next day; 8:55 am - 1:00 pm
L O C A T I O N : college lobby
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"you okay? i didn't even get to say goodbye to you before you dipped outta my car." armin tilted his head in concern and i nodded, sleepily. everyone was here talking and chilling before class. kiana was laughing at something eren had said while deja was talking to connie about the party. jasmine occasionally added things in but was on her phone for the most part. jean and mikasa were in their own world and sasha...well she was eating hot cheetos that deja threw at her when they met.
"are you sure?" he was talking about the moment that we had yesterday. i swallowed a bit, "everything is fine, blondie." i smiled. armin nodded and left the situation alone thankfully. "i wanna take you out." i was taken back at the abruptness of his words. "take me out? like on a date?"
jasmine's head perked up. "a date? ooooh kota, i see you." she walked over to us with a smirk on her face. "the car ride did you good."
"mind ya business nigga." i waved her off. "shouldn't you be saving your man before deja runs him dry of his weed." jasmine rolled her eyes, "girl please, connie got enough weed to save a neighborhood. plus we need some for the party." she winked and i got an uneasy feeling. i don't even remember the last time i smoked weed. that shit fucked me up.
jasmine turned over to armin. "armin, you still smoke?" the blue eyed boy nodded and awkwardly scratched the back of his neck. "i just haven't in a while...we'll see my skills tomorrow." my sister walked back to her boyfriend and armin and i's conversation picked back up.
"so that date?"
"so it is a date?"
"what else would it be?"
"i don't know, armin."
armin looked at me and brushed a piece of hair back from my face. "are you sure you're okay?" i grab his hand gently before placing it by his side. "i'm fineeee, stop asking so many questions." i rolled my eyes. "i'll keep you updated on that date." he nodded with a smile on his face.
"aye, dakota!" i heard jean waved me over and i sighed before walking over to them. "what's up?" i crossed my arms. mikasa was leaning over jean's crossed legs as he leaned back on the sofa. "how was your drive with armin?" mikasa asked, raising an eyebrow. right, that hoe did leave me yesterday. "how was it suppose to be? i mean you left me in the rain for your boy toy but hey, i'm still alive aren't i?" i shrugged my shoulders, talking sarcastically. jean rubbed his chin and looked behind me at armin. "it worked didn't it? y'all are at least communicating with each other.
"it was perfect too, your car not starting was actually a gift." armin walked up next to me and handed me a bag. "c'mon we got class." thank god he intervened when he did because i was getting irritated by the conversation. i grabbed my bag and walked away with armin without saying goodbye to anyone.
"after you fell asleep, i called jasmine about what happened." i looked up at him while walking. "huh? what are you talking about?" i asked confused. "about you crying." i stopped and grabbed his arm to turn him towards me. "why would you do that?" armin furrowed his eyebrows, "she's your sister, i assume she knew." i shake my head. "don't assume, armin. especially about that. don't go to my family or my friends about that, come to me. me only."
my family wasn't accepting about me and what goes on inside my brain. mental illnesses weren't talked about or thought about in the black community and i did not want to be berated again. "beside, i'm fine." i persisted, "i just got a little emotional but that doesn't change anything about us or me or you."
"dakota, you are clearly not okay." i let go of him and stepped back. was he calling me crazy? "armin stop acting like you know me. we literally just met yesterday." i snapped at him. "kota-." i cut him off by putting my hand up. "doesn't matter, i'm going home. tell professor i'm sick." i turned back around and just remembered that i don't have a ride. my car is fucked and armin drove me here. i walked back over to the group and grabbed deja's bag. "bitch, what the fuck are you doing?" she asked as i searched for her car keys. "i don't have any weed, i was just talking to connie about that."
jasmine was gonna grab my shoulder but i shrugged her off. i heard the jingle of keys and i pulled them out her bag. "dakota what the hell are you doing, weren't you just with armin?" i nodded and handed deja her stuff back. "class hasn't even started yet. kota you're freaking me out."
"i don't care." i said simply and walked down the stairs. i grabbed my phone out to dial a specific number in my phone that i hadn't in a while. i let it ring as i unlocked the car and turned it on. "kotaaaa." the person on the line drew out my name. "i'mma stop by, i feel like i'm gonna lose it." i heard shuffling on the other side. "you know my door is always open, love."
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@dakota.smith: there he gooooo;)👅
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@fayyyhayyy: this is the reason you took my car bitch 😐
@dakota.smith: could be
@jasmeen: imma kick your ass when you get back
@kiana.yeagerr: bro kota seriously? onyankopon?
