Leaving to go back to college this time felt different than ever before. I didn't feel too sad because I knew the next time I'd be coming home was for good.
Ashton grinned widely at me as I stood at the train station
'Anyone would think you couldn't wait to get rid of me' I giggled
'Well it's kind of true, I can sleep on my own now without having you plastered against me' he joked
I pouted trying to look upset but we both just laughed
'Are you sure you don't want me to drive you back babe?' Ash asking looking down at me
'I'm sure. This is the last time I can get the train back so I'll make the most of it because it's actually a nice journey. Some of the views I see are beautiful'
'My view right now is beautiful' he said putting his forehead on mine and placing his hands round my waist.
'Such a softie' I giggled
'But you love me'
'I sure do' I said and kissed him
I soon had to get on my train and I took my seat and looked out of the window at Ashton who stood smiling at me. I couldn't wait to come home again and be with him every day.
I paid attention to my surroundings on my journey this time as I knew I'd never get the chance to again. There was some truly breathtaking views that I'd never really noticed before but now I was actually looking, it was really nice.
When I got back to college and into my apartment, I saw Hazel and made my way over to her and sat down next to her
'Hey Haze' I said
'Hey babe, did you go home for the weekend?' She asked
'Yeah I did. I was telling my mum and Ash some good news. Guess what?' I smiled
'What?' She said, sitting up and looking at me
'I can go to the college near my home and carry on my course there next year'
'No way? That's great' she beamed 'I'll miss you so much but I'm so happy for you'
She lent forward and gave me a hug and I felt happier than ever
'We'll still be friends, right? Promise' She said pulling away from the hug and looking at me
'Promise. You can't get rid of me that easily' I giggled.
When I went back to my room, I looked around at all the things that had made the place my own for the past couple of months. Thinking about it, I probably would miss it here, the new friends I'd made, my teacher, the parties. But going home was better than all of that put together.
_ _ _ _
A week later as I walked out of class Ashley shouted me and pulled me back
'Is it true?' He said blunty
'Is what true?' I asked confused
'You're not coming back next year?'
'Um... Yeah'
'Yeah its true or yeah you are coming back?' He said
'Yeah it's true'
'When was you thinking of telling me?' He asked looking down at me
'I... I don't know' I replied
'Well thanks a lot' he said and began to walk off
'Ashley come back' I said and walked after him
'I thought we were friends' he said
'We are, I just didn't even think. I have a lot on my mind at the moment. I'm sorry okay'
He looked at me and took a deep breath
'Will I be allowed to text you or will I just never hear from you again because you'll be back with your boyfriend?' He asked, looking serious
'Ew why would I want you texting me?' I asked 'I'm joking, of course you can'
His stern look broke into a smile and he turned around and walked off.
For the rest of this semester I was going to work harder than ever so my grades would stand out when I got to the college back home. I wanted them to regret not accepting me on the first place and for them to see what they had been missing.
All of my test results came back higher than ever. My life was just getting so much better by the day and each day I got closer to being home again. I could finally call it my home again.
As odd as it sounded, I was looking forward to the stupid little arguments me and my mum would get into like why I didn't clean the dishes and me wondering why she was never home to see me. Because it was going to be just like old times and I couldn't wait.
_ _ _ _
As the weeks went on, I started to pack small little things that I wouldn't need until I got back home. I left out only enough clothes for the days I was here and packed all the others. I bought my last bottles of Shampoo and Conditioner because I knew I wouldn't need too much. I packed away all of my folders that weren't needed for the next couple of weeks.
My room began getting emptier and emptier and it was strange. This was my home for the past few months and within the next few months, it was going to be someone else's. I just hope they have a better time here college than I ever did.
We had all decided we was going to have a party just before I left as a farewell party. It all seemed so real now.
Everything I wanted was coming a year earlier than expected. I just hoped everything was going to be okay, like we all thought it was going to be. Well I was going to find out. Whether it was the hard way or not.
_ _ _ _
The night came of the party to celebrate the end of the year and my leaving. I got ready with Hazel for what would be the last time and I began to feel sad.
I suppose it's right what they say, you don't know a good thing until its gone, and I was going to miss this girl. She listened to all my shit all the time and I'd never really thought about it until now
'I'm really going to miss you Hazel' I said and I stopped putting my make up on
'I'm going to miss you too Jade. But don't get all emotional on me now because neither of us want to cry our make up off' she laughed
I smiled and turned back to the mirror to finish my make up.
People started arriving not too long after and I was surprised at the amount of people that approached me and said they were going to miss me.
I looked around at all the people that were there and I was really going to miss them.
One by one, all my friends came over with 2 shots and made a toast to me before we downed them.
I started to feel tipsy after all my good friends had approached me but this was the last party I would have here so I needed to make it a memorable one.
I grabbed a drink and began dancing with Una who looked at me and pouted
'Class won't be the same without you next year' she shouted over the music
'I'm sorry, I'm going to miss all you guys so much. But I have to do what's best for me' I said, I started to feel a bit emotional
'No we all understand. You gotta do what you gotta do. Plus, if my boyfriend was as hot as yours, I'd do the same thing' she said and winked before dancing again
I was doing the thing I wanted and needed to do and I was proud of myself for how I'd handled this year.
Sure a lot of shit had gone down but it all worked out okay in the end.
When everyone had finally left at 3 in the morning, we all cleared the bottles, cups and cans away and I got straight into bed.
Tomorrow was the day I was finally going home. I could live my old life again. I could be happy with Ashton again.