"Kj, stop crying...hey."
His soft tone and mild caress on my skin made me more vulnerable, hearing him comforting me after what I did was the last thing I want right now because I want him to tell me that what I did was wrong but this is Quen...he will understand my situation and give me all the assurances just to made sure that I was fine and happy.
I kept repeating the words, muttering my apologies over and over again because I know that these past few days I was neglecting him as well as my studies. He offered me help but all that I did was to let out my frustration to him.
Sobbing loudly as I clutch my shirt, feeling the pinch inside my heart. He tried to lift my arms but I kept my position because of the embarrassment and guilt that I felt.
Quen sighed and felt him move a bit then the next thing was his warm skin beside me, pulling my body closer to him.
"Babe..." kissing my cheek. "Do you want me to cry too?"
I shook my head and sniffed. "I'm sorry."
He chuckles. "One sorry was enough for me." Then he caressed the top of my head. "I understand. You don't have to explain everything because I know how much you're having a hard time with your family."
Again, his words made my heart flutter and hurt at the same time. I lifted my head and turned to him, face was still crying and couldn't help myself to stop it.
But Quen was all smiles when he held my face between his hands, thumb wiping the tears while I sniffed like a little kid. "You look cute."
"Scold me."
He shook his head and moved his face to kiss my lips. Another sob came when his lips moved to the tip of my nose up to my forehead.
"How can I get mad when you run here crying thinking that you'd upset me?" His soft laugh lingered in my ears when he whispered in my ear after leaving kisses there.
"I'm sorry." Crying again because of what he said. Honestly, I was thinking I didn't deserve this.
Quen was too good to be true. Since the day that he revealed his love for me, all I can feel is surreal feelings.
He made me cry for almost half an hour. Quen was smiling while he caressed my head softly along with his soft but playful chuckles.
Wiping my tears with the back of my hand when he lifted me up to his bed and lay me there beside him, his hand pulled my body to him and kissed my forehead.
"You okay now?" tucking the strand of hair behind my ear. "Your cheeks and eyes are puffy now."
Pursing my lips to prevent myself from sobbing again, my hands clutched his shirt and buried my face on his neck.
"Sorry for being...a" sniffing and wiping my tears using his shirt. "bad girlfriend."
"You're not." He chuckles and keeps on staring at my face while I'm obviously looking like an idiot crying non stop. "Definitely, not." then kissed the tip of my nose.
"Why are you here? Your team is celebrating..." I bit my lower lip when I felt someone was pinching my heart. "I didn't congratulate you after winning the game...I have no idea about it..." I felt bad...really bad for doing that to Quen. "Sorry for giving you an attitude when you just want to help..."
He didn't say a word and kept his eyes on me, smiling while his thumb caressing the side of my cheeks.
"Why are you here?" I repeat because I was curious. He was sleeping here, alone inside his unit while his members were having fun after winning the game. "You should have fun outside."
"How can I do that when my girlfriend is not fine?" His soft tender voice feels like caressing my insides, comforting. Quen continues to caress the sides of my cheek and laugh quietly. "I can't do that...might as well sleep on my bed."
"Sorry..."
"Stop saying that." He held my chin and gave me a soft kiss multiple times. "It's okay now. You're here."
I nodded and put both of my hands on his nape and hugged him, crushing my body to his.
How can I forget how this feels good? How this made me calm when my head was full of uncertain things.
"I...I lost two clients." I spoke after a minute of silence between us, my voice breaking trying hard not to cry again thinking that I'm starting to make the hard work I did slip away. "I didn't finish the project design for the deadline submission..." but I couldn't stop my loud sobs again when Quen pulled me for a warm hug. "I failed..."
"Rest for tonight and you can think about everything you will do tomorrow." his arms tightened more around my shoulder and lower body. "But this will we do..." while his lips gently kissing my face. "Talk to your professor about it tomorrow for sure she will give you another chance, Lili told me about it too and will actually help you...I'll help you too..."
Burying my face on his chest when I remember what I said when he offered his help. "Sorry."
"Don't hesitate to ask for help, I'm your boyfriend. If I can't help you during these hard times how useless I can be right?"
"No..."
Quen laughs and I can feel his chest vibrate for the sounds. "Clients will contact you, I'm sure of that. You're one great designer. We can't do anything about the lost ones but just be prepared for what's coming and one's more important things is you know what to do now."
Yeah, I learned my lesson now.
