M I N A
Seoul Grand Park was fun yesterday. We were supposed to go out and take Junsu to the Hongdae area, but he woke up with a cold this morning. It was also snowing last night and I usually like to stay inside when it snows anyways.
Junsu woke up crying because he couldn't breathe through his nose. I had an idea and let Junsu sit in the steamy bathroom while Jungkook took a shower. The warm steam helped clear his nose.
He was grumpy probably since he was uncomfortable, but he eventually fell asleep again before the afternoon. We let him nap longer because he needed the rest.
I took this opportunity to clean the house a bit and get a head start on some of my weekly chores. Jungkook went back to his place for a while to study. He said he had some homework to do that was due after his break.
This was the quietest my place has been for a while. It felt strange. For the first time in a while, I felt like I was alone. It was almost like how things were before all of this happened.
I was trying to keep myself busy and pass the time after I ran out of chores to do. It's funny. Before I barely had time to do stuff for myself and now that I have the time, I don't know what to do.
I was about to put on a movie or something until I heard the front door unlock and open.
"Mina?" It sounded like Jungkook.
He peers around the corner and finds me in the living room.
"Is it okay if I just finish my homework here? The silence is killing me at my place." He says.
"Of course." I nod, "You're always welcome here."
He sat next to me on the couch while he did his work. Every now and then he would stop and sigh, probably stuck on something or thinking really hard.
Junsu starts crying in the other room and Jungkook was about to get up to help him, but I stopped him.
"I got it. Keep working." I tell him.
He smiles and nods before getting back to work.
Junsu looked like he was feeling a bit better so I tried to get him to eat and drink some water. He didn't want to have anything a while ago and I didn't want to force him. He was willing to have a few bites and drink some water, but I could tell he was still drowsy. He didn't let go of his stuffed elephant, not even to eat. I let him go back to sleep not much later.
Jungkook sat on the couch with his hands on his face. He's been working on his school stuff for hours now. I put a hand on his shoulder and he turns to look at me.
"You've been working for hours. You should take a break, even just for a few minutes." I say.
He sighs, "I know, you're right. I just really wanna get his done."
He puts his work down for a second to stand up and stretch.
"Is Junsu doing alright now?" He asks.
"He's doing better," I say, "He can breathe through his nose fine now at least."
"He'll probably still be sick tomorrow, huh..." He trails off.
"Most likely."
I knew Jungkook wanted to do some more things with Junsu, but we obviously can't now.
"Hm..." He sighs, "Oh, wait. I have an idea. How 'bout we decorate for Christmas tomorrow then."
"Christmas decorating?"
"Yeah. Christmas is in less than a month. I usually don't decorate my place that much, but I feel like Junsu should get the full experience for his first Christmas."
I scratch my neck, "I don't really have any decorations in store..."
"It's alright." He insists, "I have a few and I can go buy some as long as you can watch Junsu while I'm gone. How does that sound?"
"Sounds like a plan." I say, "I like it."
He sits back down beside me and sighs. It looked like he was conflicted about something. He had that look on his face.
"Mina, can I ask you something?" He turns to face me.
"Yeah, of course."
He smiles faintly before taking a quick breath.
"It's just...I've been thinking lately," He says, "I feel like we could use some changes to make things easier on the both of us, but it's sort of a big change."
My mind was all over the place. What was he referring to? I kept listening.
"What do you think about...living together?"
I guess the look on my face gave him an answer before I could even speak.
"I-I mean, I know we already live right next door to each other, but I just feel like I don't stay at my place as much anymore. It's just an idea...you don't have to answer right now if you don't want to." He spoke quickly.
"Jungkook," I say, "Are you saying you think we should live together? Here?"
"It was just a thought..."
"Well, I think you're right."
He looks back to me, surprised.
"It would be easier on both of us and on Junsu. I'm willing to look into it if you're being serious." I say.
He nods vigorously, "Yes, I'm being serious. And I can help you pay for this place if I don't have to pay for mine anymore. You really don't mind?"
"Not at all." I smile, "I like having you around anyways."
These apartments aren't too big so we're going to have to figure out how to use the space for all of our stuff. We talked about it all night. Jungkook said he was willing to get rid of the stuff he didn't need. I asked if his parents would be okay with it, but he said he wasn't going to tell them yet.
"So what can I tell them?" He asks.
"What do you mean?"
"If I call my parents and tell them I'm moving in with you, they'll think we're in a relationship."
I look at him, confused, "Is that not what this is?"
His expression quickly changes, "So... we're what? Dating..?"
I shrug, "I guess you could say that, although, we haven't really been on a proper date yet."
"If we're dating, I promise I'll take you on a real date soon." He says, "But I think spending time together like this was enough to reveal our feelings for each other, no?"
"You tell me. Do you know how I feel about you?"
"I don't know. You can be pretty confusing sometimes."
I knew he was playing dumb, but I went with it anyways.
"I love you, Jungkook."
He smiles, "I know. I just wanted to hear you say it again."
I playfully punch his shoulder.
"Alright, alright. I...love you too." He says.
It seemed like saying that was still strange to him.
But it's okay.
He didn't have to say it for me to know.