It had been a few days now of you and Loki spending time reconnecting; mostly in the bedroom, twice in the conservatory and once in the pantry. This morning you had both woken up in bed, the gentle sun shining into the room, illuminating the thin sheen of sweat that had accumulated on your skin only moments before. Lokis lips brushed against yours softly before he pulled away, stroking some of your hair out of your face as he smiled at you, eyes running over your features as if he was frightened of forgetting your face. You couldn't deny how pleasure full and almost perfect the past few days had been but you couldn't bite down that niggling feeling that was making its way through you.
"What's the matter?" Loki asked, sensing something was wrong.
"We can't keep doing this Loki." You sighed.
"Doing what, this?" He asked, kissing your forehead.
"Cheating on your girlfriend with your ex wife." You spoke, Loki stiffening slightly. As much as you didn't like Rose, you still felt a little guilty.
"Who she almost killed." Loki scoffed. "Come on, let's just squeeze another round in before we've got to get up." Loki grinned, making his way on top of you.
"Loki I'm being serious, I don't like this. If you want to be with me, you've got to break up with her." You insisted, looking up at him as he settled above you, balancing on his forearm.
"Fine, then that's what I'll do." He answered, leaning down to kiss you.
"Really, you will?" You asked, breaking the kiss.
"I'll break up with her and then we can go on holiday and fuck each other sorry all night" he smiled "you know, make up for lost time." He continued, pausing when he saw your face fall. "What?"
"It's just a little strange you know, talking about getting intimate with me and talking about your girlfriend in the same sentence" you explained "it makes me remember that before a couple of days ago, you were sharing herbed." You finished, Loki laughing at your words. "What?"
"Rose and I were barely speaking let alone sleeping together." He continued to chuckle knowing that he hadn't actually penetrated her for over two weeks.
"Oh, I feel slightly better" you replied "although she did say—" you began, remembering her speech the other day.
"We did pleasure one another in other ways." He interjected.
"And suddenly I feel nauseous again." You spoke, faking a gag before Loki laughed, kissing you again.
"We were together because it was a good arrangement that benefited us both. It was a convenience unlike with you, with you, it's stronger, it's love." He simpered, pecking your lips again. You deepened the kiss, pulling him closer against you. Loki had other words, words that he spoke between your thighs before you both got up and showered.
When you were both in the kitchen, preparing breakfast together, you came up with a plan. You took your phone out, booking flights to Paris for tomorrow and in the time until then, Loki was going to break up with Rose. Not having had time to explain to Thor that you and Loki had reconciled and that Loki was sorry for hating him for so long due to Odins lies, Thor was surprised to see you sitting on the countertop, Loki standing between your legs as your lips moved against each others.
Considering the holiday was last minute, you packed the bare essentials, deciding you'd just buy most of your stuff there. The tickets were open return meaning you didn't know when you'd both be back but you had no responsibility at home, you could both stay in Paris for a year and it'd be fine. You helped Loki to pack, inspiring him to follow suit and pack lightly too, which he did.
Loki took his phone out, calling Rose and asking to meet with her tomorrow. Despite Loki not having the phone on speaker, you could practically hear Rose's smile through the phone and it made you feel bad for her. Regardless of whether or not she was a bitch, it wasn't her fault for getting tangled up in you and Lokis web.
The following morning, Loki god ready early, wanting to get his breakup with Rose out of the way.
"Right so you pack the rest of your things and be ready for me." Loki spoke, kissing you goodbye.
"I've already told you, I'm not bringing anything else." You giggled.
"Fine, fine, but don't complain to me when you can't find any of the things you want in Paris." He shrugged.
"It's Paris we're talking about, they'll have everything, besides, the only thing I want is you."
Loki left, a spring in his step which was almost strange considering he was breaking up with his ex. He took his luggage with him, meeting Rose at a restaurant before leaving for the airport to meet you. You took your bag, putting it into the boot of the taxi before heading to the airport to wait for Loki. Once you arrived, the nerves began making themselves apparent, a sickening feeling settling in your stomach. You decided it was probably because of the impending flight as you waited for Loki. Half an hour passed and he still hadn't arrived but you assumed he was stuck in traffic. Once he was an hour late, your smile faded a little as you got your phone out to ring him. You quickly pocketed your phone again as you spotted Loki walking towards you. Finally you exhaled. You stepped towards him, smile wide until it fell noticing that he no longer had his bag with him.
"Loki? Your bag?" You queried, brows knitting as you eyed his expression, skin pale as he took calming breaths. "What is it Loki?"
"It's Rose."
"Yeah?"
"She—she's pregnant." He admitted.
"O-oh." You gulped, tears brimming in the corner of your eyes. You knew what this meant.
"I—" he began, taking a steadying breath.
"Can't" you finished for him, Loki shaking his head in response. "but Loki" you murmured, knowing him, knowing that he wouldn't just abandon his child.
"We've decided to try and give it another go, for the babies sake." He sniffled slightly, thumb reaching out to wipe the tear that had fallen down your cheek before you took a step back. You looked up at him, lip trembling as you nodded. "But I don't love her, I love you y/n. I'm so sorry." He shook his head, grabbing one of your hands and bringing it to his lips.
"You've got another chance." You tried to smile, more tears flowing now. This was breaking you. "You've got to take it. Take it Loki." You nodded. You didn't want to be the reason for a broken family and you didn't want to be the reason Loki may never be a dad after remembering how elated he was when he first found out you were pregnant. Maybe this was the universe rewarding him. Why did it feel like it was at your expense?
"I'm so sorry." He said again.
You wiped your tears before cupping his cheeks. "I want you to go back to her Loki, you'll be the best dad" you said, fighting to keep your voice even "I want you to have the house, take it, raise your child in it Loki."
"Y/n no, where will you go." He protested.
"I've got a one way ticket to Paris." You smiled sadly. "Goodbye Loki." You blinked your tears away, unable to even listen to him say goodbye back before you sped away, heading for the departure gate, your flight was boarding. You cried as you got on, resting your head on the window. This was it, you felt truly and utterly shattered. Loki watched you leave, wiping his own tears. He wanted you, god he wanted you but he couldn't abandon his child. He wouldn't. Instead, head hung low, he made his way back home. Alone.
Arriving home, Loki rushed upstairs, he wanted to lay in the bed that still held your scent, still carried the memories of the days you had spent together. On his way, he spotted Rose's shoes but he couldn't see her. The closer he drew upstairs, he began hearing her voice but it was muffled, too far away to make out. He followed it, trudging closer before the voice became audible.
"He won't even sleep with me. I need him to sleep with me this week so that the maths adds up. He needs to think this baby is his but he won't even touch me since that bitch has been back." Rose fumed causing Loki to gasp. The baby—it wasn't his?
"Don't speak of y/n in that way." Thor scolded. Loki froze hearing his brothers voice.
"Gosh it's like you boys worship her. How long was you fucking her?"
"Don't be so uncouth, y/n and I have never." Thor answered, Loki too shocked to react. He took a step backwards, the floor creaking beneath his foot.
"Did you hear that?" Rose asked "I better leave and shower before Loki gets back, hopefully I'll be able to bed him tonight. Two Odinsons." She winked, standing to her feet as Thor rolled his eyes.
Loki ran out of the house, throwing up on the lawn as he did so. He had lost you, for nothing. Rose cheated on him with Thor. He wasn't going to be a dad. He was no one, he had nothing.