I fell asleep that night. For the first time since the incident with Kate, my mind was relaxed.
At ease.
All just I need is Quen's warm hug words.
"Please, Ma'am? Give me two weeks, I'll finish everything...please?"
I will never forget the look our instructor gave me after she agreed to give me additional days to pass my project design. With the help of Quen, support from Lili and our friends I finish the pending projects for the allotted days for my dues.
And like what Quen told me...I received a message from the previous client that cancelled before continuing work with them. It's like magic when I focus myself again on what I should really do.
"Are you really fine?" Asking Kate for the nth time because I couldn't be with her for the past days to make sure that my studies were not left behind. "Sorry."
"Stop saying that!" She tapped my head while her other hand caressing her growing belly. "Always put yourself first...that's what I told you right?"
"I'm just worried about you..."
"Don't be. I'm a grown up woman!" She giggled, making me smile. "Alright just message me if you want any help."
"I don't need any help!" Kate pouted and clung to my arms. "Do your studies and make me proud."
I was a bit stressed but compared to the other week I'm more relaxed now...focused.
"Come on! You are too occupied with studies and work! One of chill please?"
Ysa shook my shoulders still trying to ask me out with the girls.
Giving her a subtle smile and sigh. "I need to finish the design of the gowns this week."
"3 hours night out. Please? Please?" She pursues with her eyes blinking like a puppy. "Come on, Kira Jill! We missed you partying!"
"Alright, alright..." one night wouldn't do any harm right? Isa pa, I think I deserve to chill as well. "I'll just message Quen, okay?"
"He will agree, I know that he can't say no to you."
I shook my head and laughed before using my phone and left a message to Quen. He had training today and film making in the afternoon. It's a girls night out so I need to tell him what's my plan later.
babe ♡: you can go out anytime you want babe :)
That's his quick reply when I message him that Sheen was asking us to have a girls night out.
babe ♡: i want to be clingy and spend the night with you but you need to have fun with the girls as well lol they missed you
Me: Are you sure? :(
babe ♡: so you want me to clingy then?
Me: a bit
babe ♡: alright.
babe ♡: don't go, date me.
babe ♡: sleep with me on my bed
babe ♡: please?
Me: no, babe i cant ;( i need to have fun with my girls but i really love that :(((( i miss long days with you :((((
babe ♡: this is fun
Me: really? Lol
babe ♡: don't drink too much babe, have fun but don't get wasted. Message me if you can't drive.
Me: sundo mo ko? :(
babe ♡: yes and i'll take you home.
Me: yey! Alright! *kisses*
babe ♡: I love you.
Me: I love youuuu
I thought we're really just having a few drinks but Sheen was so happy that we are complete she ordered too many drinks and I think I ended up being tipsy a bit while Jane and Ysa are both drunk.
"I miss you so much, Kiraa!" The three of them hugged me, squishing me in the middle. "I wish Hanna was here too!"
"I'm glad you agreed to go out tonight. Akala ko di ka nanaman papayag! Quen was so sad of you not joining us for weeks! Your boyfriend is worried about you." Ysa drunkly muttered and compassed her finger in the air. "Sad boy, Quen Jung."
"Can you drive, Kira? I can drive you home too, leave your car in the parking lot." Sheen offered while we both carried Jane inside her SUV. "Jane don't you dare vomit inside my car!"
I giggle and rub Jane's back when she acts like her stomach was aching, then glances at Sheen when she makes a face trying to stop our friend from doing hideous inside her new ride.
"I'll message Quen to pick me up." Giggling again and taking my phone inside my bag. "My boyfriend will drive me home-ouch!"
I massage my head, laughing when Ysa pulls my hair. "You are such a flirt!"
Almost burst into laughter with Ysa's expression, I know that she was just joking but then it was funny seeing her like that. Stuck my tongue out of her and showed my phone while calling Quen.
"Bleh!" Laughing loudly and putting my phone against my ear when Quen answered after one ring. "Careful driving, Sheen!"
My back was leaning against the wall beside the parking of the club while talking to Quen, when he knew that I want him to pick me up because I can't drive anymore he quickly left his unit...but actually I can still do it even I'm a bit drunk...I just want to see him tonight.
"Where are you? Almost here? I'm just here in the parking lot..." mumbling my words and feeling my eyes a bit sleepy while talking to Quen on the other line as my lips formed a smile at the sound of his husky and manly voice. "Careful driving baby."
