"ᥫan I ask you something.. if you don't mind?" Silas asked hesitantly, breaking the comfortable silence in the car.
"Sure," I replied, giving him a small smile.
"W-What was your previous pregnancy like?" he asked, curiosity and gentleness lacing his voice.
My breath hitched. That was a very sore topic for me. I gulped and opened my mouth to say something, but closed it. I tried to form words, but nothing.
"Uh- I'm sorry I shouldn't have-" he started, looking at me for a brief second before turning back to the road, a guilty expression adorning his face.
"It's fine," I cut him off, giving him a small smile, before continuing as I looked outside the window, "I, uh, actually didn't know that I was pregnant at first. Once the bump started forming, that's when I instantly knew. I never knew what to do. S-Some of the g-girls helped me though. It was dangerous to be pregnant over there.. and unhealthy. I never got to go to any check ups or anything, but I did get lucky o-one time — or rather, I say, unlucky in an unlucky event. I w-was 6 months along, and sure my bump was showing all along, but no one cared, because he was gone for a business trip and random men used to.. do the stuff to me and not care. But this time, I was being beaten and r-raped again and when the doctors came to, uh, check up on me, they f-found out.. a-and next thing I know, I'm at the organ factory, where they run the organ trafficking ring.. a-nd.. I s-see my premature b-baby boy getting parts of h-his body plucked out and cut into pieces by h-him a-and-" I was full on sobbing at this point and I could see tears streaming down Silas' face as well, as he parked into an empty spot in the parking lot.
He wiped his tears and switched the car off, turning to me as he gently picked me up from my seat and set me down in his lap. I didn't look up at him, I just looked down at my lap, as silent tears streamed down my face, my body shaking.
"I-I'm so sorry Donna," he said, his voice cracking, as he lifted my chin to meet his soft gaze. "I-It's okay.. it's b-been 3 years now," I smiled softly, my cries slowing down.
"You got this. And I won't let anything happen to you okay. You deserve happiness and I'm gonna make sure that you get to live it," he said, wiping my tears, as he tenderly kissed my forehead, while I closed my eyes.
Soon after that moment, we got off and headed into my brothers' hospital building, walking to the maternity wing. I held Silas hand as we walked. Some people walking by gave us curious and weird looks, but got shut down by one deadly glare from Silas.
(a/n: heads up » i know nothing abt pregnancy, except the basics, not the very, very detailed processes and whatnot, so, if i get anything wrong, dont come at me. this is also fiction, so whatever shit is here, it's unreal shit and you can't say anything about it – well you can educate me and yeah, that's it. bye ;))
We soon reached the room which we were looking for and sat down on one of the uncomfortable hospital chairs, as we waited.
About 10 minutes later, a young, beautiful nurse, with a kind smile on her face, called for me, "Miss Armani."
My head snapped up to her direction. I wanted to return her smile, but right now, I really couldn't and I didn't bother giving a fake smile either just to pretend everything's okay. Because it's not. I looked up at Silas, who gave me a comforting smile in return, as he tugged on my hand, gently pulling me into the room, as we sat on the two chairs opposite her table.
"I'm Dr. Pérez, but you can call me Deifillia. Okay, so, talk to me," she said giving me a comforting smile.
"Uhm.. I-I'm pregnant. I took two tests.. and I just want to confirm and get further information on w-what to do," I said, giving her a small smile.
"Okay. Are you the father?" she asked, turning her head to Silas.
"Oh- no. I'm her brother," he replied, shaking his head. Deifillia muttered a quick apology and got to testing me.
She gave me gave me two options. One, via blood test and two, via the whole pee process. I, of course chose option two, because I have seen enough blood for a lifetime and I do not wish to see anymore of it.
Once I was done with that, she took my pee for testing and observations and after a few anxious minutes, it was declared;
i am indeed pregnant.
again.
1 month and 1 week, to be precise.
"Okay, so now that that's done, I must ask, before I proceed, are you keeping the baby?" she asked me the million dollar question, as were now back in our seats at her office. I sighed and did a quick rewind of everything, before deciding.
i hope i don't make another mistake yet ag-
you won't. i can't lose my kid again.
does that me-
shut up.
"Yes," no- shush! I said, as I took a deep breath in. Silas, who was next to me, took hold of my hand, and gave me a reassuring squeeze, as he continued to rub soothing circles over my knuckles.
"Okay, that's great. This is your second child right?" she asked, her eyes scanning the computer, as she typed something in.
"Yeah," I nodded, looking down at our interlocked hands.
"And the father is... Harley King?" she looked up at me, tilting her head to make sure she was correct.
i didn't even know if i was correct or not.
I slowly nodded, just trusting whatever results she found. I mean, after all, he was there, and he did...so I'm sure it's.. fine.