@fayyyhayyy: i swear he looked familiar
@c0nn1e_urboy: ONYANKOPONNN
@blondiie: mmmm interesting
@eren_yeagerr: haven't seen pon pon inna hot min
@dakota.smith: pon pon, yeager seriously?
@jasmeen: get back home, dakota. i'll call mama on you
@dakota.smith: not you being a snitch😒
@fayyyhayyy: how tf am i supposed to get home, i'd walk home before going with yeager and kiana
@kiana.yeagerr: @fayyyhayyy WE'RE NOT THAT BAD
@fayyyhayy: @kiana.yeagerr y'all are weird and i don't trust your white man
@dakota.smith: AHHHHHHH💀
@kiana.yeager: @fayyyhayyy well that white man dicks me down betta than whatever man you sleep with on a day to day
@jasmeen: 😀
@dakota.smith: i-👋🏾
@eren_yeagerr: KIANA
@c0nn1e_urboy: @kiana.yeagerr stupid ass, doesn't your father have instagram?
@fayyyhayyy: HE DOESS👅
@dakota.smith: and that is where i leave, i want no smoke
@leviackermann: @kiana.yeagerr first, change your username. second, your grounded. third, i'm sending your mother up there.
@kiana.yeagerr: @leviackermann DAD PLEASE, NOT MAMA
@jasmeen: @fayyyhayyy you can come with us
@c0nn1e_urboy: fayyyhayyy yeah we got room
@fayyyhayyy: i'm walking
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"your new friends seem nice." onyankopon rose his eyebrow and i rolled my eyes. "no new friends." i waved his thought off and opened his fridge. onyankopon leaned against the kitchen island, tapping on the marble finish. "jasmine's calling." i groaned as he slid my phone towards me.
"not gonna answer it?" i shook my head and turned on do not disturb. "she might be older but she's not gonna dictate my life and who i get to spend it with." onyankopon gave me a look of confusion. "how is she doing that?" i grabbed a water from the fridge, "my parents are having a dinner to celebrate their anniversary and they say i need a plus one."
"jasmine being the controlling big sister she is, set me up with her boyfriend's friend and i accidentally revealed some stuff to said friend causing me to spiral." i explained quickly, "and i was such a bitch to him because i knew i would become soft like i did last time and now i'm...fucked." i put my face in my hands and groaned. onyankopon sat there, listening to everything like he was my therapist and didn't interrupt me once. "what am i gonna do? he probably thinks i'm crazy and i probably am to all my friends at this point!"
i felt his hands rub my back in a comforting manner as i tried not to cry. "do you like said friend?" he asked and i looked to the side to think. armin was nice but the question was if i could trust him. i've been surrounded by people who live life who are happy all the time but it was exhausting. how can you people happy like that all the time? not to mention passed relationship that totally left me broken in different ways. everyone putting their own two cents in whenever they got a chance, never minding their business.
"i just can't right now," i started. "i haven't spiraled like this in a long time." my head was extremely cloudy and i felt so weighted down. onyankopon nodded and gave me some space. "well, you don't want to give said friend the wrong thought by being at my house. after, the kid might actually like you." i laughed a little before grabbing my phone. 7 miss calls from jasmine, 10 miss calls from deja and 5 messages from armin.
"armin is his name?"
i nodded as i go to his contact.
arminnn<3
arminnn<3
dakota, i'm sorry
arminnn<3
i tried going over to your apartment but you weren't there.
arminnn<3
ah, you went over someone else house
arminnn<3
we don't have to do this 2 weeks things if you don't wanna
arminnn<3
i hope we can still be friends...
me
sorry, i was having a bad day. i didn't mean to yell at you
me
we can still do this 2 weeks thing
arminnn<3
...
arminnn<3
you sure? i'm sure onyankopon or whatever his name is wouldn't like it
me
me and him aren't dating. he's simply my friend, we've been through a lot together
arminnn<3
okay...i won't talk to jasmine or anyone anymore about what goes between us
me
thank you armin, let's keep us private. i'm heading home but i'll call you later
arminnn<3
get home safe, oh and kiana is probably gonna be in a shitty mood because her mother came over
me
AHHHAHAH stupid ass👋🏾😭 did eren get his ass beat?
arminnn<3
didn't stay that long for that. i was afraid for my life as well🧍
me
is she still there?
arminnn<3
nah, jasmine told me she left after an hour or so
me
damnnnnn, i'm glad i avoided that