Brielle
"Come on mommy, I want to play with daddy!" Mijo said tugging on my hand.
"Give me a minute, I need to talk to Papi and Nana. Go take Caeden in the other room." I demanded.
"What happen, he hit you?"
"No calm down daddy damn. I just wanted to tell you in person that I'm pregnant!" I smiled
He threw his hands up, "You just had a damn baby!"
"You don't know the work I had to put in to get this one!"
"Hold up, hell no I don't want to hear that shit!"
"Daddy I'm not talking about that, you act like you don't want me to have this baby. It's like I can't please you anymore, I'm married now I gave you what you wanted. For once when I tell you something I would like you to be happy, don't judge me cause that's not what you planned out for my life."
"I'm not judging you, I'm telling you slow down. You're 24 years old, what are you trying to do be somebody housewife? Look where you at Brielle, you quit a good ass job for this dumbass one while he's doing whatever the hell he wants."
"That's what you think I'm doing? A dumbass job? That's cool daddy I'm not even going to argue with you, I'll take my kids I laid on my back to get while I still work a 9-5 everyday at my stupid ass job."
"Bye Papi!" Mijo said coming around the corner.
"You be good, hold your brother hand when you walk out."
That's one stubborn ass dude, I swear nothing to him is right. As long as Chris's name is tagged on anything it's wrong, I didn't do everything we talked about and he's still mad over it. I missed when I could tell him anything and he would respond by telling me the funniest advice he could give. He can't be happy for me than fuck him. I love him to death but I'm not living to please him, he can't be happy with my choices than that's just too damn bad.
"Caeden stop, let go for I punch you in the face!" Mijo shouted.
"Hold up boy, you ain't putting your hands on nobody! Caeden let go of his here before I get daddy on you."
"Nooo, I sorry. No daddy," he whined.
"Is it too late still to take him back to the hospital!"
I cracked up, "Mijo don't say that about your brother! I can't give him back that's my baby."
"Did you try?"
"Stop it, that's not nice!"
"I don't care, he makes me sick!" He said sticking his tongue at him making a face.
"Mijo, that's enough!"
"I got plenty more believe me mommy!"
I fed them for the night and put them in bathtub, Caeden went down first. Mijo clung to my leg.
"Why don't you like your brother?"
"He's annoying, he keeps hitting me. I'm going to pop him in the face, tell him to stop."
"I appreciate you not hitting him back but he's just trying to play with you, Caeden loves you."
"I don't love him, he took my daddy from me now I'm stuck with you."
I laughed. "No you didn't, listen he didn't take nobody from you. If that's how you feel then I'll tell daddy, in the meantime give him some love."
After Mijo went sleep I looked at my belly in the mirror, I began rubbing as if I had a bump there. I smiled big knowing not long from now my belly will grow bigger, I'll be able feel the kicks and flutters. Not even 10 minutes after I put Mijo down he came back out crying holding a doll in hid hands.
"Mommy my pee pee hurt." He whined rubbing his eyes.
"Why?"
"I stepped on this when I got out of bed and I started playing with it."
He held up one of Kataleah's dolls that had no clothes on, lord my baby got an erection. "Give that to me first, this ain't for boys. Aight baby don't touch it, it will go away."
"Mommy can it make it feel better, it's hurting?" He whined.
I laughed a bit, No Mijo! I don't have one those. Just don't touch it, let's go take another bath."
Aw man, where the hell is Chris ass at? This ain't something I should be handling with him .
"You feel better?"
"Much better!" He said as I smiled.
I put him back to bed and went downstairs to turn off the lights, I seen Kataleah's doll on the counter and thought about her heavy. It ain't no different from everyday I think about her, she would be asking me a million times to braid her hair. I can't deal right now! I went upstairs and put the doll in the draw beside the bed, I'm getting sick of this late night shit. But not even Chris right now can get me pissed off, in a few days I get to check on my baby. Chris though is really fucking doing the most, I know this nigga schedule but he continues to do the same shit every night and same excuse. I'm not going to waste my breath any longer, Chris wants to play games then fine by me. But when I'm ready to play, you better sit your ass on the side line.
The next day I took the boys back over my dads house, I need him to understand everything I go through.
"What happen? Why you back here?"
"Chill daddy, why you always in a panic when I come over?"
"I worry about you!"
"We need to talk, I'm not getting why you so upset with me?"
"Baby I'm not upset, I didn't mean to go off on you like that. You my only kid and I love you so much, I just want to see you do right. I'm happy you having another baby, I'm too damn young to be called Grandpa!" He said as I laughed. "I just been going through it though, there's something I need to tell you."
"What's going on?"
"Your moms and I are getting a divorce."
"What the hell, why?"
"We fell out of love with each other."
"Damn daddy."
"I know, I still love her though . It's just that we have our differences, we both did our own thing on the side."
"Hold up, pause. You cheated?"
"No, we just drifted apart."
"No, I'm not having this. Fix it, you can't lose each other."
