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Literally Nobody's POV:
"Where have you been?" Bruce asks Tony
"Somewhere amazing." Tony replies with a smile
"That's weird, you've never smiled like this for the past few years... What happened?" Natasha asks him
"Something awesome." Pepper replies
"What's with the two of you?" Yelena asks Peter and Kate
"We- yeah- something awesome happened." The two reply in unison
Wanda then tries to read their minds but fails.
"What happened? I can't seem to get inside any of your heads." Wanda tells them
"It's for the best if you can't read our minds." Tony tells her then he beams her a smile
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"What's going on?" Natasha asks the others and they all shrug their shoulders
"Are you sure you can't read their minds?" She asks her girlfriend
"I can't. I tried. This is the first- second time I failed to get inside a persons head." Wanda replies
"Second time? What do you mean?" Natasha asks her
"The first person I failed to read their mind is the woman we faught before. The woman who almost killed us all." Wanda replies
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Y/N's POV:
Ok.
Uhmm-
Let's start training!
I'm now in the training room.
Full of weapons, and oooh! Lot's of dummies!
I then feel a lot of anger in me.
My blood is boiling hot, and I don't know why.
Maybe it's because of my past.
I never got to fucking experience a normal life!
I- I never got to graduate highschool with my bestfriends.
I-
I NEVER GOT TO TELL TASHA-
AND WANDA-
I-
I never got to tell them that I love them.
I never got to-
"FUCK! FUCK THIS LIFE!" I yell then I start to punch the bag harder and faster
As I was punching the punching bag angrily, I start to feel tears running down on my cheeks.
I- Imagine if-
What if I was never kidnapped?
What if I never forgot my memories?
What if-
What if I told Tasha that I fell for her since the day she treated my wound?
What if I told Wanda that I was falling for her?
What if-
What if I just died at the explosion?
What if we fought back together, instead of splitting our paths.
My life would be better if-
"MY LIFE WOULD BE BETTER IF I- IF I WASN'T STUPID! I'M FUCKING STUPID!" I yell then the punching bag flung across the room
Great.
Another punching bag broke.
I'm exhausted for another one.
I should go to sleep.
I have work tomorrow.
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Somewhere in shield...
Hell yeah.
First day of work.
I prefer to be called eleven to hide my real identity...
"Goodmorning Agent Eleven." Fury greets
"Goodmorning uncle Fury." I reply and I give him a quick warm hug
"Nice mask." He tells me and I chuckle
"Nice eye patch." I tell him and he laughs
"Nice one." A blonde haired woman tells me
I've never seen her before...
"Hi, Miss. I've never seen you before." I tell her
"That's because I was on a mission. Air force mission." She replies
"I'm Carol, Carol Danvers." She tells me as she hands her hand out for me to shake
"El, nice to meet you Miss Danvers." I reply
"Call me Carol. What's with the mask and the manly voice?" She asks
"Oh, I didn't mean to be rude." She adds
"It's okay, don't worry. I have a reason why, I'll take my mask off soon, do don't worry." I reply and she smiles
God she's so beautiful.
Is she single?
"Are you single?" She asks
Oh wow.
That was unexpected.
"I am." I reply
"May I ask you out?" She asks
OH
MY
LORD
She's asking me out!
Oh my god -
Uhmm-
"Yes, sure! Of course." I reply
I'm bright red right now.
Thanks to the mask, no one sees my blushing face.
"You can both go out on a date after work." Fury tells us and we both nod
Few seconds later, I get kicked from behind and I fall down on the floor.
What the fuck?
I was about to stand up then...
Tasha?
What the-
She then grips my neck, pinning me on the ground.
Fuck.
Is she okay?
"What did you do to my friends?" She asks me whilst choking me
"I- I don't know what you're talking about." I reply
Tasha stop.
Please.
"ROMANOFF! LET AGENT ELEVEN GO!" Fury yells but she ignores him
"I'm going to kill you if you don't tell me what you did to my friends." She threatens me
What does she mean?
I don't even know who her friends are.
I then see Sharon and Maria running towards us.
"Nat- let her go." Carol tells her
Tasha.
Please.
I-
I can't breathe-
I can fight her, but I don't want to hurt her.
"Go ahead. K- Kill m- me." I tell her as I struggle to breathe
"I s- said k- kill m- me!" I yell at her
"What? Can't k- kill m- me?" I state as I start to run out of breath
I think I'm going to die.
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Natasha's POV:
"What did you do to my friends?" I ask her as I choke her
"I- I don't know what you're talking about." She replies
"ROMANOFF! LET AGENT ELEVEN GO!" Fury yells but I ignore him
"I'm going to kill you if you don't tell me what you did to my friends." I threaten her
Answer me or I'll cut your head off.
"Nat- let her go." Carol tells me
Shut up.
"Go ahead. K- Kill m- me." She tells me as she struggles to breathe
Wait-
"I s- said k- kill m- me!" She yells at me
No-
This can't be real.
"What? Can't k- kill m- me?" She states as she starts to run out of breath
No-
I-
What-
That dialogue is familiar...
