I'll do what I can.
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Jimin woke up with an insane headache, he didn't know what happened yesterday at all, or how he even got back here. Did he drink much yesterday? The last thing he remembers is him accepting a red drink from Jackson.
He sat there for a while trying hardly to remember what happened, but all he could think about is how much he's in pain right now. And as if he could read his mind, inyeop entered the room with pain relieaver and a glass of water. Jimin instantly smiled.
"You're awake." Inyeop said smiling but then he let out a guilty sigh.
"Good morning." Jimin smiled lazily at the boy Infront of him.
"Uhm, I got you water and pain killers." He nervously smiled and placed the tray on the bed next to Jimin.
"Thanks." Jimin sat up. "What happened yesterday? I don't remember anything." Jimin gently said, drinking up the pain killers.
"Uhm nothing much." Inyeop said almost instantly. Jimin frowned, confused about the older's tone. "I'm gonna go make breakfast now." Inyeop added as he left.
Jimin layied in bed for a couple more minutes before deciding to take a shower. He went to the bathroom and locked the door before dropping his clothes on the floor.
A few more minutes and he's done. He got out of the shower and before he put his clothes back on, he glanced at himself in the mirror. He gained a little bit of weight since the beginning of the trip. He sighed, disgusted of himself. Maybe he should stop eating for a little..
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Inyeop made some eggs and toast with the ingredients that were available at the hotel. He kept thinking about yesterday, about why was Jimin crying. He knew that something was wrong, but how will he find out?
"Hey." Jimin got in the kitchen.
"Oh, hi." Inyeop snapped out of his thoughts.
"What're you thinking about." Jimin giggled when he saw inyeop deep in thought.
"Oh uhm nothing really." Inyeop simply replied, putting the toast in the toaster.
"Alright," Jimin said. "You still didn't tell me what happened yesterday." He added not really minding the answer.
"You.. drank a bit heavily." The taller answered.
"Yeah, I figured." The younger stated. "I really though I could make it without drinking." He chuckled.
"Yeah.." Inyeop sighed taking the bread out and placing it on the plate. He added the eggs and then took both plates to the dining table.
The pair sat down and started eating. "How're you feeling?" Inyeop suddenly asked.
Jimin cocked an eyebrow at him. "What do you mean? I'm great." He laughed at the sudden question.
"Yeah.. good." He sighed taking another bite of his sandwich. Inyeop was too busy thinking about why was Jimin crying yesterday to notice how hadn't even took a bite out of his food.
Jimin disgustingly looked at the food below him. Suddenly the idea of eating seemed like it used to be, like a crime he can't commit. He stood up and threw the sandwich in the bin while Inyeop was lost in his world. "Thanks for the food, hyung." Jimin faked a smile.
"You're welcome Minnie." Inyeop said putting his plate in the sink. "What do you wanna do today?" He asked.
"I don't know," Jimin thought for a bit. "What about we go to the Gwangandaegyo?" Jimin suggested.
"Sure, let's go get dressed." Inyeop smiled. "We could go to an escape room after." He added.
"Sounds good." Jimin smiled. "I'll go get dressed."
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The pair were currently standing on the bridge, water below their feet. Inyeop excused himself to go get smoothies for the two and Jimin nodded. The younger was left alone for a few minutes, and in that time, thoughts flushed through his head. As all he can hear was the wind and the sea bellow him. He closed his eyes and listened carefully. It's like the waves created a perfect melody. It all seemed so relaxing. Except the thoughts in jimin's head. It was like a battle, of do and don't. Jimin suddenly opened his eyes and looked down the fence. He found himself taking a deep breath and lifting himself up, body leaning forward. He exhaled before letting the fence go, only to be held by stronger arms. Jimin opened his eyes again, not remembering he closed them, and looked at the hand holding him down. He then realized what was happening, he was an inch away from falling down, Inyeop on the other side holding him, panting, and drinks already on the ground.
"Jimin, I left you for three minutes..." Inyeop said panting, at the edge of crying.
Jimin still wasn't fully aware of what he just tried to do. He looked at the older with innocence and confuse in his eyes. "I.. Inyeop." He let out a deep breath, embarrassed by his thoughts.
"Why?" Inyeop asked with teary eyes.
Why.
Why...
Why?
That's the question. Why would Jimin do this? He had the most fun in a while. Why is he still thinking about this? Why does his mind think otherwise than his body?
"I.. I'm sorry." Jimin sniffed. "I'm really sorry, hyung." He cried.
Inyeop instantly took him in a hug, afraid to leave him alone ever again. "Don't cry, Minnie. It's okay, I promise."
"B-but you..."
"No, I don't think about you that way. There's nothing to be embarrassed of. It's okay. I'm here now, just don't think about this ever again. Okay?" Inyeop looked at the boy bellow him, who hasn't done the same. Instead, jimin's head was buried in Inyeop's shoulders.
Desperate for an answer, Inyeop continued, "How could you give up on your life like this? You should try to overcome your difficulties instead. Have you even considered how devastated your loved ones would be? Someone might live in guilt forever for not being able to save you. There's nothing you could do for a dead person." Inyeop said, making Jimin look at him.
Jimin thought for a while. "I'm sorry."
"Jimin, don't apologize."
"... Okay."
"Listen, just think about what I told you. Let's not talk about this again, unless you want to, of course. Now let's go." Inyeop wiped away his own tears.
"Thanks." Jimin smiled a little.
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After the bridge, the two boys went to a horror escape room at a mall. Inyeop cried the whole time there while Jimin laughed at the older. It was pretty fun, but now they're on their way home. It was a pretty long ride, not less than a thirty minute drive.
"I can't believe we haven't ate lunch AND dinner till now." Inyeop chuckled. "I'm pretty hungry." He added.