"Baby, if I could I would. Calm down, it's going to be okay."
"Was the difference over me?"
"No, don't worry about it. I just wanted to let you know what's going on, I'm keeping the house ". But I didn't want to keep this from you."
"Daddy don't do that please, fix it. Do what you can, you need each other."
"You of all people know, you don't need anybody to make you happy."
"I know, I know. But -."
"There's nothing that can fix an emotional broken relationship, keep that in mind."
Chris
"You came!" Ri smiled hugging me tight.
It was the launch of her clothing line River Island, she asked me to go last minute so I told her I'll see what I would do. I surprised her with a bouquet of flowers, she smelt good as hell as she modeled off this black dress that showed off in the right spot and gave away some legs.
"You look good."
"You know who you talking to? Don't I always?" She smiled.
I stood in the background watching her do her thing, I was comfortable being there but some weren't. I could feel unwanted by some, then I again I didn't give a fuck. For the most part I didn't feel animosity towards me just because I'm supporting a friend, people want to talk shit about me then it's whatever that shit is old now. We've both moved on, everyone else needs to fall on board or get left behind.
"Your wifey let you off the leash tonight?"
"Nah, she don't know I'm here. I ain't got to report everything to her."
"Putting your foot down, that won't last long. You all talk right now, when you get home she going to squash your balls!"
I laughed. "Brielle ain't like that, she knows who I come home to and wake up too."
"But do she know who you been with everyday and night this week?" Rihanna smiled walking away.
Aight so I been spending some time with her during the night, cause I'm busy during the day. Brielle could do the same if she wanted too, I'm not touching her so it ain't a problem. I'm conscious about what I'm doing.
"Listen, I know you have to leave but could you just ride with me to put these gifts in my place?" She asked.
I carried her things to her house and brought them inside, I was going to leave right after but we started talking and I didn't feel like leaving anymore.
"Shit, I been waiting forever to take these damn heels off." Rihanna said reaching for her baggie
"I don't understand why y'all wear that shit if it hurt so damn bad. Y'all complain but continue to wear them."
"Beauty is pain, do me a favor. Unzip my dress please."
That old ass trick, I did it anyway and backed up immediately. She pulled off her dress in front of me, I grasp a bit looking as her body since she had a thong on.
"I'll - see you - um. When I get a chance."
"What's the matter, you ain't ever see some ass before?" She said blowing the smoke out of my direction.
I smiled, "I need to go."
She put my hand on her hip smiling pulling me towards the living room. "I want you to stay, I want to show you something." I tried to pull my hand away but she had me on lock. "I was going to wait but I got something for you, it's nothing special. I know how much you like Ron English so I bought this for you." Rihanna handed me over a painting of weed.
"This is some dope shit, thank you!"
"It ain't nothing," she smiled.
"Thank you, I love it. I really need to go though, I'll see you when I can."
Brielle didn't say a thing to me about coming home late, I caught a free one last night. She didn't even argue with me the next morning, what the hell happen to my wife?
"Daddy no fair, I killed you. You the bad guy !" Caeden said as we played in the living room.
"Let's beat him!" Mijo said as the both jump and kicked on top of me.
"Why you want to hurt daddy?"
"Be quiet, you suppose to be dead!" Mijo said.
I laughed as Brielle walked in, "What y'all doing?" She asked.
The boys both had a smile curl up on their face, "Nothing."
"Don't look like nothing, you beating up daddy?"
"Yeah he a bad boy this time!" Caeden said.
"You ain't ever lie, let's get him!"
"Y'all want to go to bed early?" I question
"Noooo!" They both stopped and whined.
"Then you better get your momma."
They all got off of me and pounced on her, including me.
She laughed covering herself giving me that eye "Chris!"
I then remembered the baby, "Aight that's enough! Y'all go play in the other room." I said as I laid beside her on the floor as she continued to laugh. "Should we tell them ?"
"I think we should wait a little longer, till I start to show."
"Mijo is going to kill you!" I laughed
"If it's a girl I think he'll be alright, if it's another boy you and him going to have a big ass problem. No wonder why he don't love you."
She laughed playfully hitting my chest "Don't say that, that's my baby. He loves him some of me, you need to talk to him though ."
"For what?"
"He's jealous of how you play with Caeden so much and not him, he thinks you love Caeden more than him."
"Why would he think that, I just took the boy out by himself?"
"You know that's not enough, you can't be showing favoritism. Caeden is a baby still who needs a lot of attention, Mijo just wants that same attention. He shouldn't have to come to me saying Caeden stole his daddy or wake up in the middle of the night to see if your here. Give him the same thing you give Caeden, correct yourself!"
"I'm sorry, I'll do better. I ain't think I was showing favoritism, you know I take care of my kids."
"I'm not saying don't, I'm just saying get it together."
"Well Mijo ain't the only one who jealous."
"Ain't nobody jealous of nothing you got going on."