"Done parking. Wait for me there." His soft tone made me sigh.
I put down my phone and waited for him, looking above the sky at the open parking. The night was so good feeling a lighter feeling inside my heart.
"Hi..."
I smiled when Quen appeared in front of me and kissed my cheeks. Hands on my sides caressing it.
"Hi..." I greeted back and held his cheek, feeling the alcohol in my system. Is it the first time I'm staring at his face again? Quen's eyes looks tired... "Busy tonight? Sorry for calling you...I want to see you."
He tilted his face to one side, staring at me and laughing softly. "Glad you called me, I wanted to see you too."
Puckering my lips towards Quen, asking for a kiss and I thought he was going to give me a quick one but his lips moved on mine aggressively, claiming my lips that I started to out of breath.
"Quen..." I pant when he pulled away to bite my lower lip and bite it. "I miss you."
"I miss you." He muttered kissing me again and ended up making out for too long.
We're both busy with our individual schedules. It feels like it's been a long time since we had an intimate moment. As much as we want to, there's still so much to do and graduation is on our way as well.
"You look tired..." stated with my fingers touching the lids of his eyes, his lips formed a small smile. "Having problems sleeping?"
"A bit." Caressing my sides and Quen was sitting on the hood of his car and hands placed both of my sides while I was standing between his legs, hands on his face. "But I'm alright."
Even in this state, Quen was still good looking...as always. "When is your next game?" I moved closer to him and wrapped my arms around his shoulder, leaning my forehead against his and giggling. "I wish I could sleep with you tonight."
Quen's lips reached mine to give me a peck. "Clear you schedule this weekend. Stay with me."
My fingers played with the back of his hair, feeling the hot skin of his nape. "I'll try...Kate's need to have a check up that day."
He stared at me for a moment before he hugged me and buried his face between my chest and groaned, making me laugh. "God, I miss this."
"You're drunk." I laughed and pushed his face more to my breast. "Want to do it here?"
He held my arms and pulled away. "See who's drunk now?" his brow furrowed and chuckled. "Want to do it here, huh?"
Laughing so loud at his tone. Cupping his face between my hands. "Drunk, Quen." Blabbering and feeling a little dizzy, maybe because I was happy tonight and being with Quen always made me feel so good.
"Who drinks liquor to have fun tonight? Is it me?" His voice was accusing. "Flirty, Kj."
I blow air inside my cheek and pout my lips. "Me." My giggle continues as my hand gently squishes his face. "I didn't know what the topic was all about now."
"Should I drive you home now?" He pulled my hips closer to him.
I shook my head and hugged him again but this time my hands were tightened around his shoulder. "10 more minutes."
"Make it 20." And felt his lips against my neck, hugging me back and heard his deep sigh. "If you have time this weekend please spend it with me."
His voice was low and deep. I can sense something in his voice so I stare at his face and continue to caress his hair with my fingers.
"You have a problem, babe?" Focusing on his expression but all I can see are his tired eyes.
Quen shook his head and smiled. "Nothing..."
"Are you sure?" Tilting my head. "You know I'm always here to listen, right?"
The back of his hand caresses my cheek. "You have too many problems to think of...if I have a problem it is nothing compared to you."
He drove me home after that, telling me that he still needed to finish some editing with his film project. Pero kung ako ang tatanungin mas gusto ko pa sana ang magkasama kami. I don't know if its just he's tired but I can sense that there's something in him. I asked during the drive back home but he kept on giving me his usual smile, telling me that it's nothing and just because of the pile of work that he needs to finish.
"Sleep and have some rest...you still have an early class tomorrow " Quen kissed my cheeks after stopping in front of our house. "Drink lots of water, okay?"
I nodded in response and hugged him. "Careful driving...I'll check Kate first before I go to bed."
"She's not sleeping in your house tonight?" he asked, then kissed the skin on my neck, feeling the thousand of familiar sensation on it. "Can we video call until you fall asleep?"
"She was supposed to sleep here but I left a message before we left the bar but she's still not answering." I showed him my phone and smiled. "I'll video call you later."
"Call me if anything happens, okay? Maybe she fell asleep in her place. It's already late."
Checking my phone again and nodding. "Yeah, maybe. Sige na, go home...drive safely." We kissed for a minute before he finally left the place and I decided to go get inside.
The house was dark and quiet when I got home and thought that they were all sleeping because it's already late. Kate still didn't reply to my messages so I tried to check her room but she's not there.
