A/N: I'll tell you when to play the song!
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Harry and I found the perfect house for us in Hollywood Hills, it was recently built and it included furniture and decoration, of course there were a few things we wanted to change, but we both loved it.
Each of us paid for half of the house and we agreed that if something ever happened between us and we broke up, we'd sell the house and split the money, none of us was allowed to keep the house if we weren't together, we even signed a contract. Since we weren't married or had kids together, it felt like a good agreement.
Moving two weeks before starting my first tour was a stupid idea, we were so excited that I didn't even consider how exhausting it would be. Thank god the new house was really equipped and we just moved in with our clothes.
We used the office space to build a music room, it would take a few weeks to be done, but the wait was going to be worth it once we had a room filled with our awards and albums hanging on the walls.
The artists that were joining me for tour were, of course One Direction, Little Mix, 5 Seconds of Summer, The Vamps, Ed Sheeran, Justin Bieber and Demi Lovato. I spent one week rehearsing with all of them separately, people knew there were going to be surprise artists, but no one expected a full show with other singers.
"Are you nervous?" Harry asked as we drove to the venue for a final rehearsal the day before the first show.
"A little," I confessed, "I just want everything to be perfect,"
"Everything will be perfect, baby, you've been working on this for months," he smiled with his eyes on the road ahead of us, "You're killing it,"
"Tomorrow night, I will be onstage performing with my favorite artists," I smiled, "I would've never even dreamed about it,"
"That's a reflection of your hard work and talent, that's how far you've come," he reached for my hand and squeezed it, "I'm really glad I've gotten to see you become a star,"
"You've made this adventure very special babe," I kissed his knuckle, "I can't wait to go on that stage and sing with you,"
When we got to the arena, it all hit me, seeing my name on the dressing room door and my pictures around the place... it was finally happening, I was about to start a world tour, people from everywhere in the world were paying to see me onstage.
"Everything is ready," Joe walked in with a proud smile, cameras were with him to get everything, "We will run the entire show with no interruptions so we can make sure everything works how it is supposed to,"
"Performing in sweat pants will be fun," I laughed as we walked through the crowded halls, all my dancers were ready for the final rehearsal.
"Enjoy it, have fun and just let your magic happen," he patted my back.
"Where's Harry?" I looked around and he was nowhere to be seen, "Oh the elevator..."
"He'll appear before the chorus," I waited for the intro video to finish and I finally took the stage.
Harry appeared next to me for the chorus and we kept singing together, performing falling for you with him was magical, then lover with all the dancers and animations on the screen... we closed with I love you, even though we sold that song, it was still ours and I was excited for people to listen to us singing it.
I was performing 3 songs with each artist, one or two of mine and one of theirs. I performed out of the old alone and little mix joined me to perform change your life as their song, and for my songs we picked touch and teenage dream, I loved how I connected with them.
The next part was the one that involved more movement onstage, the vamps appeared on the end of the catwalk and we sang Want you back as my song, and then Demi Lovato appeared to sing Somebody to you with us. Demi and I sang along to wondering and made in the USA, I loved her, we had never met before, but she was amazing, we became really good friends during the week we rehearsed together.
I sang daylight alone with my dancers around, Ed joined me and we sang: amnesia, always remember us this way and thinking out loud, none of our collaborations together were released yet so we couldn't perform any of them. Justin took the stage and we started with before you go, come back... be here and closed with never say never.
5 Seconds of Summer was next, we harmonized to the way I loved you, Ruin my Life and Don't stop which was one of my favorite songs ever.
When One Direction appeared next to me, I couldn't keep the tears in, I was very emotional because even though we had been friends for a year, we had never really performed together, of course they got 4 songs, my fan girl self forced Tina, Joe and Mark to give me more time with them onstage.
Singing 18 with them was magical, and I stopped crying until the bridge, I looked like a loser, but I was emotional and I deserved to cry, we sang best song ever, Mr. Brightside and where do broken hearts go.
When the last song came, all the guest artists came onstage and we closed with a very big performance of Legends, it was breathtaking, so many stars... pyro, dancers, it was everything I expected it to be.
"Slushy, that was insane," Niall hugged me as we walked offstage.
"I can't wait for tomorrow," I confessed, "I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight,"
"Well, take a sleeping pill or something, 'cause tomorrow is going to be a long day," Tina said from behind, "You need to be well rested,"
"I'll make sure she sleeps," Harry laughed, "Even if I have to tie her,"
Harry and I came home around 10:00 pm, and the moment we stepped in the house I started crying, for no reason, I just couldn't stop crying. I was a mix of adrenaline, nerves, excitement, joy... it was too much to handle.
"How about I make you a tea and you take the pill Tina suggested," Harry rubbed my back softly, "It will help you relax,"
"People are going to watch the concert on TV," I covered my mouth in realization, "It's not just going to be the 20,000 people in the stadium,"
"And they are going to love it," he kissed my cheek, "I heard everyone backstage talking about how great rehearsal went,"
"Let's make that tea before my brain collapses," I laughed, my mind was working really fast with good and bad possible scenarios and I needed to make it stop, it was killing me.
