"Daddy, daddy, daddy. What's in the box?" Amon asked excitedly as his father carried in the rather large box.
"It's for Y/N calm down." He said as the little boy followed him.
The patter of his tiny feet was being drowned out by the television that played. You were sat in Astor's lap and looked excitedly at your father as he carried in the box.
"Dada." You sounded happily as he he set it down infront of you.
"What's that?" Astor asked as he opened the box.
Silvestor brought out the orange-brown hue teddy bear. You smiled at the sight and reached for it eagerly.
"How come you got her a teddy bear?" Amon complained.
"You told me before you didn't like these things Amon." Silvestor responded handing you the bear.
You laughed hugging the bear warmly excited to have a new sleeping buddy.
Silvestor rubbed your cheek fondly. "Hopefully it'll save you from the nightmares."
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"Now I remember why I don't where makeup very often." You said to yourself as you washed the rest of the makeup from your face. "My face feels tired."
Finally done cleaning your face, you tightened the silk robe on your body. You picked at your hair now up in an afro as you walked out the bathroom. Sibyl was laid out on the couch watching TV. You scoffed at him before getting your sleep medicine from the table and chugging it down. Upon entering your bedroom you opened the closet. Inside was your teddy bear Trixin who you took out.
You fell into the bed and hugged it tightly and you started to drift to sleep. As Sibyl laid on the couch he heard the front door rattle, the fox looked up to see Katsuki enter.
"Hello there." The fox said.
"Where's that idiot at?" The blonde asked.
"I think she's in the room getting ready for bed." Sibyl responded.
Katsuki nodded and entered your bedroom, you were not yet asleep and looked up at him. "Hey Puppy what are you doing here?" You asked.
"Nothing." He responded walking closer to you. The blonde then snatched the bear from you suddenly. "Hey give that back!"
"You got me, the fuck are you sleeping with this shit for?" He asked glaring at the bear.
"Oh shut up. My dad gave him to me, and he helps me sleep." You responded taking the stuffed animal back.
"Well I'm here now so move him." He demanded getting in the bed next to you and you just moved away.
"No, either he stays or you sleep by yourself." You said once again as you laid down facing away from him.
He glared at your turned back and sighed annoyed before laying down. Katsuki hugged you from behind pulling you close to him. The two of you laid there in silence. Before you drifted to sleep you could feel Katsuki dig his face into your neck. His breath tickled your skin making your own hitch.
You then turned over to look at his half asleep face. He looked back at you as you brought Trixin closer to your chest. You tried to sleep but his staring kept you up.
"What are you staring for?" You asked.
Katsuki shrugged his shoulders. "Shut up and let me stare." You rolled your eyes and moved to lay on your back. He stared at you, mainly the way shsped your chest as he watched it rise and fall with your every breath. "I dunno, how long we been together now? A month?"
"Yes, why?" You asked turning back to face him who was now looking up at the ceiling.
Katsuki hummed almost annoyed and confused. "Normally the shit you pulled tonight, would shock my ass. Cuz you're insane."
"Really who's insane? The teenager who found a profession in murder? Or the boy who fell in love with her?" You asked back causing Katsuki to side-eye you.
You smiled back at him slyly and he looked away, you noticed the pink start to appear in his ears. "I guess you rubbed your crazy off of me." He continued.
At his words you giggled quietly, the action causing the blonde to flash a small smile. "Are you upset about that?"
"Bout what?"
"My crazy rubbing on you, or you falling in love with me?" You asked at your last few words quieted.
"Neither." Katsuki rolled back to you, your faces now inches away despite the bear you held being in between. As he stared at you he admired the sight before him. Something about the way the silk fabric draped over your body turned something in him. In his eyes you looked irresistible. He got impatient. "Fuck it, move this shit."
Before you could protest, he took the bear away and kissed you eagerly. Of course you were upset he took Trixin away, but under the pressure of his affection you didn't care. He wrapped his arms around you and brought your head closer deepening the kiss. Katsuki let go to breathe before you pulled him back.
He groaned into your lips as you traced the muscle in his arms. You could feel the heat rise in your body as Katsuki's lips moved down to your cheek. Then your neck which he kissed softly as slight waves of pleasure spread through you.