"Yeah.." Jimin replied, only thinking about yesterday. He had been getting flashbacks and he remembers a few things now. Jackson forced him to drink and then he cried. He doesn't remember what happened between though, he skipped a chapter.
"Random but do you have chaeyoung's number?" The younger asked.
"Uhh, no. I could ask Jackson for it?" Inyeop replied unsure of why Jimin wanted it.
"Yeah I'll appreciate that." Jimin smiled and the older pulled over to text Jackson.
"Uhh actually can I text her from your phone, I'm kinda taking a break from mine." Jimin asked and Inyeop nodded.
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Chaeyoung
Hey chae, it's Jimin
Oh, hey Jimin
Is this your number?
No it's Inyeop's phone
I'm talking a break from mine
Oh I see
Did you get home safely yesterday?
Yeah thanks for asking
Great, no problem 😊
Did you need anything?
Not really
Kinda bored
I just wanted to thank you
for everything.
U seem like a really cool person.
For what, I'm just being myself 😊
Well yourself is a really
amazing person.
I hope we can meet again soon
Btw What were u doing in Busan?
I thought you lived in Seoul
I do live in Seoul, I just went to
Busan to visit Jackie.
I'm leaving tomorrow, wbu?
Ahh
I'm leaving next week.
Cool, we can meet after that
Sounds good
See you
See ya, park
Xoxo
Read 7:56.
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Jimin smiled at their conversation, chaeyoung was really sweet. He really hoped they could friends.
About ten minutes have passed and Inyeop's phone lit with a ding sound. He checked it and gave it to Jimin after reading Chaeyoung's name on it.
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Chaeyoung
Uh Jimin
Yeah?
Are you good with bts?
Sorry if the question is personal
Jimin froze at the question. It gave him blurred memories of yesterday, has someone asked him this yesterday? He quickly shook it off and write an answer to chaeyoung
I mean yeah
Is something wrong?
Uhm..
I kinda saw this post of them
Saying bad things about you on
their main acc
Is everything alright?
Jimin's heart stung, he felt pain. They're still doing this, even after he left them alone?
Oh
Thanks for letting me know
I'll figure it out later don't worry Abt it
Ah alright then
I hope everything gets better
Bye Minnie
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Jimin typed a reply to chaeyoung with tears in his eyes. He tried his best not to cry now, not Infront of Inyeop, he doesn't want to worry him now.
Another ten minutes have passed and Jimin started remembering everything, from small to big details. He suddenly felt sick. He felt pain. He felt a lot of things a t the same time.
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By the time they arrived there, inyeop rushed to the kitchen to cook something to satisfy his growling tummy, while Jimin just sat on the couch, thinking about everything.
"I'm cooking ramyun and bulgogi" Inyeop shouted from the kitchen but didn't get a reply.
Later, Inyeop sat on the dining table with the plates and called Jimin to join him. "Jimin, come on." He called.
Jimin made his way to the dining table and sat down. He looked numb and tired.
"C'mon, bon appetit!" Inyeop picked up his chopsticks to eat but stopped when Jimin didn't do the same. "Is everything alright, Minnie?" He asked.
"I don't think I want to eat. I gained some weight, plus I'm kinda not in the mood for now." Jimin said and silence followed for a few seconds.
"Jimin, you have to eat, please. You're not even fat, stop saying non sense about yourself." Inyeop raised his tone a bit.
"Yeah I know but I don't really feel like eating right now-"
"Eat, please. For my sake."
Jimin sighed. "I'll try, I guess."
Jimin ate about four spoons before stoping and looking at inyeop. He signaled with his eyes to the food.
"No Jimin, eat. It's not optional anymore." Inyeop was almost shouting at this point.
Jimin's mouth gaped and he looked at inyeop with disbelief if his eyes. He never ever though inyeop would act this way.
"I'm sorry inyeop, but I'm not eating." Jimin said, slightly mad at inyeop. "I never thought I'd get this behavior from you." He scoffed. "I really don't need a person to force me eat more. I want someone to be proud of how much I ate, and you're not really helping me. If you can't do that, then I won't eat. I don't wanna feel like eating is obligated." Jimin said, voice cracking and a few tear drops running down his hot, red cheeks.
Silence was all that was heard for a few seconds before Inyeop attempted to speak after realizing how wrong he was
"Jimin, I'm so-" Inyeop was interrupted with Jimin running to the bathroom.
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Jimin rushed to the bathroom, throwing his head over the toilet. He threw up everything. He kept vomiting and vomiting until he felt something hard and chunky making its way out of his throat. He coughed till he felt sore. The poor boy finally sat with his back to the wall, silently crying at the pain and disgust he felt.
Inyeop got into the bathroom, unsure if Jimin wants to talk to him right now. He stood in silence trying to say anything.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Inyeop. I tried, I really tried eating. I just can't, it's not that easy. I'm so sorry for disappointing you, I'm a horrible person." Jimin cried.
"No Jimin, I'm sorry. I didn't see it from your point it view. I never knew how hard it is. I'm very sorry. I'm the one that you should be disappointed in. I should've known better." The older said looking everywhere but at the boy below him, when his eyes landed on the toilet. He saw red... He saw blood. His eyes immediately widen.
"J-jimin, what is this?" He barley got out, pointing at the toilet. Jimin looked at his direction before looking where he was pointing, he froze at the sight. What was happening to him? Was he dying?
From surprise, Jimin stood up. "What is tha-" he barley said before falling right after with a thud.
"JIMIN!" The older shouted, and that's the last thing Jimin could see, inyeop leaning down to hold him, before blackness took over.
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Hey guys, are y'all mad at me? Cuz I definitely am 😍
Jim-out.