"You're cute when you act like a chihuahua," he mocked me as he filled the kettle with water, "I didn't get a huge first show like you, but my best advice is to use your nerves as a push to deliver the best show you can,"
"I'm never this nervous, I don't know what's wrong with me," I confessed, "Everyone is going to be there, my family, my friends, fans and even people from other places will watch it live,"
"My mom invited her friends over to watch the concert on TV," he smiled proudly.
"Not helping," I laughed nervously, my heart was racing and it was even hard to catch my breath, "There's so much that can go wrong... what if there's a wardrobe problem and I end up naked, I can go out of tune... or cry onstage, what if I paralyze when I'm ons-" he interrupted me with a kiss.
"Can you tell me 5 of your favorite smells?" He asked softly keeping me close to him.
"Why?" He smiled and just nodded for me to speak, he was acting weird, "Vanilla, peach, the beach, your cologne and cookies,"
"What's your favorite ice cream flavor?" He grabbed my hips and sat me on top of the counter.
"Cookie Dough and Nutella," I was confused, was he trying to get me a gift? I thought paid attention to detail, he knew those things.
"What colors can you see on a sunset?" He asked as he made my tea.
"Why are-"
"Just answer, please," he was so calm...
"Pink, purple, orange... yellow? Sometimes red," he handed me the mug with a shy smile.
"Feeling better?" He pecked my lips, "Whenever you feel nerves taking over, find a distraction... try to think about things that involve senses, that's what helped me on our first tour, I wasn't used to singing in front of big crowds,"
"You are the best boyfriend ever," I grabbed his hand and pulled him upstairs with me.
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"Everyone's going to think you're a diva," Harry laughed closing the door to my dressing room, Michelle was doing my hair.
"People make me nervous," I confessed taking a sip of my throat coat tea, "I'll hug everyone and socialize when the show's over,"
"Your mom isn't happy that she didn't get to see you before the show," he plopped on the couch looking at me through the mirror, "You look beautiful, babe,"
"30 minutes," Joe walked in agitated, "Michelle, hurry up,"
"I just need 5 minutes," she rolled her eyes.
"Everyone is waiting for Alex in the green room for the ritual," Joe handed me the in-ear and helped me put it under my clothes.
"What ritual?" Harry asked curious, "Did you get a witch?" He laughed.
"Someone showed me a really cool ritual once, and I decided to implement it on my tour," I smirked, "You'll have to wait and see,"
"Done," Michelle took a step back to admire her job.
"I need a few minutes, can I have some alone time with my boyfriend?" I asked Joe and Michelle, Joe shook his head, "One minute," I begged.
"One," he warned me and walked out with Michelle.
"Kissing session?" Harry asked smirking.
"No, just breathing session," I could feel how my heart was going to beat out of my chest, he walked over to me and grabbed both of my hands tightly.
"Everyone's here to support you, babe, you've came this far, you rehearsed and everything is perfect, now is time to enjoy it and be proud of who you are," he spoke softly, "Go show everyone that amazing light of yours,"
"Can you stand on the side of the stage after we sing together?" He nodded, "I need someone there to assure me everything's going great,"
"I'll kiss you between wardrobe changes," he smiled and pecked my lips, "You're a star, this is your time to shine and prove your talent,"
"Minute's over," Joe opened the door, I interlocked my fingers with Harry and walked to the green room where all the dancers and artist I invited were waiting for me.
**********PLAY SONG NOW**********
I made everyone stand in a circle and hold hands with the people on their sides, I had Harry on my right side and Joe on the left, "This is it, the moment we've all been waiting and rehearsing for, is here... let's make sure everyone in the crowd has a good time, let's have fun and inspire people," I spoke to everyone.
"We're gonna kill it," Niall cheered.
"For all of us to be in the same energy, I need everyone to sing and dance to the next song," I nodded at Tina and she played started blasting Mr. Brightside, just like that time in London when the boys were shooting the midnight memories music video.
I didn't really sing in fear of straining my vocal cords, but dancing along with everyone helped me shake it off, I was way more relaxed and excited than nervous. There was nothing else I could do but sing and have fun.
"Someone stole our ritual," Liam wrapped his arm around my shoulder.
"I might have been inspired by it," I smiled, "I may have to change the song for each show so we don't get used to it,"
"It's time, Harry I need you under the stage, now," Dean came running to us.
"We'll be on the side of the stage," Niall patted my back as I walked away with Dean and Harry.
"Good luck baby, I'll meet you out there," Harry pecked my lips and ran away leaving me with my team.
Will handed me my mic and the countdown started in my in-ear, musicians were ready and the animation on the screen was playing, "Good luck," Mark hugged me.
"Let's make this place loud," Joe high fived me and it was finally my time to go onstage, I took a deep breath and walked in.
