(A/n - Guys thank u so much for your love on this story... It's on #2 in painful.....vote and comment as you like and stay tuned till the end... Love you all💜🤧)
Yn pov :
" Someone said that when you are in love you seems different than usual. You take care of yourself, you tend to care of your near ones, everything seems to be beautiful and loving around you. You just want to remain in your own world with your lover who loves you more than anything.
And I was lucky to get koo in my life as my lover. He was a perfect partner anyone can think of. His concerns, his love, his care, him was enough for me to fall in love with him more than yesterday.
When we started dating he literally changed into a sweet person opposite to his old character. He laughs a lot , doesn't hide his feelings from me, doesn't hide his tears from me. He was reflected like a plain mirror to me.
Innocent and pure from outside and inside too.
One day he even nicknames our names as "Pearl " and "Hun ". And I love those names. It was indicating us only.
We even had our first kiss in front of Han river between chill wind. Mouth open. Air like whispers, flowing softly from his lips. Chest lightly falling and rising, he turned me on just by his breathing.
I would never forget that day. When he wrote a song for me " Still with you ". His lines were dedicated to me. As if he was planning to be the last till future. But then one day everything shattered like pieces in front of us. On that particular day I thought I lost my everything in just blink of an eye. I lost him, his love, his everything and only thing which was left for me from him was hatred.
It was a rainy day when I reached my home in the evening after school. When I entered inside my house the atmosphere was looking quite tense.
My dad , mom, Oppa all were siting in the living room with a stern face.
As soon as they got their attention on me the first thing my dad asked me was?
" Who is jungkook?? Yn... "
My feets stumbled a bit hearing his name.
" That... Dad... He is my b - boyfriend. "
I said in a lower tone almost whispering.
" Yn.... Didn't I asked you to concentrate on your future rather than these things? You know these things distracts you!!"
He said with disappointment.
" But d - dad I love him really... And he loves me too.. "
I thought to stand up for our love.
" I don't want to hear anything Yn... You really disappointed me. I didn't expected this from you.... Even if you loved someone does he have to be that person? You know he doesn't have any future. "
He said making me disappointed on him.
" Dad... It is not like that... Come on... At least you don't say like this... He has a future... I know him. And I know he will prove himself in future.... He just need love and believe dad... And I am sure he will win in the last. "
I stated him.
" That doesn't mean Yn.... That you will always keep him motivated through his whole life. He is mature now... He should decide what he want to do... and I can't give you in any person's hand who doesn't have any future. "
He said.
" No.... Dad... Please I love him dad... I love him very much... Dad... I won't be able to live without him... Please dad. "
At that moment a tear escaped from my eyes. As I was already fearing to loose him. Even in my dreams i didn't thought to lose him.
" You will go New York tomorrow... And thats final... It s up-to you if you want to listen your dads words and make him proud on yourself or still want to go with jungkook ignoring your dad words. Decide. "
With that he left from there leaving me shattered into pieces.
It seemed like everything slided by my hands like sand. I lost everything. It was too hard for me to decide. I can't leave my love neither I can go against my dads words. Why isn't he noticing my happiness? Why can't he notice how much i love him ?
From the all things I was most scared of what will happen when I will tell him about thees ? He will broke into pieces... his strength which I endured with so much of love will break in an instance , his believe on me will shattered like glass pieces.
He will broke internally, mentally, and after that he won't believe me... Never.
I crouched done on my knees while crying silently not in state to say anything. At that time my biggest strength was my Jin Oppa.
He came towards me and helped to make me understand about it which I didn't wanted to understand.
" Yn....get yourself... Stand up... "
He said not wanting to see me in this condition.
" O - Oppa what will I - I do now? I - I can't leave him oppa... I l - love him... I love him so much Oppa... "
I broke down in tears.
" I know little... But you have to be strong... You know you can't go against dad.. "
He said wiping off my tears.
" Oppa... I won't b - be able to live without him Oppa... I need him.... In my life.... No.... Whole life... Please Oppa talk with dad... Please.... I don't want to go New York.... Tell him please I will do anything he want me to do here.... But tell me don't separate us.... Please Oppa... "
I cried, I begged, for him. Only for him.
I tried every possible way just to stay with him.
Because I promised him that I will always stay beside him. How can i betray him? How can i betray my love?
" Yn... Daughter... Please understand... If you won't listen to him... He might do anything to keep you both separate... And I know you won't like it love... "
My mom said comforting me.
" Yeah Yn... You know how much dad is concerned about his companies and future and all ? Even he doesn't listen to me. "
He was right.
" But Oppa... He needs me.... He need believe and love and trust. I know him Oppa he will prove himself.... He isn't like other boys... He is very kind and innocent Oppa... He is just like a child... He just need right direction to move on..... And I am his compass... He needs me.... Please... "
I said wiping off my tears trying to make them understand.
" Little! It will only harm him. "
He said.
" He will be broken Oppa... How will he handle this? He came out from his old behaviour because of me... Now he will again paint himself into it.... And this time he won't come out from that... "
I said still crying my heart out.
I tried to make them understand as much as I can. Even my Oppa and mom weren't against us but dad.... he never listened me and I didn't had any choice than leaving him. I know he will hate me, he won't like to see me in future but I was ready to embrace it. If I had embraced his love then I can endure his hate too. I deserved it.
And the next day before going to New York I called him in our usual park. He came there while waving his hand and I was sitting on the bench idly being vulnerable. He came towards me.
" Pearl... See i have bought something for you. "
He said extending the cream croissant and my favourite chocolate.
I took it while smiling. He didn't noticed my condition as I was left facing him.
" You seems to be in good mood hun... "
I asked seeing his lit up face which I wanted to keep like this till the last but I failed.