Y/N?
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Somewhere in the past...
"Go ahead. K- Kill m- me." She tells me as she struggles to breathe
"I s- said k- kill m- me!" She yells at me
"Can't k- kill m- me?" She teases
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Deja Vu?
No-
It can't be.
It's not possible.
She's dead.
I then realize that I was full of anger and I didn't realize that I was killing her.
I then stand up awkwardly as I hand her my hand to help her up and she takes it.
"You pointed a gun at her, and now you almost choked her to death." Fury tells me
"Sorry." I reply sheepishly
"Are you okay?" El asks me with a comforting tone
"Look, I don't know who your friends are. I don't know a single thing about your life." She tells me
Her mask.
I have to take it off to be sure.
I then start to grab her mask of her face but she grabs my wrist and pulls me closer to her.
Our faces, inches apart.
"The mask stays on my face." She tells me and she gently let's go of my hand
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Y/N's POV:
I can't-
I can't ket her see me now.
I'm not ready.
I then take a few steps back...
I-
I didn't mean to pull her close to me.
But the closeness-
Oh god.
No!
Y/N, LET HER GO!
"Romanoff, my office. Now." Fury tells Tasha
"You okay love?" Carol asks me and I blush
Love?
Uhh-
"Y- Yeah. I almost died, but I feel- I'm fine." I reply and she gives me a warm smile
"Does it hurt?" Sharon asks
"A little." I reply
"I really don't get it why she hates me." I add
"She doesn't hate you. She's just dealing with something. I think." Maria tells me as she looks at Fury and Tasha walking towards the elevator
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Few moments later...
Another ginger head enters the building.
She then walks closer and closer until I saw hee face clearly.
No-
Wanda?
This is not-
She's not-
She's here?
In New York?
So Pietro is here too?
Wanda.
I-
I missed you.
I-
I didn't realize that she was standing in front of me.
"Excuse me? Why are you here? After almost killing us?" She asks as both of her hands started glowing
Uh oh.
"I've changed. I was in the wrong path. May I help you with something Miss???" I tell her and her hands stopped glowing
"Wanda, Wanda Maximoff. Sorry, and you are?" She asks tilting her head as she waits for my answer
"Agent Eleven. El in short." I reply
"Do you know where my girlfriend is? I need to talk to her." She tells me
G-
Girlfriend?
Ouch.
Atleast she's into women.
How the fuck should I know where her girlfriend is?
"I'm sorry miss but I don't know who your girlfriend is." I tell her
"Romanoff. Natasha Romanoff. She's my girlfriend." She replies and my heart shattered into pieces
Tasha?
Has a girlfriend?
Wanda?
Has a girlfriend?
Maybe I should've just-
But-
Why!?
Both of the people I fell in love with, fell for each other.
Am I really destined to be alone?
"El?" She asks
"Oh right, sorry. Follow me." I tell her and we walk towards the elevator
No-
It-
Why -
"You okay?" She asks pulling me out of my thoughts
"Hmmm?" I ask her as I turn to face her
"I said, are you okay?" She repeats herself
"Oh- uhh- yeah." I reply
"I'm not going to hurt you, I promise." She tells me as she place her right hand on my left shoulder
Oh my god.
The distance between us.
It's-
It's killing me-
"I can't get inside your head. I can't even hear your thoughts. Whatever you're thinking right now, if it's pain
... don't take it to heart." She tells me and I nod
Don't take it to heart?
You just broke my heart.
I don't think I have one.
The elevator soon opens and I gesture her to walk out first.
I then knock at Fury's office door.
"Come in." He replies
I then open the door for Wanda to enter the room.
"El, Romanoff wants to talk to you." Fury tells me
"Uhmm- maybe after she and her girlfriend finish talking." I reply and Wanda enters the room
She and Tasha then entered the room next to Fury's meeting room.
I then sat down next to Fury.
Few minutes later...
My heart aches as I see the two cupping each other's face.
I can't hear anything about what they're talking about.
But I can hear my heart shake as I breathe.
It's like broken pieces of glass in an empty metal can.
I have to let them go.
It's the only way.
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If you really love someone, you have to let them go even if it hurts.
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They soon kissed each other and Wanda sprinted out of the room with tears on her eyes after their kiss.
What the actual fuck just happened?
Tasha's eyes were the same as usual, emotionless.
Tasha always expresses her emotions with me when we were in the Red Room.
She cried in my arms, and I cried on hers.
She laughs, I laugh.
She smiles, I smile.
"What happened?" Fury asks her
"It's confidential." Tasha replies
"Deal is a deal." Fury replies and Tasha nods
"Let's talk." Tasha tells me and Fury leaves
"Uncle Fury! You can't leave me here! She might kill me!" I yell at him
"Then fight back." He replies as he lets out a chuckle
"Fight back? I- I can't do that." I reply
"Why?" He asks stopping on his tracks
"Because- I just can't." I reply and he leaves with a smirk on his face
You gotta be kidding me.
