mi back cause yuh know a plan we a plan and hours a chatting dat."
"Just admit seh a call yuh call fi fass and done jhoncruh." niyoka says sounding a bit irritated.
"Love you too baby later," Ashley shouts
"Fuck off." Niyoka responds and ends the call.
"Feel fi change my mind Cah this planning thing a stress me out." She whispered now laying her head on my chest as she continued to use her phone.
"Wah stress yuh?" I asked
"My birthday is next month and I wanted to do a photoshoot and a dinner afterwards, well ash dem did a seh party but I don't want to even though it nuh sound bad." She says her mood changes after that response.
"Why, u whe as dem seh road yuh ready?"
"Bye." She says now pushing my face to the side as she laughs.
Love har smile essi.
Prefer diss dan the bad eye dem...
"The last time I kept a birthday party my parents were alive and present ." She says softly.
Jah Jah
"How dem pass?" I asked
"Car accident." She spoke dryly
I kissed her forehead and rubbed her thighs as a way of comfort.
"My condolences princess. My parents dem nuh deh yah either suh mi understand how yuh feel. Well, one a dem nuh deh yah. The other one disowns mi suh it nuh matter."
She looked up at me and we both locked eyes with each other.
We shared a kiss but it felt different this time. It felt reassuring.
Neva yet get dem Feeling yah mi nuh normally kissy kissy.
Mek eh Killy Killy feel like kiss...
Now mi can relate to dah line deh
Knowing that she lost her parents I just want to be there for her even more. So there's no way I'm walking out of her life whether she wants to accept my lifestyle or not. She has to at some point cause I'm not going anywhere.
"I'm sorry by the way." She whispers
"Dat good enuh, a life we just affi move same way, when a yuh birthday?"
"January 6."She states
I took a mental note of her birthday.
Aguh mek dah birthday yah special fi har......
"Wah the plans today?" She asked as she played with my beard.
"Know seh mi have somewhere fi go did a wait till yuh wake first," I replied
"Aii come hurry up and carry mi home before dem mad gyal yah call mi back." She says as she gets up out of my lap.
Time fi duh whe mi a duh now.
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Mi love when the two a dem a get along essi 🥰🥰🥰 🥰🥰🥰