⇢VIENNA⇠
I couldn't turn to Maddy because if she knew she'd kill me, my best friend was out currently stabbing me in the back with my boyfriend. Rue was too busy out with her girlfriend.
I was angry and sad. So that's how I found myself throwing a brick through their gas station window.
Not my finest moment.
Nor was blocking and deleting both of their numbers.
But I was high when I did those things. "This is cute, what do you think?" Maddy spoke holding up a halloween costume. We were out shopping. "Yeah."
"What about you? What are you thinking?" "I don't know, maybe playboy bunny." "Really? That's so basic?"
"I don't know?" I shrug lookin through the costumes. Me and Nairobi were supposed to do matching. That was until I found out she was a two faced slut.
After all the crying ive done in the past couple of weeks I don't think I have any tears left in me.
"Do you think you'll be ready to go back to school soon?" Maddy asked me.
I have been going for a number of reasons but the one I tell my mom is it still causes me to much emotional distress.
"I don't know."
"Vienna. Could you please say more than I don't know. What the fuck is up with you? I can tell that you're keeping something from me. And you haven't spoken to Nairobi in weeks let alone picked up your phone. Is it because she's dating Ashtray?"
"What?!" "Yeah... wait, you don't know? The two seem pretty cozy everyday in the cafeteria. It's a shame that she's leting her pretty face go to waste on someone like him." Maddy spoke so casully like this was just another piece of gossip as she continued to look.
I on the other hand. Was on the verge of tears again. Looks like I do still have a few left. I stormed out of the store with a word. They weren't sad ones, they were frustrated one. That I let myself get played. By both their asses.
And now I've really been push to my breaking point.
"What the fuck is your problem? I brought you out here to pick a costume. We aren't walking into that party looking like anying." Maddy spoke following after me.
"I don't give two shits about a fucking costume Maddy! Your a fucking phycopath you no that! You're fucking crazy! This shit you're doing for him is fucking crazy! Because you have lost your fucking mind! You're so fucking consumemed by Nate you've lost you're free fucking will!"
"Don't FUCKING start with me Vienna!" Maddy barked back. "I'm fucking starting Maddy. Because your the most self absorbed bitch I've ever fucking met! You pick at everyone around you to make yourself feel good! Making you the worlds biggest fucking hypocrite Maddy! You make everything about you! And your ABUSIVE, TOXIC, MANIPULATIVE BOYFRIEND!"
"You have no room to fucking speak Vienna! You're a fucking carben copy of me! Just because you're jealous of my life doesn't mean you have to attack me! Especially when I need the most support for you! MY SISTER!"
"Maddy fuck your life! I'm not jealous of shit! Your life sucks and it's all of a matter of time before everything slips out from under you! Fuck you Maddy!" I scream before walking away. "Yeah well fuck you to!"
"Hey...I need a ride...thanks, I'll send you my location. And hey, don't tell Ash" I watched as Maddy's car pulled off and I stood at the corner and waited for Fez.
"Yo so what's going on with Nairobi and Ash?" Fez asked me as he began to drive me home. "My sister got into some heavy shit. And it screwed with my head so I blew up on everyone."
"But you ain't talk to those two in weeks." "They seem fine without me?" "What?" "Don't worry about it. Thanks for the ride. I spoke as we pulled up to my house. "Any time kid." Fez sighed as I got out of the car.
"I don't need a therapist!" I yelled at my mom. "Vienna you're not ok!" "I'm fine! There's nothing wrong with me! I'm fine! I am not going to therapy!"
"Yes you are Vienna!" "You can't make me!" "You haven't been eating, sleeping, you're not ok Vienna!"
"I'm fine! This isn't my problem! This is all Maddy's fault! If anyone should be going to therapy it should be her!"
"So... tell me about your relationship with your sister. About how she's treated you."
So I'm doing therapy
"V hey." Nairobi spoke, we were at Ash's house. Well I guess they were already together because when I walked in they were already sitting on the couch.
"How have you been?" "Shity." I state bluntly looking between the two as I sat across from them. "What about you two how've you been?" "I've been chilling." Ash spoke.
"Yeah. We've missed you."
"I bet. I bet the two of you have missed me so much. Is that why you two have been all cuddled up together, right? Missed me so much that you stopped by my house to check on me."
"You-" "Went through the worst weeks of my fucking lifes and the two people I needed the most were stabbing me in the back."
"V it wasn't like that. I told you how I felt about you at the carnival. And when you didn't text me back I took it as you needed space. Yeah it pissed me off but I'm always gonna put your feelings before my own." Ash spoke, sitting up more.
"Then what the hell are you so guilty for then? Nairobi?" "Who said anything about being guilty. I haven't said anything. There's nothing to be said."
"You're a fucking lie. If one of you two don't start speaking more bricks are gonna get through more windows. Try me."
"Fine... fuck it...-" "I kissed him. I knew how much you liked him and I did it anyway. Because I liked him first. But just like your sister you get everything you want." My eyes started to water hearing the truth out loud.
"You were supposed to be my best friend." "I know and I'm so sorry." "So what you thought you'd steal my boyfriend and we'd just be the best of buds."
"You always get the shiny new toys Vienna. And I was tired of it. And of you to be honest. It's just always something. And I'm no one's side character." I rolled my tongue on the inside of my cheek and nodded. Right before I jumped at her.
"You stupid fucking bitch." I speak lunging at her before throwing punches at her. She fought back. "YO FEZ! V chill!" Ash spoke trying to pull me off of her but I wouldn't budge.
"YOOOO! What the fuck." Fez ran over and grabbed Nairobi. "You're fucking dead to me!" "Ni you gotta bounce." "It's cool. I know..." Nairobi spoke, shaking it off as Ash held me tight. I have missed him... but I'm pissed as hell right now.
"Bitch!" "V look-" "No get off me- I don't wanna talk to you right now." I spit, pushing him away from me. "Let me explain. I can't have you go ghost on me like that again."
"I don't want to look at you right now." "V-" "No! I just- I just need some time ok." "Come on, I'll take you home kid."
Despite how basic it might be to some people I choose to be a playboy bunny. And I looked good. And despite what I thought I was the only one.
"Hey..." "Hey." Rue and I greeted each other as her and Jules stood at my doorway. The two of us made up the other day.
But I didn't apologize for how I feel about Jules. "Hi Vienna. You look nice." "I know. Thanks though. Dad, Rue's here! I'm leaving." I yell inside the house before stepping out and closing the door behind me.
I haven't spoken to my mom since she literally had to fight me to go to therapy.
It got nasty.
"So what happened when you went over there?" Rue asked as we made our way to pick up Kat.
"I beat her ass. She was supposed to be my best friend and yet she silently had it out for me from the jump and tried to steal my boyfriend. Like we're in some tv show or something. Ugh but being without her some what feels freeing. I don't know."
"Wait what? Nairobi right? She tried to steal your man?" I don't remember speaking to her but... "Yeah... you wouldn't know him though. Ash is supposed to clear things up tonight." I sigh.
"At the party?" Rue asked. "Yup." I speak popping the p. "Hey, how's Maddy holding up?" Jules asked, which I scoffed at. "Jules."
"What sorry I didn't know it was a sensitive topic. I didn't mean to upset you." "Of course you didn't." I speak looking at her giving the most fakest smile ever before rolling my eyes and walking ahead of them as we approached Kat's house.
"See I told you she didn't like me." "Well not when you go poking the bear." I don't trust Jules. It's clear as day that she's stringing Rue along. And she might be clean now but that's based on Jules.
She fucks up one time and hurts Rue, that will only cause her to relapse. And Rue shouldn't want to get clean for anyone but herself.