I was looking at myself in front of my bathroom mirror and checking myself, my face was flushed and eyes were sleepy proof that I was still a little bit tipsy. That's why Quen told me to get some sleep. Laughing at myself a bit when I remember how many times we made out earlier. Maybe I can clear up my schedule this weekend to spend more time with him. I was ready to remove my make up when the phone rang continuously and quickly went to my bedroom to check who it.
And like from a movie when I saw my sister's name on the screen my heart began to race like something might have happened to her.
"Hello? Kate?"
I think my heart skipped a beat for different reasons.
"Kira..." Kate cries. "Where are you? Can you pick me up here?"
"What happened?!" My knees almost gave at the sound of my sister's voice and as I heard mine.
"I-" she continued to sob, trying to stop it but It was clear on the other line. "I saw him...with her...Carl."
It was enough to make my blood boil and with quick movement run to Kate's room and get her duplicate car keys.
She sent me her location and it was a high end restaurant making my insides curled up in disgust. Did he just have a date with his mistress at that place and Kate found them? The nerve of that guy. Really.
When I arrived at the place, I found Kate crying beside the front door. Seeing her like this makes my heart turn into pieces. I thought I already saw her at the lowest but the image of her leaning against the white wall wiping her own tears...
Even the best people that you thought are the most perfect in front of your eyes can crumble because of their own problems.
That hit me big time.
"Katie." I held her hand as soon as I approached her, puffy eyes widened when she stared at me and quickly wiped her tears. She was about to pull my arm for us to leave but I kept my feet unable to move.
If she thought that I would let this pass, they are wrong. Maybe because of the liquor inside my system? I don't know and I'm not really sure but as soon as I entered that restaurant, obviously high class people were inside having their intimate dinner. My eyes were locked to the people who hurt my sister badly and made her vulnerable.
"Oh my gosh!" The woman that Carl is with on the table screams in surprise when I intentionally pushed the glass of water on the table and spilled on the white table cloth to the hem of her sexy dress.
"Kira?" Carl was shocked seeing me in front of them then his eyes darted to Kate who's trying to pull my arm, stopping me. "Kate, what are you two doing here?"
"Is this your woman?"
I asked directly but didn't wait for his answer when I pulled the woman's hair making everyone scream in disbelief.
"Kira!"
"What the hell, Kira!"
"Ahh! Help me!"
The commotion and screams from everyone around seeing what I was doing was visible to my ear but I didn't stop that and continued to pull the woman's hair. They tried to stop me, Kate was pulling my arm while Carl was trying to remove my hand on his woman's hair.
"Let go, Kira!" His voice roared in madness.
My hand pulled up until the woman was standing up shrieking, trying to slap my hand away.
"Kira let go please." Kate was beside me begging. "Please let's just leave."
"No! She deserve this—"
My words were cut and my hand let go of gripping the hair when I felt the hard slap on my face making my body move away, fell off my feet and slump on the floor.
I was too shocked for what happened because this is the first time someone did that to me.
"Why did you hurt my sister!" Kate punched Carl but his eyes were focused on me, still furious about what I did to his woman.
I stood up and launched myself at him, pulling his hair as well and punching him back but he was strong enough to push me away again and Kate. The staff tried to stop the commotion we did.
My urge to hurt him more when I saw what he did even on his wife just to protect that woman. I was going to fight back again when the woman wept in pain holding her stomach.
Kate and I froze and felt her on my side staring unbelievably to his husband who ran towards his mistress. I couldn't move because of what I was seeing.
Did he make her pregnant as well? What about my sister?
"K-Kira..."
It was like slow motion when my head turned to the side where my sister was standing and found her looking down at her legs...
Where blood was dripping.
"What the hell..." I muttered and stood up to help my sister. Kate began to cry, trying to wipe the blood and I think Carl saw it when his expression changed, glancing at Kate.
The staff started to call for help, calling emergency hotlines, asking if there's a doctor available inside the restaurant.
My insides were panicking, hands were full of blood now. Kate was crying non stop calling her baby and I can feel my tears start to fall.
This is my fault...I shouldn't start the commotion.
"Kate...hold on. I'm sorry."
"My baby, Kira."
"Kj."
I think the hope inside my heart lifted up when I heard that familiar voice calling my name.
"Q-Quen?"
