Hey guys I decided I wanted to come back since I have 450 reads!
EDIT: Since I've written this things have gotten so much better. I found this story today after it being up for almost a year. I saw how upset I was when I wrote this and how upsetting it is. I wanted to take it down, but, it if you read further into my story as a whole I got better. I'm getting better. I have decided to leave it up to show that I got better and things will get better.
Thank you,
Macey
Dear Dan and Phil,
It's me again. I just wanted you to know that things have gotten worse. I have been bullied for a while now. They are calling me fat and ugly, and I just can't stand it. I hate them all, just because someone is different doesn't mean that it's wrong. My friends grandma died last week and she seemed really upset. I have been trying to help her through it. She acts like she doesn't need my help. I went to a school dance one night, and these guys were messing with me. I got my friend and she backed me up, she made them say sorry. I heard him call me something that nobody should ever be called.( If you were wondering it was b*tch.) I have already had problems with my confidence and how I look at myself. Them messing with me brought my confidence down from 5 to about a 1.5. I just want to be a normal girl, I just can't deal with them. So every day I wake up and watch a Dan and Phil video then when I get to lunch I watch one, when I get home a watch a couple, before I go to bed I watch one. This seems to be the only thing I can actually do right anymore. People complain that I read to much and don't listen. One day at school, I did an experiment with my friends. I acted all sad I never said one word I laid my head on the table. No one asked me if I was okay. No one talked to me. It hurt me so much that me being depressed didn't bother them at all. I mean they know that I've been sad but they just carried on their conversations like everything was normal. I knew pretty fast that next year was going to be bad for me unless I can try to feel better. I am trying so hard but sometimes I just want to give up sometimes. I almost always feel sick and or have a headache. I just want someone to help me through this so that I can be okay with who I am. I haven't been okay for a long time and it's so hard when people ask you if you are okay, you have to lie to them because you don't want them to worry. Sorry for the depressing letter. Thank you for being Youtubers, you help me so much.
Your Fan,
Macey