I could tell she wanted to inquire more about my current situation, but she left it alone after that, noticing my solemn mood.
"Okay, I'm going to schedule your appointment for the... 15th of September, which is about 3 weeks from now. Is that okay?" she asked looking up for a brief second.
I looked at Silas, who nodded in approval. "That's perfect."
"Alright, see you the then." Just as I was about to walk out the door...
"Oh and one more thing," she called out. I turned back to her.
"Don't worry. I know you're overwhelmed, but I'll walk you through everything and everything will be fine. I'm here, every step of the way," she gave me a kind smile, to which I reciprocated.
BLOODLUST
Upon arriving back at the penthouse, we heard noises of someone or rather, "someones".
Out of natural instinct, Silas pulled out his gun, while I hid behind him, fisting his jacket. As we got closer, to the living room, Silas was about to shoot, when we realised that it was just our.. brothers.
what do they want and what are they doing here..?
'you can run but you can't hide'
"The fuck?! Don't do that!" he groaned in a bit of relief but anger, putting his gun back in the waistband of his pants.
"Oh hey there. Didn't see you. It been a long while since- ow!" Marco was cut off by Matteo, who slapped him upside the head.
"What the fuck are you guys doing in here and why?" Silas glared impatiently, standing in front of me in a protective stance.
surely him and i knew that they won't hurt me, but-
"I'm her legal guardian Silas and she's our sister too," Alessandro says, with yet again, no emotion in his voice. Silas scoffed at that statement.
"Can't we check up on our baby sister? It's been so long," Marco muttered.
"I wonder whose fault that is?" Silas commented, sarcasm lacing his voice. I stood there, with my eyes glued to the floor, not knowing what to do.
"Look, we realise our mistake and we're sorry. Can you guys please come back now?" Matteo sighed.
"Really? You got some serious balls," Silas glared and rolled his eyes.
"Oh come on-"
"It's fine," I interjected quickly, not even thinking. "I'll come back." My brothers and Silas raised their eyebrows. More over Silas, he looked a bit angry. "And why is that? Why would you do that? After everything they did.." he said through gritted teeth.
I sighed and decided to elaborate.
"Look. I understand you guys made a mistake, but it still doesn't settle well with me. Yes, I am still angry, hurt and my emotions are all over the place.. right now. Though, a part of me still feels guilty. Why? Because you guys saved me, and that's something that can't be ignored. You guys found me and rescued me from that hellhole. You gave me stuff that I could never — and would never ask for. But more importantly, you showed me what it's like to feel love.. after a very long time. And one mistake just had to ruin everything. All relationships must have a few fights and mistakes here and there, but it hurts when they believe an outsider over their own family, whose right in front of their eyes. But at least you guys didn't say what Lorenzo said, because that's unforgivable, a grave mistake and he's going to take that to his grave one day. At least you guys, Matteo, to be precise, just let his emotions take over. And I will forgive you guys, my brothers in some time, because whatever happened, shows that you guys really did love me, but you were a little bit blind, but it's okay. Let's just start afresh, but give me some time first," I finished my lecture, as I let out a deep breath.
There was silence for a few minutes as everyone had processed what I just said.
"How much time do you need-" Leonardo was cut off.
"Are you serious? Okay, I understand what you just said, but come on!" Matteo screamed. He looked like he was losing himself.
you're making him do that to himself.
"Okay. Just stop! If you guys understand, then you would listen. I know you're hurting but so am I. And it's time. How do you think I feel? The twins, you guys were practically the best friends I've had after a long time. Leonardo, you were the best therapist, I've ever had. You understood me, without having to say anything and you never doubted me. Giovanni, you were the mother I never had. You gave me motherly comfort when I needed it or not. Alessandro, you were the father I never had. And it hurts when a father doesn't stick up or believe his own daughter. And I know it sounds like I'm being selfish, but it's the truth and I can't sugarcoat it. I just — hope you guys understand. Give me another day or two and maybe.. I'll come. I'm ready to forgive you guys, because the guilt was enough torture and my way of thinking understands your reasons. I'm tired. But, please, time?" I said, wiping my tears.
.
.
My brothers looked stunned and hurt at what I said. A few silent moments passed before Matteo suddenly broke down on the floor. His sobs breaking my heart and my pregnancy hormones taking control over me.
I walked over to him and bent down, pulling him to my chest. He buried his head in my neck and repeatedly said sorry. I shushed him and rubbed his back as I stroked his hair, giving him kisses on his head.
all will be okay.
BLOODLUST
thank you so much for 500 reads. it means something to me that you guys actually took your own precious time to read the shit that i babble about, so, thank you.
vittoria <3