I didn't know what happened and he was here beside me but I was glad he did because I really don't know what to do. Everything happened so fast and we ended up at the hospital for emergency because of what happened.
We have no choice but to call our parents and tell them everything so they can go to the hospital. I was sobbing, still scared that if something might happen to Kate and her baby I'll never forgive myself.
Quen was just beside me, quiet and waiting for the doctor outside the emergency room. Carl on the other side was sitting on the bench in front of us but I'm not sure if he's waiting for my sister or his mistress.
We both stood up when the doctor opened the room door, removing his mask and talking to us.
"Both of the fetuses are saved. You have nothing to worry about."
I heaved a deep sigh of relief and closed my eyes saying my silent prayer. I felt Quen's hand tap my head and before I knew it after the doctor left he was punching Carl straight on his face twice. I shrieked and covered my mouth because no one was here except for us.
"You don't just slap and hurt my girlfriend you dumbass cheater!" Quen hissed while gripping Carl's collar. "I was just waiting for this to ruin your stupid face!"
"Quen enough please..." I want to punch Carl more but my parents are on their way and I don't want them to see this. Glad that he listened to me and let go of Carl, pushing him hard making him stumble.
"Stupid." Quen muttered and sat on the bench again.
Not an hour long when my parents arrived panicking. I understand because it was a shock knowing what was happening to us but I think it is right for them to know that Kate was not fine...she's having a hard time.
I am having a hard time.
My mom cried after she found out about Kate's pregnancy and what happened at the restaurant. Telling herself that its their fault in everything happening with Kate. Dad punched Carl again and I think he really deserves that.
When we made sure everything was fine, we decided to go home because Kate wants it. Quen offered to my parents to drive me home. He was too quiet the whole time and I clearly understand that there's something wrong and I know it's my fault but I have no choice because it was my sister.
The whole drive home was still quiet, he was focused on the road so I did the same and remained silent the whole drive.
When he parked the car in front of our house, his sigh made me glance at him.
"I told you to call me if something happened but you didn't do it..."
"Quen..."
"You have doubts that I can help you, Kira?" His voice sounded hurt.
My mouth half opened trying to let out an answer for his question but I couldn't say anything.
All I can do is shake my head.
He didn't bother to look at me and just focused in front while holding the steering wheel. I know he was mad because I can see his ears flush.
This is the first time seeing him like this. I really did push his button this time?
"It was my sister..."
"Kira, you're drunk and you drive alone in that place attacking them like that!" His voice is a bit forced. "Look what happened to your face?" Glancing at me, his eyes were serious.
I froze a bit because of his tone...the first time I used that...talking to me.
"I can't leave just like that knowing they hurt Kate!" I shouted back.
"Then you should've called me!" He scoffed and leaned his back on his chair feeling so frustrated. I never heard him use this kind of tone at me and felt my heart hurt with our intense conversation. "I feel like you didn't trust me enough."
"Quen naman...that's not it."
"That's what I'm feeling right now." Brushing his fingers on his hair, controlling his own voice. "And that hurt, Kira."
That hurt...
"Then what are you doing there?" I didn't mean to blurted that out but my emotions started to eat me up. "I thought you're going to finish your film?"
He glanced and stared at me for a moment before he scoffed again and shook his head.
At the back of my head I was asking myself why we ended up with this? We were just having fun a while ago and now...
"I thought you understood me?"
He didn't respond.
All I can think about right now is we are just both different people arguing because of our emotions and I don't want that for us.
"We're both tired. Drive home safely." I muttered and opened his car door not waiting for his answer to my question and my eyes widened when he just really drove away leaving me.
I rolled my eyes and went inside the house to check Kate and found her inside the room sleeping now.
I took a warm bath relieving all the stress that happened tonight and I thought I would find a message from Quen when I finished but I found nothing. Slumping my back on my bed and staring at my phone until I fall asleep.
But when I woke up...there's still no message from Quen. I wasn't in the mood waking up because of that and realize that I should've left his car last night.
"I should fix our problem right? I just apologized to him yesterday and now we're not okay again." I sighed while talking to gommie. "What is happening to me?"
I don't have class in the morning but still decided to go early so I can talk to Quen. He had training today and tomorrow. I will talk to him before our scheduled event tonight with our department. Siguro naman, I can settle things with him...I want to apologize for my behavior because he was right and I didn't pay much attention to what he said last night.
I was really wrong on the part.