"Don't worry, I won't hurt you." Tasha tells me after Fury leaves
I then start to fidget on my fingers and she notices and sits down next to me.
She then holds my hand in comfort and I soon start to calm down a bit.
I was about to look at her but I already found her looking at me with her emerald green eyes sparkling like a real emerald.
"I promise." She tells me and I pull my hand away from her gently
"I'm sorry." I tell her
"For what?" She asks
"For everything." I reply
"I'm the one who should be apologizing. I'm sorry for almost killing you twice." She tells me and I nod
"It's okay. I understand how you feel." I reply
"So... What do you want to talk about?" I ask her
"I want to apologize and ask you some questions." She replies
"Don't apologize, I deserve to be punished for all the evil actions I did." I reply fidgeting again with my fingers
"Stop that." She tells me
"Stop what?" I ask her without facing her
"You're hurting yourself." She tells me
Oh.
About that...
"I got used to it, I have anxiety." I reply sheepishly as I stop fidgeting on my fingers
My right leg then stars bouncing anxiously.
As I was busy thinking about what questions she'll ask me, I felt a hand on my right leg and I look at her confused.
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"Relax, calm down." She tells me as she brushes her hand on my bouncing leg
My breathing becomes faster and faster because she's touching my leg.
Like bro!
I'm sensitive when it comes to touching.
I swear-
I'm red as a tomato under this mask right now.
"Name five objects you see around you." She tells me and I nod
Why is she asking me that kind of question?
"Uhh- You, but you're not an object." I reply and my breathing becomes heavier and faster
"It's okay, now four things left." She tells me
"A table, a chair, and a door." I reply
"Keep going, one last thing." She tells me
"And your suit." I reply
Oh my god -
Damn it.
Suit?
Your suit~
Seriously Y/N!?
There's a fucking vase infront of you, why her suit!?
It's not my fault that her chest is distracting!!!
I then cover my face with both of my hands on my mask that is covering my face.
"You're cute." She tells me and I stopped bouncing ny leg
"I'm not." I reply
"You are, you're adorable." She tells me and I blush even more
"Uhmm- uhh- you should uhh- zip up your suit a little higher. There are a lot of perverts out there. I don't want you being eye fucked by random strangers." I tell her
Oh shoot.
Holy shit.
Nooooo!
Y/N!
You're so fucking stupid!
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Natasha's POV:
Wait what?
She's concerned?
Wait-
I feel like this happened before...
Flashback...
"Tasha! How many times do I have to tell you to zip your suit all the way up?" She scolds
"I like it this way. Why do you care?" I tell her with a smirk
"Because I don't want people eye fucking you while are on a mission." She replies as she turns bright red
"Awe, my Y/N is worried about me." I tease her
"Yes! I'm worried! Because I l- nevermind." She states and she walks away
"Hey! Wait up! Fine I'll zip it up. Hey Y/N!" I yell but she keeps walking
"Y/N?" I state
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Y/N's POV:
"Y/N?" She asks
"Hmm?" I hum
Holy mother of god.
Wha-
How-
No-
She then darts her eyes on mine.
"Who's Y/N?" I ask her to avoid suspicion
Fuck.
I'm so dumb.
"She was a friend of mine." She replies with a smile
"Ooh! She must be a good friend because you're smiling like that." I tell her
"You're right, she was. If only you knew how amazing Y/N was." She replies
"Was? Past tense? What happened?" I ask her
"She died." She replies and I frown
Oh.
So she thought I died?
"How did she die?" I ask her
"I'm sorry for being so invasive, forget about it." I add
"It's okay. She died because of a missile attack." She replies
Wait -
She knew?
She knew that I was in hydra?
How?
"She was a hydra test subject, along with Wanda, Pietro and Bucky." She tells me
Uhmm-
Wha-
"Bucky told us that she sacrificed herself for him to see his bestfriend." She adds looking down at the table as she intertwine both her hands together
"Did Bucky meet his bestfriend?" I ask her and she nods
Yes!
I knew it!
Congrats Bucky!
But-
Where are you?
I-
"I wish I had someone special who cares about me." I mumble
"You don't have any friends? Or family?" She asks
I have.
But-
Uhh-
"I have friends... I just met them... Maria, Sharon and Carol." I reply and she gives me a sad look
Oh shoot.
"But I'm fine. Yes. Totally fine. I'm just a lab rat that's all." I reply
I then clear my throat...
"Oh uhh- I have to go. I have to attend my training session." I tell her as I check the time
"So you're the newbie?" She asks
"I'm the what now?" I ask her
"The newbie Fury told me about." She replies
Oh-
What-
"Yes, why?" I ask her and she smirks
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So?
How was this chapter?
Was it great?
Sorry it took so long...
Writing is a bit hard and I'm attending classes that's why it's taking so long to finish one chapter.
I'll try my best making the next chapters amazing!
Thank you for all your support!
I love you guys!
See you on the next chapters!
Thank you for all your patience in every chapter.
I highly appreciate it.
Bye for now.
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