I rolled on top of her. "Ain't nobody talking about you, I'm jealous that you give them more love than you do me. I come home wanting to kiss and touch you, half the time you don't look at me."
She laughed. "You foolin' yourself, that is not true."
"Your ass is lying, I can't ever touch you when I want to. Your mean ass always pushing me off"
"Nah, how about you step to me with some real shit. Meaning like a man, instead of some boy just wanting to take my clothes off then maybe I wouldn't be so mean!"
I laughed. "You got jokes now, if I recall you was already sitting butt ass naked in the chair. I ain't had to take your clothes off you did the job for me . . . Uhh yes daddy, give it to me I need it, harder." I mimicked her pillow talk
She blushed putting her hands over my mouth "Shut up before they hear you !"
I laughed "You shut up and give me a damn kiss!"
She smiled as I leaned down to kiss her "Stop before they catch us!"
"They not coming back over here."
"Don't start something that can't be finished, I don't need to be asked what was daddy doing on top of mommy."
I laughed helping her get off the floor "You tell them we were wrestling."
"Then what you going to do when Mijo tries his new wrestling move he seen from daddy on his little friends?" Brielle gave me a little side eye.
I smirked. "True true, you right."
Brielle
"Mommy I'm tired of going to Papi's house, we want to be with you and daddy."
"It won't be for long I promise, we'll come pick up soon as I come from the doctor."
"You sick?"
"No."
"I want to come with you and hold your hand."
I smiled, "I'll come get you soon as I'm done. You think you can tough it out for me?"
He sighed, "Again?"
"Yes again, take care of your brother. You better be good too, don't make me come back with a belt in my hand. Bye bye, I love you!" I said giving him a kiss on his cheek.
Chris and I left to Dr. Hill's office to see our baby again, I would have brought them with us but I want to wait for the baby to get bigger.
"This is crazy babe, we going to gave 3 damn kids?" I said with a smile.
"We can handle it."
"I know I can handle it, but can you?"
"You got to ask?"
I chuckled "I'm giving up if this one looks like you again, you just have some strong ass genes like damn!"
He smiled, "I know she'll look like you."
"What makes you think this a girl?"
"I just know, that's daddy princess in there!"
"It better be mommy's pretty girl."
"Imma spoil her rotten, watch!"
"Please don't, raising girls is as hard as it is I don't need you corrupting her."
"Me? You going to do the most damage, with your I'm Every Woman ways!"
"That's right, she going to know from the jump fear no man, trust no bitch! Don't waste your time with niggas who ain't got money or respect for you, definitely ones who only trying to get what's in between your legs. You already know she going to learn the ropes, she also going to know the back of my hand if she step out of line!"
He laughed. "Oh boy, what did I get myself in to?"
"If she anything like you she'll be needing to get backhanded a couple of times, sike let me stop! I laughed. "I can't wait, she or he is already loved." I said putting my hand on my tummy.
"You been taking your pills?" Dr. Hill asked
"Of course, you already know!"
"Alright, let's see how that baby is doing!" Dr. Hill said spreading the gel on me.
The moment he searched for the baby there was no sound.
"Where it's at?" Chris questioned immediately.
This time around, there was no baby.
"What's going on?"
"I'm sorry, we both heard the same thing and seen the same thing last week you were here. I told you when you were pregnant with your second child, things like this can happen to anybody."
"Things like what?" We both questioned.
"You had a miscarriage."
No lie my heart stopped, it felt like everything went black. I couldn't think straight anymore, mentally I shut down.
"What do you mean I had a miscarriage, the baby was there last week! How come I haven't bled yet?"
"Miscarriages have no reason why they happen, it hasn't hit your brain yet that you lost the baby. Your body thinks that you're still carrying, there are two things you can do. Surgically remove it right now, or naturally let it bleed out."
"Take it out right now!"
"Brielle," Chris said.
"I want it out right now." I demanded.
I didn't move a muscle nor did I cry, they took what's left of my baby out. I closed my eyes cause I didn't want to see or imagine how they took the fetus out. Another waste of time, I can't do this again.
"You still want to get the boys?"
I looked towards window the whole car ride, it was a completely different vibe from when we rode together in the beginning.
"Yeah I promise Mijo we would come back to them."
"You sure you just don't want this night to yourself?"
"Just get them," I said with frustration seeping through.
I need my babies, I need to hold them like I would've done that child, I need to cradle them I would have that child, and I want to give them some love like I would've loved that child. If it was still growing inside me.
"Mommy let me go!" Mijo said pulling put of my arms.
"Baby I just want to give you a hug." I said as we all sat downstairs.
"I don't want anymore, you gave me a million."
"Caeden will give me a hug, right baby? Come here."
"No hugs, no no!"
"You don't want to give me a hug either? What about later?"
"No!" He answered.
"Okay . . . I'm going upstairs, I'm tired. You got them?" I said in a soft numb tone.
"Go head, I'm good. I'll be up with you in a minute."