You felt as Katsuki's hands began to explore. His right began to reach downward and took your leg and began to rub the barren skin. His hand felt warm, but that paled in comparison to the burning in your body. Suddenly Katsuki kissed a part of your neck, the contact made you jolt softly and moan loudly under him.
Sibyl, sat in the living room heard the sound and jolted up. The fox looked towards your bedroom in shock. "I know they're not about to . . ." The animal muttered quietly before looking away. "Y/N must really want to erase that memory. Get it I guess."
You laid there with your eyes widened, and your hand pressed against Katsuki's chest as you had pushed him away. That sound you made shook you deeply. Such a sound had never graced your lips, not since that nightmarish evening. You began to swallow what felt like a brick in your throat trying to stop the build up in your chest.
Katsuki looked down at you confused at the interruption as you took your hand away, your fingers shaking in fear. "Sorry I-" you started to stutter and you sat up. "Fuck."
You cried out before pushing him away and leaving out the bedroom. Katsuki watched you leave in confusion at what he could have done wrong before it hit the male. "Fuck, too early for that." He reprimanded himself quietly. "Why the fuck?"
The cold splash of water on your face could not cease the burning shame you felt. Slut. You could hear them calling you that. Slut. You could recall everytime they trusted into you and drew that sound out they would brand you with that accursed name. Slut. That name they called you made you shake and writhe as you lowered yourself. Your hands shook fearfully as you gripped the counter. The white marble stone threatened to crack under your grip as you fell to the ground.
Now you leaned against the tub scared for your life. A cry was blocked in your throat. Why was this happening? You loved him, the way he touched you made you feel safe, so why? Without thinking you could feel your hands on your legs once more. Then-
"Hey dumbass." You heard a voice at thw door. "Open up." He added before a slight pause. "Please."
Slowly you pressed your hands against the cold floor and stood up. You unlocked the door to see Katsuki stood out your door holding Trixin.
"S-sorry, I didn't mean to trigger you or nothing. Here, take your fucking bear." He said shoving the animal towards you.
You looked at the bear and swallowed hard and took it from him before hugging it tightly. Katsuki watched you as a pit of guilt grew in his stomach.
"Come on." He took your hand and walked you back to the bedroom.
Sibyl looked back and watched you two reenter without a word. Guess it went sideways.
Now back in the room you sat on the bed still clutching the bear. Katsuki sat next to you, and he watched you stroke the toy's fur softly. Seeing the shit like what you pulled makes me forgot how fragile you are. Fuck. The blonde thought to himself he sighed quietly.
"So . . ." He started as you just just side-eyed him nervously. "you wanna talk bout shit? Or?"
You looked away and dug your face further into the animal and shrugged your shoulders. "I don't even know what happened." You started quietly. "It's just . . . I . . . I was okay with it. Till I made that fucking sound." At those last few words you hid your face into the bear.
Nothing wrong with it. Katsuki thought to himself as he looked away with a small tint on his face. "I thought it was cute."
You jolted up at his words. "Wait what?"
He looked towards you confused before his eyes widened realizing that he said the last few aloud. "Fuck me." Katsuki said to himself through his teeth quietly as you scoffed at him before laughing.
"Can't believe you find that cute." You muttered amused but still ashamed by the sound.
"What don't you like it for?" He asked trying to shift the focus back to you.
Your stomach churned at his question as you looked away again. "Made me feel like a slut. That's what they called me too, as they were raping me. You didn't do anything, it's just . . . me."
There's the shit he hated. The way you would beat yourself up over those assholes. He still had to get the father.
"It's not your fault. Shit's gonna bother you for a while I guess." Katsuki told you, even reminding himself of that. "Well maybe once I kill the old one you'll feel better." He continued as he brought you close to him making you laugh again.
"Yeah, maybe it will." You agreed with a small smile.
As he held you, your grip on Trixin tightened. Katsuki noticed this and wanted to take bear again, but he didn't want to risk a reaction. He raised his hand to your head and began to stroke your head softly.
"Shit it's late, lay down." He said moving to lay on the bed and he placed you on top of him.
"You don't want to take him cuz he's in the way?" You asked the blonde.
"Nah," he said holding you closer. "you got your teddy bear, I got mine."
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I'm back and decided to start on a somewhat wholesome note.