Two days later.
Kaisyn groaned in her sleep, hearing a phone repeatedly ringing.
"Von get that phone man." She tried pushing his body off of hers, and he remained locked in place, asleep.
"Dayvon get up." She slightly shook his body, before groaning in frustration as the phone rung again.
She reached over, and Von began to stir in his sleep, tightening his grip on her.
"Move so I can get yo phone Kyzeir." She mumbled, and he did so, laying back on top of her once she grabbed it.
She unlocked his phone, seeing 17 missed calls from an unknown number, and she blocked it, before sitting it on her dresser, closing her eyes again.
Just as she was about to doze back off, his phone rung again, making her snatch it off the dresser.
"The fuck you want?" She answered, attitude laced in her voice.
"Who the fuck is this?" Kaisyn recognized the voice as Asian's.
"Call this fucking phone again I'ma come show you who I am bitch. Get off his dick folks Ima shoot yo stupid ass in yo forehead. Call later, he sleep." Kaisyn tiredly rambled, before ending the call and blocking the second number.
"Gone piss me off. Move Von cause I know you heard this dumbass phone ringing." She attempted to push his strong body off of hers.
"You sexy as fuck." He rasped, sleep ridden in his voice, making her roll her eyes.
She turned over to lay on her stomach, making Von frown because she'd pushed him off of her.
"Bae why you being mean to me?" He frowned, and she lifted her arm up, letting him lay under her.
"You need to check that hoe or I'ma kill her bitch ass. I ain't fucking playing." She mumbled, and he rubbed her ass, his eyes closed.
"I'ma get you pregnant." He said, and she smacked her lips, making him smile.
"I ain't playing Von. She been calling from fake numbers since a few days ago. Check her, or I'ma do it for you and my demon time ain't nothin' nice." She stood up from her bed, and his eyes opened again.
"I'ma handle it." He chuckled, watching her naked body walk towards her bathroom.
"It ain't funny. She done pissed me the fuck off bra." She mumbled, closing the door behind her, making him stand up.
He walked in the bathroom, brushing his teeth next to her, seeing attitude all in her expression. She hated being woken from her sleep if it wasn't for food or money.
"I'ma go dead that today aight? Relax ma." He wrapped his arms around her as she looked up at him with a small pout on her face.
"I'm sleepy as hell and I know you heard that dumbass phone." She mumbled, and he smiled, pecking her lips.
"But I still ain't answer cause I'm a gremlin." He shrugged, and she laughed, rolling her eyes.
Von leaned over, picking her up as she wrapped her arms around his neck.
"You such a baby." He chuckled after she laid her face in his neck.
She hummed in response, keeping her body wrapped in his as he laid them back under her covers.
"I wanna go to Cuba." She mumbled, yawning afterwards, making him smile because he knew she was about to start rambling.
"Yeah? Why?" He rubbed her back, and Kaisyn closed her eyes.
"I need to go make sure they treating my nigga Tupac good." She said, and he laughed.
"You think he still alive?" He asked, and she nodded, a small smile on his face.
"They hiding that nigga cause he was too big for the industry. They ain't like how he was taking over, with music and acting." She told him, rubbing his sides.
"Who he hiding from if Suge in jail?" He chuckled, and she shrugged.
"They say it's still some niggas from that big ass war they had, wit' the East and the west coast. And then six months after Pac died, Biggie did. Both of them in a drive by. That was that gang shit man. I guess Pac just wanted a normal life so now he chilling in Cuba. Or Malaysia, I forgot." She tiredly rambled to him.
"That was when hip hop died foreal. Pac was ahead of his time, one of my favorite rappers. His sexy ass." She mumbled, and he laughed, watching a small smile grow on her face.
"You think Suge set him up?" He asked, interested in how much she knew about it.
"Nah. That shit was deeper than just them, that's why Suge locked up. Folks just getting them out the free world. I don't know who though, not the CIA or Secret Service, something bigger than what we think we know. Maybe the Illuminati."
"Pac knew that shit though. That's why he hiding, cause they still gone be out to get him if he was alive. I'm surprised Puff Daddy living as good as he is, they took out all the old school jawns. He better stay prayed up cause folks on his ass." Her voice slowed down as she became tired.
