Warning: This chapter will contain smut and some bdsm.
I finally had my answer
The unknown is an illusion
Never to be seen or understood
We work so hard to find it
That we lost what is right in front of us
Reachable and visible.
Joe's pov:
I looked at his face. His tears painted a masterpiece. Messy yet beautiful. Everything felt like stars; he shined in the dark. I couldn't take my eyes off him. I held him tighter and breathed. Nothing special, just a simple gesture, but he sobbed even harder. I knew for the first that he was okay. He was crying because he felt safe and comfortable. He had finally realized the meaning behind my words. I have finally achieved the impossible.
"I will never let you go." I probably said it a million times, feeling like it wasn't enough. I always hated when he cried, but for tonight, I wanted him to let it all out. The eight years of pain he had to carry, the thoughts he had to hear by himself and the memories that he had to see every time he closed his eyes. He deserved some peace... at least for tonight.
He was fragile.
"Ko..." he let out under me.
"Yes, baby?"
"You know... I never thought I would have someone to call my own. Even now, I feel like today will not last forever. Nothing is promised. We are humans, after all."
"But I am here."
"I know... but..."
"Kaoru... let it out."
"You know... ever since I was young, I felt like I was fated to be alone. That I didn't need anyone that is why I was probably mean or aggressive... in the way I behaved or talked. But what if I was lonely and needed someone? I made myself believe that love was just a beautiful concept only worth portraying in art. That's probably why I wanted to be a calligrapher." I giggled. "Maybe I just wanted to meet love for once. Little did I know, it wouldn't be a dumb drawing or a line I read in a book..." he stopped and grabbed my face in his hand. "It was a stupid teenager that I would meet on a Monday morning. Someone that kept on going after me even when I made myself believe that I was better without them. I tried to escape the grasp of this human, but he just wouldn't let go. It's kind of ironic because I still, even today, convince myself that I wanted to leave him when in fact, all I wanted was someone to need me. I didn't want to leave."
"Baby... well, guess what?"
"Hmm," he hummed as he played with my hair.
"I am indeed dumb. I am dumb for not realizing what you needed."
"It's not your fault! You couldn't possibly know!" he jumped a little, fearing that I misunderstood him.
"Shhh... calm down. Let me finish." He relaxed back on the bed, holding my hand tightly, making sure that there was no way of escape. "To be honest, I can't remember how and when I fell in love with you. I always knew you were special to me... More than I thought, and one day you were just too important to let go. Don't get me wrong. I never wanted to let you go from the very beginning. But I would be lying if I said I didn't have my doubts. After you dated Adam, I thought that maybe it was also time for me to move on. So, yes... I started dating a lot of women. But none of them filled the void you built inside of me. You made me want you even more, to the point that I couldn't wake up without hearing your voice. I love you, Kaoru. I could have prevented all of that if I just realized..."
But before I could finish my sentence, a pair of lips crashed into mine.
A kiss was his answer.
He wasn't trying to shut me up. Rather he was trying to speak... he was telling me, in the middle of the silence, that he understood. He knew what I was feeling. But most of all... he told me that he doesn't regret anything. The good or the bad, Adam or not... all of it brought us together, stronger than ever.
The kiss was getting stronger by the second. Our lips were slippery and easy to move. I bit his lower lip, asking permission to enter. He opened just enough for me to slip in. I missed this feeling. I craved him more than ever. I needed more.
If only we took the time to open our eyes
On what we have.
His hands were pulling at my hair while mine roamed his body as if it was for the first time we had ever touched. I was working my way down, kissing every inch of him. I wanted his taste etched in my memory, nothing but him on my tongue. My lips moved back to his neck, kissing and biting it gently, making sure it would leave a mark in the morning. He softly moaned, gripping the back of my neck. He didn't want to let go, and neither did I.
"Ko... quick," he let out. His hands were trembling, asking for more. I was losing control... I wanted to be inside of him. He was driving me crazy.