Checking Kate in her room but she wasn't there, then found her in the living room with our Mom talking to her. Maybe, our parents finding out about the real story is much better for her and for us. I didn't need to keep any secret and she would get lots of support and help from our parents.
I took a grab on my way to the university and went straight to the basketball gym where the team had already started their training so early in the morning.
Inhaling a large amount of air before going inside, my heart was racing thinking I did something wrong again...
I didn't contact Quen when I should've that night, making him feel that I didn't trust him enough.
The sight of Quen running inside the court was the first thing I saw when I walked inside and I'm very sure that she noticed me because he stopped and looked on my side. Pursing my lips and find where his things were settled and that where I decided to sit and wait for him to finish.
My hands were clutching my thighs still feeling the loud heartbeat of my heart. All of them are too serious during training, maybe because the finals are coming. I can hear Quen's manly voice giving instructions to his team, moving so fast running inside the court and face so intense...feels like he is still mad at me for what happened last night.
With a quick move I took his towel inside his black gym bag as soon as their stop to have a break. He was looking straight, never giving me eye contact when he sat on the bleachers with his bag between us. Quen was panting, elbow on his thigh and brush his fingers on his wet hair.
"Here." Handing him the towel that he silently took and wipe his sweats. I pursed my lips and took his flask, handing it to him as well and like what he did with the towel, he just took it without glancing at me. "Do you want to have breakfast after this?"
He drinks on his flask before nodding then wipe the sweats on his neck using the towel I give. I kept my mouth shut, trying to stifle my smile when he nodded for agreement. I move a bit closer to him, Quen removes the gym bag between us and places it on his other side.
I can't contain my smile when I continue to move closer to him, the side of my arm hitting his elbow.
"I'm sorry..." I muttered and sighed. "Please don't be mad at me..."
"I can't be mad at you." He simply said and drank again. "Upset, yeah."
"I don't have anything to say because I know It was my fault. I'm sorry, Quen..." My gaze never leaves the sight of his side profile. "I know what I did really upset you because you never get mad at me before."
"I just can't let that stupid cheater hit you and I can't do anything to prevent that..." He scoffed and shook his head. "That punch wasn't enough. The nerve to cheat."
Slowly, my hand reaches for his and I can see his eyes gazing at our hands.
"I will never do that again..."
My heart raced when finally Quen glanced at me and shifted to look at me properly.
"I'm sorry for shouting at you."
I smiled at him and leaned to kiss his lips and I could hear his team shouting, teasing us but that didn't bother me to deepen my kiss to him. Feeling sorry for what I did.
"It's okay now...I understand."
We had breakfast after his early training and like we never had a small argument last night, we both cling to each other until our next schedule comes up. I told him what happened to Kate and my plans later.
"I'll pick you up after your event..." Quen pulled my waist and buried his face on the crook of my neck, inhaling my scent. "I'm still not fine what happened to us last night. I want to make it up to you."
"Alright, I want to make it up to you as well..." cupping his face and scrunching my nose, I chuckled because he did the same. "Good luck with your film later."
"Thank you. Good luck to you, babe."
Since we have an event on our department I just take my morning class and go with Lili at event's place where it's going to be held. Everything that happened was updated to Quen and he did the same because that we usually do. This past few weeks are stressful and I felt both of our patience was tested.
I still don't know if anything happened to him but I trusted him to tell me that if he's ready.
It was a fashion event where all of us in every department of our course have different styles to offer and also this will be included in our final grades.
"You know what Kira? If you keep this up, offers from everywhere will come once you graduate."
I glanced at my head proctor and smiled. I hope so...because looking at everything now I think I know what I will do after I graduate.
"Kira! Where's Quen?" Lili asked me while fixing her umbrella and gesturing her hand when her service stopped in front of the entrance of the hall.
I checked my phone again and nothing from Quen appeared on my phone. The event ended almost late and I didn't notice that my phone was already out of battery. His last message was he's still busy with the film showing and couldn't update more but he didn't message me after that.
"He said he's going to pick me up, I'll wait for him..."
"You sure?"
I nodded and waved my hand when Lili left the place, leaving me alone here at the entrance still waiting for Quen.
And the rain started to pour hard, people are leaving the place and it makes me worry if he's going to pick me up. Maybe he's too busy and something might have happened but I can't confirm because he's not answering earlier and now it's unattended.
I groaned in frustration when my phone died out of battery. Sitting on the cemented stairs and heaving a sigh while looking at the pouring rain.