"So you think he in Cuba? Girl that nigga under the dirt." He said, and she dramatically gasped, making him laugh.
"Shut yo hating ass up. He probably somewhere fucking on yo moms in hell." She told him, and he busted out laughing, making her smile.
"My mama ain't dead pussy. Where yours at?" He smirked, and she gasped again, a smile on her face.
"Hopefully getting dick down that tunnel." She shrugged, and he laughed, shaking his head at her.
"Why youn fuck wit' yo mama?" She asked, yawning as she moved closer to him, holding him tight.
"Ion know. She never really liked how me, my daddy and Tray was in the streets. She ain't fuck wit' none of us cause apparently we full of demons." He told her, shrugging.
"That make you sad?" Her thumb rubbed softly over his skin, and he shrugged again.
"It used to. Cause she the only blood family I got left, you know? And a nigga need his mama. She still ain't fuckin' wit' me doe'. Even more since Silk and Tray died. She said it's my fault and it won't be too long until it's my turn cause I'm a spawn of satan." He chuckled, and her eyes opened.
"I'm sorry baby. I know that don't feel good." She mumbled, reaching up to rub his face.
"Karma for all that bad shit I did in my life. It's cool, shit happens." He shrugged, and she met his eyes.
"You ain't gotta mask that shit with me Kyzeir. I know it hurt to be alone. Don't fake it." She said, and he looked away from her gaze.
"You ain't alone no more. I got you." She mumbled, and he pecked her lips, making her smile.
"Tell me something else bout you. Something nobody know." He kissed her bottom lip, and she chuckled.
"You tell me something first." She said, and he smacked his lips.
"I just did." He spoke sarcastically, and she laughed, shrugging.
"It don't have to be nothing deep. Just anything." She rubbed his broad shoulder, listening as it began to drizzle outside.
"Sometimes I be scared when I step out the house." He told her, and she rose an eyebrow in confusion.
"Not super savage mr armed and dangerous scared?" She smirked, and he laughed.
"Not scared of no niggas or nothin', neva' that. But just in general. You never know when yo time is, you know? And even though this world fucked up, I ain't tryna leave early. At least not no more." He shrugged, and she looked up at him.
"Silk used to tell me no matter how old you is, a grave ain't as far as it seem, and that be having me scared as a bitch cause ion know what happen after death. Like, is it nothin'? Hell? That shit scary to think about." He told her, and she nodded in agreement.
"We probably in hell already and don't know it. That's why you gotta make this life what you want it to be, can't let that shit control you. Death is crazy to think about though. People being here one minute, and then boom, gone forever for the rest of your life. And you just gotta deal with that shit." Kaisyn shook her head, rubbing over his chest tattoo.
"Mhm. Then, knowing that they body in the ground, just the bones, but the person you knew ain't there no more, and never will be. Folks out here just gotta be okay wit' it cause ain't shit you can do to stop it." He added on, and she nodded.
"That's why ion believe in god. Cause too many good people die. Like nobody asked to be here on this earth, you know? So why we gotta die and suffer for some shit we never even asked for. Going through shit that could've been stopped, but 'He' let it happen. A spiritual being that 'loves me' wouldn't have let that shit happen." She mumbled, and he sensed she was referring to a specific situation.
"What happened to you Kaisyn?" He asked, and she looked up, her brown orbs locking on his.
"A lot. I don't know where to start." She chuckled, but her small laugh was sad, real sad, as she released a quiet breath of air.
"You know how I'm gay and shi-well, was, right?" She smiled, and he chuckled, nodding.
"I been liking girls, since I was real little. Cause all I grew up with was niggas, you know? Thought I was one of y'all, shid. And I never tried to hide it. Jaisyn knew I liked girls way in elementary school." She shook her head at her being fast.
"So yeah, I forgot how, but my daddy ended up finding out, not that I was tryna keep it a secret or anything. That nigga was mad as hell at my young ass. But, I still had time to change you know? I was only eight, I could've eventually grown an attraction for boys-like I did." She chuckled, referring to her and Von's relationship.