His other hand managed to move down to grip my dick, and he rubbed it up and down, feeling it get harder than ever with each stroke. I groaned, and I moved my lips down to his chest. His nipples were hard, and I couldn't help but suck them while leaving wet kisses on them. I couldn't help but want to make him mine over and over again. I started to get rougher with every kiss until I bit his beautiful white skin.
Leaving marks everywhere as a reminder of the night, I was the only one that could witness his naked body.
He stopped for a second to grip my neck while I stared directly into his eyes and said: "Do you have any idea how much I missed your body... how much I craved your touch."
He shifted his eyes to the side, and I could feel the heat coming from his cheeks. He was blushing. I giggled and whispered to myself: 'He is so cute...'
I wish the moon would grant me permission to see his face clearly... but it was enough. I had him in my arms.
"Baby..." his voice was filled with a mixture of embarrassment and pleasure. But it wasn't enough. We needed more.
"Now that you are here, I'm finally able to touch what always belonged to me," as I said those words, my hands travelled down to his ass, slipping under the fabric that was separating our bodies.
"Can I?" I asked, waiting impatiently for permission to enter my finger. It had been a long time, and I needed to make sure he was ready. I didn't want to hurt him.
Without a second to waste, he approached my ear and whispered: "I am all yours, Ko... do as you please."
This was the last straw... I couldn't stay calm after hearing those words.
I completely let go of his chest and pushed one finger filling the room with his beautiful, sexy moans. Another finger in, and he squeezed harder than ever, signalling how much pleasure he was feeling. I let go after a while of stretching him and rapidly grabbed his ass, turning him over.
"Have you been playing with your ass?" I asked, noticing that he was already a little loose.
"I... I... Ko..." he wasn't able to speak properly. He was drowning in the pleasure.
"I am right here, baby." I whispered into his ear, "Do you trust me?"
He could barely pant out a yes, as I reached over and grabbed a blindfold and some ropes from the drawer next to the bed. His eyes blazed with anticipation and want. I could hardly contain myself.
"Baby, I need you to give me a safe word," I said while tying his hands to the bedpost.
"Red, Ko, my safe word is red. Please do something, anything." I smiled as I looked down at him, blindfolded, tied to the bed, waiting for me, and only me. I am the only person who could make him feel this way.
I grabbed the vibrator that I knew he hid underneath his bed. I set it at the lowest setting and started to tease his dick with it. I watched as his whimpers grew louder and his growls got deeper. He was pushing against his restraints, trying to free himself.
"Kkko.. Kkko please, please, I need more." I heard him beg, with tears starting to form in his eyes.
"You can do better than that... try again." I edged him on seeing how far he was willing to play my game.
"Please, please, I belong to you. No one will ever come close to making me feel this way." He said out of breath. I increased the vibrations a bit, but not enough to give him what he wanted.
"You are doing soo good, baby, but I know you can do better. Yes?" I smiled through my words as I saw him push more against his restraints, clearly disliking the position he was in.
"Kojiro, I need you, only you. Please, please, please, just make me cum. All I ever wanted was you. I am all yours. Please." He said through his tears, his body shaking, needing a release that I so gladly will provide.
"Such a good boy." And with that, I put the toy at its highest level and witnessed as the love of my life came undone with only my name on his lips.
I quickly worked my way to remove the blindfold and binds. "We are not done yet. Do you still remember your safe word?" He nodded, and without wasting another second, I rubbed my hard dick on his ass and whispered in his ear: "Do you feel how hard my dick is for you?" with that, he shoved his face deep into the sheet, trying to contain his voice. "Don't hide, baby... let me hear you." I grabbed his face, turning it to the side and kissing him. "This is all because of you. Now be a good boy for me and take it all." I said as I pulled away, letting him breathe for a bit.
I lifted his ass up, pulling down his boxer just enough to expose his most private part. Without warning, I immediately thrust my dick into him, making him let out a beautiful, loud erotic sound filled with pain and pleasure.
"I love you... so fucking much."
"Me...me too."
The night witnessed our love. I couldn't remember when it was all over. But in the end, it was just him and I, in each other's embrace.
Now I get it
It was easy from the start
I had it all
I was just too mesmerized by
This wonderful yet dangerous
Unknown.
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