"Babe...where are you?"
I waited for almost 3o minutes but he's still not arrived and I can't borrow a phone or charger because everyone leaves the place.
"Kira?"
My brows furrowed at the familiar voice calling my name and when I glanced at the car stopped in front of me, I didn't expect the person that would show in front of me.
"What are you still doing here?"
"Jasper..." I muttered and stood up. It's been a long since I saw him...or have any news about him.
"Sobrang lakas ng ulan, ikaw nalang ang nandyan? Come on! I'll drive you home!"
I didn't answer and just stood there because I wanted to wait for Quen but it's getting late and I think the rain will not stop at this rate.
Jasper smiled at me. "Don't worry, I will not do anything. I have a meeting with someone in this place and I see someone familiar from afar and luckily it was you."
"I'll wait for Quen..."
"Quen? Is their department having a party after their film?"
I didn't have any idea so I have no response.
"Come on, Kira. It's getting late."
I have no choice but to go with Jasper because it was really late and he's right. I can't find any taxi or grab at this moment in that place. It was a nice offer and I'm not doing anything so his offer was not bad at all. The whole ride was quiet except for asking some general questions about our school. Really what happened to us wasn't that good but It was fine to me now and I don't want to go back to that because I'm happy now with Quen.
"Thank you for your help, Jasper. Careful driving." He smiled at me and waved his hand as I did the same before he left.
I quickly ran inside our house and was about to go to my room when Kate with a smiling face appeared in front of me.
"Hey, you're still not asleep?"
She shook her head and pulled my hand in the living room.
"I was waiting for you..."
She was happy while telling me her stories and decisions that she will make after talking to our parents.
"So, you'll finally end your marriage?"
Kate nodded and wiped her tears. "I will do it for me and my baby, Kira. Thank you for helping me. I really appreciate all of it."
"Thank God." I sighed and laughed when she hugged me tight.
"I think what happened last night woke me up."
And I think she's right about that. We continued to talk about her plans and I was so into it that I forgot that I needed to message Quen and check him what really happened.
But I was too preoccupied with Kate's stories so I ended up sleeping in her room. I'm just happy that finally my sister will do something that really makes her happy and her baby.
I woke up early around 4am and charged my phone because it was out the whole night.
And the regret I felt when I finally opened it and dozens of messages from DMs and group chats filled my notifications.
I should have checked it first when I came home.
Quen's message appeared on my phone looking for me at the event's place.
babe ♡: babe sorry dead batt please wait for me there
babe ♡: car got stuck at the traffic
babe ♡: baby sorry just wait for me there okay? Got a problem with the car wheels. Malas ata ako ngayon.
babe ♡: I can't contact your phone
babe ♡: kj you still there? I'm sorry
babe ♡: where are you? I'm here now.
babe ♡ : I will go to your house. Please message me if you're okay.
babe ♡: babe nasa labas ako
babe ♡: your housekeeper told me you're already sleeping
babe ♡: are you mad?
babe ♡: baby
I tried to check other messages and found clips and photos sent to me inside Jasper's car.
How the hell did they get this?
It was posted too on our different university secret accounts that only students can see, where rumors are spreading that we are back together. I saw some of the mentions tagging Quen on the posts.
"Huh?"
My friends message me what happened and what I am doing there. That was mentioned in our group chats as well.
I immediately tried to contact Quen's phone but he was not answering. Is he still sleeping? I felt like having a de javu on what happened yesterday when my heart raced so fast.
When he still didn't answer, I quickly got up and prepared myself for school. Again, I don't have an early class but I decided to go to Quen's unit before he goes to the univ for his training.
I want to explain.
To apologize for what happened last night. I should've waited for him. I know he will keep his promise to get me.
But when I arrived at his unit and opened his door. He was already ready and up, fixing his gym bag. Glancing at me with no expression and continuing what he was doing.
"Quen..." I spoke after closing the door but he didn't glance up again and ignored me. "I'm sorry for not waiting for you..."
Silence.
"I thought you went to the after party..."
Silence.
"Quen..."
I shut my eyes when his flask dropped on his hand.
I felt my heart skip a beat.
"Why would you think I would choose that over a promise with you?" He muttered and sighs. "I know I was wrong for not messaging you right away but I will never ditch you, Kj."
"I'm sorry..."