" Yeah! I am in good mood today.. In fact I am very happy. "
He said showing his bunny teeth.
" Share with your Pearl too... "
I asked.
" Sure... If I won't tell you then whom I will tell?.... Leave it.... You know i scored good marks today in my test... Not only that... I topped in my class with flying colours.... And for that dad praised me for the first time....i am really very happy today. "
He said in excitement.
I noticed how happy and cheerful he was unlike his old behaviour. And I was loving his new side. The way he shows his bunny teeth when he laughs melt my heart so softly. The way his doe eyes shine brightly in which I wanted to drown till the end.
But I lost everything. The things I decided to keep till the last got broken in instance. The dream of him and me staying together, loving forever like there is no tomorrow just shattered in front of me and i can't do anything.
The things which was haunting me was how can I utter a word in front of him about this ? How can i break his innocence soul who opened his heart for me so that he would get betrayal in the end ?
He was too innocent to get hurt. How will he react to this? He will be broken for sure.
" That's great hun... I am proud of you... Keep rising like this.... But for me you have to promise me something... Will you? "
I asked suppressing my tears.
" Anything for you, love ...."
He said and I can see sincerity in his eyes.
" Hun... Promise me... You will always keep your position and condition like this... Study hard.... And always score good marks, doesn't necessary to top every time but at least don't let your happiness fall. So that one day your dad will proud of you. And the day when you will become a good man with everything, the happiest person will be me. "
I said.
Suddenly noticing my pale face he cupped my cheeks lovingly. I can't help but melt under his warm touch.
" Pearl... Why are you saying like that? Its not that you are going anywhere ....we will achieve things together in future. You remember I said we will live like a perfect couple by which the world will envy of. "
He said as I nodded my head.
" Then we will do that together. We will achieve everything together. Pearl and hun can never be separated., love."
As he said those words I can't control myself and broke down into tears in front of him. It was getting too hard for me to control my emotions. I know that i taught him to be strong but when the time came I was sitting there weak..
Only if I could tell him how much i wanted him to embrace in my arms and never leave him ever. How much i wanted to cry on his chest and let out all my pain.
" Love! Why are you crying? What happened? Did anyone told you something? Please tell me? You are making me worried.. "
He asked too many questions only after seeing me crying my heart out.
And then i wiped off my tears standing straight to face this situation. I know he will hate me but he have to be strong.
" I am leaving for New York today.. "
I said with a blank face.
And I noticed how his face turned expression less.
" New York? What are you saying pearl? You are kidding right? "
He said and I can sense fear from him.
" No... Jungkook... I am not kidding... I am going New York today. And I don't know when I will return, or even I will return back or not. It's better you chose your path and live your life as you want. "
I said and he was too stunned to say anything.
" No....no... Pearl... It can't be true.... You said we will live together....then how can you say like that.... Don't you will feel alone without me? "
He asked looking into my eyes and I break the contact.
" I will live jungkook. We have to learn without each other now. "
I said with a straight face but only i know how much i was suppressing my tears. Coward me! I can't even tell him that my father doesn't think him capable for me that's why he is doing this.
" Yn... Are you out of your mind? How can you betray me like this? It was you only who loved me selflessly like none would do, it was you who taught me to leave my cold nature, it was you when I needed you. It was you who gave me the hope to live my life like others, it was you who said that you won't leave me ever. Then how can you leave me in the middle? How will I live without you? "
And atlast he broke down into tears. Everytime I was there for him to console him whenever he cry but today I was the reason for him to cry. At that time i literally wanted to hug him or wanna curse myself for making him cry.
" Please jungkook try to understand...forget me and live your life as you want. "
" I trusted you, gave my heart to you, but now your words means nothing because your actions spoke the truth...Shin Yn... It wasn't your fault, it was my fault to believe in each words you said, each promise you took, everything was fake. I should have understood that time only that no one stays with you forever it's just they pretend to be with you and take advantage of your innocence. "
His words were enough for me to bleed my heart. It stabbed like a knife on me. His hurtful words were for me was clenching my heart. I didn't knew that this day will come too.
" If you are done... Then I am going. "
I said.
" I wish I could give you my pain not to hurt you but to make you understand how much i got hurt by you. Trust me i hate you the most in the whole world now. From now you mean nothing to me shin Yn... "
He yelled at me while I turn my back to him because I can't stand to him anymore. His crying, his yelling and his hurtful words were breaking my heart into pieces.
" Good bye Jungkook...."
I said and went from there leaving him alone crying.
JK pov :
" She left me. She told me she won't yet she did. Actually i was a fool to think that a person like her won't hurt me. She is like others. She is not mine. I cried, I begged still she doesn't looked at me. She didn't even bothered to tell me the reason. And left me like this.
Was it my fault falling in love with her? Trusting her blindly? Trusting her fake promises... HOW CAN YOU DO THAT TO ME SHIN YN... I HATE YOU.... I HATE YOU THE MOST... "
I HOPE THAT YOU FEEL THE SAME PAIN I FELT.... AND IF I HAVE TO GIVE YOU THE PAIN MYSELF.... I WONT HESITATE TO GIVE YOU... I SWEAR...
I cried my heart out when she left. And I promise myself that I won't cry after that. And obviously not for her.
After that day my dad scolded me for crying over a girl saying I am still a weak boy who doesn't have control over his emotions. He doesn't want Yn to come back in my life due to my vulnerable condition.
And from that day i decided to study hard and prove her and dad that me, Jeon jungkook wont fail in his life.
I know I hated her. But somewhere in my heart i wanted to fulfil the promise she took from me to study hard and become a great man in future.
* Flashback ends *
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It' was emotional right ! My eyes are sweating a lot I guess 😅...
Anyways hope you enjoyed. And buckle up your seatbelt to see what Yn will do to save her love??