"One night, he came in me and Jaisyn room, on the air mattress I was sleeping on. It ain't have no air though, Jaisyn bad ass popped that shit so I was just laying on the material." She said, and he laughed, making her smile.
"Jaisyn was at Cordae house, and it was just me and my father. And he raped me that night. Bad, that shit hurt so bad, all I remember is the pain. Feeling like my body was being ripped, that shit hurt bad." She mumbled, and Von's heart dropped at the news.
"He told me that he was gone show me how to like boys. That after I had some of him I wouldn't like girls no more. I was only eight, I didn't even know what being gay was, I just liked what I liked." She pushed her hair behind her ear, avoiding Von's gaze.
"When Jaisyn came back, I told him what happened, and he shot my daddy with his own gun. I watched. We was eight years old, that shit crazy. Witnessing rape and murder at eight. We was so young, how do people hurt kids like that? I would never hurt a kid, in any way. Not mentally, physically, emotionally, nothing."
"And me and Jaisyn had to get rid of that body by ourself. But we was young and dumb as fuck, didn't know what to do. We locked his ass in the hall closet and he just rotted in there. We wasn't in school, so social services ain't know shit about us."
"The smell got so fucking bad after like two weeks, so me and Jai stayed with the neighbor, Ms.Alice. We stayed with her for a few years actually, Jaisyn told her what had happened, and she kept our secret. Took care of us until Jaisyn decided to take care of me."
"That's what I mean when I say me and my brother was all we had. We was just kids, we done been through so much, some shit I done forced myself to forget about cause it was so bad.." Kaisyn softly mumbled, her face flat.
"That's why I'm as hard as I am, or why I 'don't act like a regular girl'. I be tryna protect me, because Jai ain't here to do it for me no more. I don't wanna be hurt or violated in any way, ever again. So I keep my guard up wit' everybody. It's not something I do on purpose, I'm just tryna keep myself safe." She told him, playing with the waistband of his boxers.
Von watched as Kaisyn held a flat, emotionless expression the whole time, along with the soft passionless voice. As if she didn't feel anything at all.
She was hurt at such a young age, she didn't even know how to express her emotions, which is why she always resorted to violence. She didn't know how to respond any other way.
"I wish I could take all that shit away from you. All the pain, the shit you been through. I wish I could just make life easy for you. Cause you so beautiful, yo soul, so beautiful. You don't and never did deserve the shit that happened to you." He rubbed her face, and she looked up to meet his eyes.
"But I can't. And I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry you had to go through it alone, and I'm sorry for taking the person who helped you through it away from you. I'm so proud of you. Some shit that happened to you, would've broke any other mufucka down."
"You remained solid, and you kept fighting. That's why I love you. You so strong Kaisyn, I just wanna make this shit easy for you. I want you to be comfortable enough wit' me to know that you don't have to keep yo guard up. Fuck how corny it sound, whenever you fall, when you tired of being strong, I wanna be the one to pick you back up." He said, watching silent tears fall from her eyes.
"You are so beautiful to me. The way you live life, like nothing ever happened to you. You didn't let that shit make you, you became who you wanted to be. You don't have to be strong all the time mama. I wanna teach you that it's okay to cry because you sad, or just because you feel like it. You don't have to be okay all the time Kaisyn." He rubbed her back as she cried on his chest.
"You been strong because you had to be, but you don't have to do that no more baby. The only way to be strong in this cruel ass world is to break. You gotta let go and let me be there for you, let anybody be there Kaisyn. You don't have to go through this life shit alone." He held her body tight, his heart breaking as he listened to her sob.
"Oh my god I-I love you so much. I'm so sorry. I'm trying Von." She cried, and he kissed the side of her face.
"You so strong baby. That shit is in you, not on you. But it's time to be weak for a lil bit. You gotta break one day mama or that shit gone take you down. Let me in Kaisyn." He mumbled, and she nodded, holding his body close to hers as she cried.
She'd never felt words hit her so deep before. She wanted to break so bad, she was so tired of being strong all the time.
She loved Von more than he knew, and more than she'd ever be able to put into words. Somebody who forced her to be weak, to accept help, was somebody who she wanted to be with forever.
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