I almost shit my pants when I saw the crowd screaming for me, the place was filled with people excited to see me there, the amount of adrenaline in my system made me extremely aware of my body, I could feel my heart beating and every inch of my skin had goosebumps.
The place became even louder when Harry appeared onstage, it was amazing, everything was perfect... I can't describe what being out there felt, every single tear, worry and fear I had been through was completely worth it, I made it!
"Thank you so much for joining us on our first show ever, I'm really excited to tell you that we'll be having a lot of guest stars performing tonight, so get ready because this is going to be wild! I wrote this next song for my boyfriend who's here with me tonight," I looked at Harry to keep going with the script we had.
"After being her boyfriend... we broke up, so don't hate me when the break up songs are performed," he laughed, "Anyways... we performed this version of the next song the day we came back together, and we want to sing it to you,"
"This is lover," I cheered as the music started.
It was honestly one of the greatest experiences of my life, seeing my family and friends singing and dancing in the front row was also really comforting, since I moved to LA, my friends became my family and for the first time, I built strong and deep relationships.
Fooling around the stage with the boys was the peak of my night, I got to be a part of them... singing their songs was also amazing and even though we didn't sing any of my albums songs, all of them meant something to us.
"Thank you so much for coming, I love all of you so much and thank you for being a part of the most important night of my life, this is just the beginning," I waved onstage for the last time to the beat of legends and all the lights went out as soon as I walked off stage.
"I'm so proud of you princess," dad received me with a hug on the legs of the stage.
"My little girl is a star now," mom joined our hug.
"Thank you for coming, it meant a lot to have the both of you here," it was the first time they were together since the divorce, they weren't even together at my graduation night because dad had to work in London.
"We'd never miss it," Mom squeezed me, "David, Sam and Ben are in your dressing room with Harry,"
Harry planned an after party at our new house with my friends and my family, he even got buses to drive everyone from the stadium to our place. Getting a house was a smart choice because we were able to have everyone around without feeling suffocated.
Everyone was there, my team, the dancers, the other singers that joined me that night... it was perfect and he went out of his way to make in an unforgettable night.
The next stop for tour was San Francisco on February 1st, I didn't even consider it was Harry's birthday, but he came with me to the show so we could spend the day together. I made everyone in the crowd sing happy birthday to him, it was also our last night together in a while, he was going on tour too.
"Time difference will make this a mess," I held on to him as we drove to the airport.
"17 hours for the next week," he pecked my lips, "We'll make it work,"
"I'm sure we will, but I'm going to miss you," Alan stopped the car at the drop off area of the airport, "2 months feel like a lot,"
"You'll be touring this time, it will be different," he unbuckled his seatbelt and turned to me, "Time will fly and next thing you know I'm joining you on tour for a month,"
"April feels so far away," I pouted.
"I love you," he kissed me.
"I adore you," I whispered without letting go of him.
"I adore you even more, but I have to go, baby," he kissed the top of my head and opened the door to get out of the car.
Their show was starting in Australia a few days later, I hated the timing of their tour because he wouldn't be able to come with me to the grammy awards. I decided to take Will as my plus one, Maddie wanted to come but Mark said it wasn't a great idea.
After the third show of tour in San Diego, we all went back to Los Angeles for the Grammy Awards, I was wearing a blue sparkly Calvin Klein long dress, it had an open back that I was in love with, I really liked the way I looked, Anna and Michelle did an amazing job with styling.
The night went like a dream to me, my brain was disconnected from my body and everything was just fuzzy, "Here are the nominees for best new artist," Taylor Swift went onstage to present the first award of the night, which I was nominated for.
"You've got this Lex," Will interlocked his fingers with mine as we watched the nominees on the screen, it felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest.
"And the grammy goes to Alex Hudson," everyone cheered and I just hugged Will in shock, the night was just getting started and I got an award, I got a freaking Grammy.
"Hi," I laughed nervously, "I'm so excited, I had a speech prepared in case I won but I can't even remember it,"
"Speak from your heart," Taylor told me with a smile.
"I just want to thank everyone that's supported me through this, a year ago I only had one song out, and now... I'm here, this has been an incredible journey surrounded by amazing people and I owe this to all of you, thank you so so much, this is just the beginning."
I ended up winning 3 more awards that night, Album of the year, Song of the year and Best Pop Solo Performance, I was so happy and so proud of myself... Every single time I felt like I had reached he peak of my existence, something greater happened and I just couldn't stop being surprised by the whole life I was getting to live.
As soon as I got in the car, I face timed Harry who was celebrating with the boys, since I won album of the year, they got a certificate too... they wrote a song for the album which meant they were also grammy winners that night.
We all got one of the biggest achievements in the music industry together and I couldn't be happier with my life... and it was just the beginning of an amazing adventure.
TO BE CONTINUED.
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Thank you so much if you made it this far, I will forever be grateful to you.
Stay tuned! ILYSM - Mia