"I'm jealous seeing you with that guy but I'm not mad at you going with him because I know that time was late..." He stopped what he was doing and stared at me. "But at least Kira, you remember to message me right away about what happened to you. I was nervous something might happen to you and It was my fault because I was late."
I pursed my lips and really tried hard not to cry because knowing that I upset him again.
We are both quiet for a moment before he took hus gym bag and look at me again.
"I'm going to train to clear my head. I'm sorry but I can't talk you for now." I heard his heavy breathing. "You can use my other car. Drive safely, okay?"
I nodded and move a side when he walked towards the door and leave me behind.
My hand wiped the tear that fell on my cheeks when the sound of the door shut behind me.
I stayed inside his pad for an hour to calm myself and clear my head. It was problem over problems and I don't know how we ended up like this.
We are so much okay for months and now...
I don't know.
"Kira, you okay?" Lili tapped my back. "Don't over think that rumors hindi naman totoo diba?"
I nod and buried my face again on my arms.
"But Quen don't want to talk to me."
"He's just upset and jealous. Give him space for now...or how about half day? I'm sure he can't contain himself not talking to you."
"What if he can?" I stood up with force making Lili widened her eyes in shocked. "What if he broke up with me?"
Lili slap my arms and pulled it down to make me sit. "As if Quen would do that. Calm down okay?"
I sighed in frustration again when I remember his tone at me earlier telling me he can't talk to me for now.
After our class ended we decided to have a brunch at the canteen but before going inside Jack's worried face while panting heavily stopped me.
"Jack are you okay?" I hold his arm and calm him. "Hey—"
"Quen had an accident."
"What?!" My voice almost broke for what I just heard. "What happened?"
"Accident inside the court while playing. He's injured." He continue that made me nervous and I think my sight just blurred hearing those words. "Ambulance on its way. Come on, Kira."
I quickly ran with Jack on our way to the court with my heart pounding and legs shaking.
Please don't let anything happened to Quen.
When we arrived at the gym, I almost sob when I heard Quen's voice screaming in pain. His coach beside him calming him down while the medics secure him on the stretcher.
They said the Quen was not in the mood to play and lots of times that he fell on the ground with wrong foot until he was collided while playing with the other players and broke his ankle on the process.
I never see him cried and scream like that. The terrified sigh on his gaze was visible in his eyes and I was so scared that anything will happened to him.
I go with Jack following the ambulance at the hospital. His coach already contacted his family even his sister called me. I tried to not cry the whole time but whenever Quen's screams repeated on my head, my sobs starts again.
We waited for an hour outside the emergency room before the doctor said that he was calm now because Quen was hysterical that whole time, afraid that he can't play anymore, especially the finals is near.
I was quiet following his parents when we get inside his room. His leg had casts now from his lower knee to his foot.
His mom cried because of worried. I didn't go near him because I was afraid that he still mad at me and just get upset more if he saw me.
I just waited at the side of the room while listening to them talking.
"I want to go home on my pad. I can take care of myself."
That's what Quen's repeated words when his parents wants him to go home but he kept his words that he can take care of himself.
So I offered and tell his parents that I will take care of Quen which he didn't give me much attention and give me silent treatment.
And it was fine with me.
I want to be there for him. He needs me more that anything now.
"Are you sure, Honey?" His mom asked and caress my cheek. "I'll talk to your parents."
"I can handle it po. I'll tell them I want to stay with Quen so I can take care of him."
"Thank you so much." She hugged me and cried when we are outside the hospital room.
They accompany us that night until we get home and settled on his pad. He was silent and just nod in response.
"We'll be back tomorrow, okay? Sleep for now, sweetheart." His mom hugged him before finally leaving.
Quen's dad checked me again if I was fine being with their son taking care of him and told me that he will explain to my parents.
"Why are you still here? I said I can take care of myself. You can go home. You're sister needs you more that I do."
His blunt words made me flinch a bit. I saw him staring at me when I shook my head for disagreeing because I want to stay here and take care of him.
"Go home."
"I don't want..."
"Bahala ka."
His gaze was stoic, indifferent...
Makes me want to cry but I stopped because that will not help.
I watch while standing not away from his bed when he lay sideways and covered his body with comforter.
He was silent again after that. I wiped my tears that fall on my cheeks quickly and sat on the floor beside the bed.
I was staring at his back while stifling my sob, covering my mouth with my hand because I don't want him to hear anything that can made him more upset with me.
What was happening to us?
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