Chaeyoung POV
"So, Chaeyoung. What do you feel, like to share with me?" Dr. Jihyo asked.
I sighed.
"I saw my girlfriend cheated on me." I start.
I heard she scripted her note.
"Do you want to tell me everything about this?" She continued.
"That day, I was saw her making out with that chick. When I found out she was making out with that chick, everything feels like a deja vu to me. All the flashback hit on me. I was furious and straight away left her." I said and gulped.
"Then, I pecked all my stuff and ready to leave my girlfriend. I feel so betrayed and hopeless." I continue.
I held my hands together and tried to breath in and out a few times. I tried to calm myself.
"When she back home, I started fight with her. This is first time I fight with her. She keep telling me that she has no idea what was going on. I hit her and yelled at her. But, she only hug me and telling me that she don't know what was going on." I felt my tears rolled out from the corner of my eyes.
"How could she not admit it? How could she pretend she didn't know anything? She owed me an explanation and why she asked me what's going on. I have seen everything but why she could pretend like nothing happened?" I said cried.
I ended my story to her and I only heard she busy scripting down all her notes.
"Have you dreamed after you left your girlfriend?" She asked.
I sniffed and nodded my head.
"Yes, I did." I replied.
She smiled to reassure me.
"Could you tell me about your dream?" She asked.
"The dreamed was a messed. I have dreamt about my girlfriend making out with that chick. She was saying that I'm just a fling, I'm was a boring person and will be leaving me. When I confronted her, her face turned to my ex sex buddy's face. Her affair turned to my ex best friend's face. They told me that my girlfriend was not real and doesn't exist. She told me that true love didn't exist. Everything was dream. So, I punched her goddamn face." I said.
My body started shaking as Jihyo patted my hands.
"Do you need to take a break?" She asked.
I shook my head.
"And then, after I punched her face, she turned to be my girlfriend back. I was regret and she looked at me with disappointed. I never see her expression like that when she looked at me. That's first time she looked at me like that. She said she was disappointed at me then she left me." I used my both of my hands to cover my face continue to cry.
"I really love her. Half of me tell me that she didn't cheated. But, half of me tell me that she is. But, I saw it with my eyes." I said.
"I really love her." I said repeated a few times.
Jihyo patted my back.
"Chaeyoung, you did it well. Now, listen to me. You have to let go everything now. Then, take a few deep breath." She said.
I did as she said.
"Breath in." I breathed in.
"Breath out." I breath out.
I followed her instruction a few times then feel better. I felt release and stared at the ceiling to relax myself. After a while, we back to her working table and I sat across her.
"Look Chaeyoung. Based in your story and dreamed you have been told me, it was because the things has happened similar to your past. However, you are afraid to know the answer. I suggest that you need to at least listen to your girlfriend side to know better. As a couple, communication is the key." She said look at me.
"You are good in handle your emotion compare to last time." She added.
I smiled weakly.
"I will give you some medic to take for a month. Those are for you good at sleep." She mumbled.
"Thank you." I said.
"Besides, I suggest you could go to the place you like or quiet like beach, hills to peace your mind. Or you could do some exercise to release your tense." She suggest.
I nodded my head.
"Thank you for your advice, Dr. Jihyo." I said.
"Anytime, Chaeyoung. If anything is good you don't have to come and see me. Have a great day." She said smiled.
I rolled my eyes then bid her a good bye and left her office. After seeing Dr. Jihyo I feel great a little bit. While I was outside the building I took a deep breath and enjoy the sunshine on the street. I took of my hoodie and tightened around my waist started to walk around. Its been a long I don't get out from my house. I decided to go to the coffee shop to drink some ice blended mocha to pamper myself. Once I arrived at the coffee shop, I order my drink and find a place for to settle down. I choose a place that a bit privacy to sit. I smiled when I saw the seat area where I and Mina always sit and took the seat which she usually sit. I smiled and I didn't even notice my tears already rolling down on my cheek as I remember our moment.
Flashback
"One hot double shot americano and a-." Mina turned to me with smiled.
"Chaengie, what do you want?" She asked.
I grinned and walked pass her go toward the cashier.
"One large Ice blended chocolate with a slice of strawberry cheese cake." I said to the cashier.
When the cashier pressed the order she repeated the order.
"Cancelled the hot coffee." I said.
Before Mina could say anything I quickly stopped her with my pleaded eyes. She just rolled her eyes and sighed. She paid to the cashier then both of us stood aside waiting for our order to be prepare.
"Why did you cancel my coffee?" She glared at me playfully with her arms crossed.
"Well, I want you to try something new. Dark coffee is a ewww." I said.
She laughed.
"What's wrong with dark coffee? Its pretty great. The more bitter the more I love the taste it. That's why I'm in love with the coffee here." She said.
While we were searching our seat, I finally spot a perfect spot for us and pulled Mina with me. Once we place the drinks at our table we sat across each other. I pushed the ice blended towards her and grinned.
"Try this." I said.
"Why do you like kids drinks?" She said chuckled.
"Why do you like granny drinks?" I mocked her.
She gasped with her eyes widen made me laughed. She shook her head the took the drinks and cringed.
"Ughh, this is too sweet for me." She pushed the drinks back to me and I laughed.
"Ya, grandma take some cakes then." I said.
She chuckled and took a bite of cake.
"Mmm, this is good." She moaned.
I grinned as she pulled off one of my earphone and put into her ears. She smiled. Both of us only staring each other and continue listen to the music. Mina will took a few sip of the ice blended mocha and feed me the cake. We enjoyed the moment together like nothing will going to destroy our moment.
End of flashback
My thought was disturbed by my phone rings. I was shocked seeing Mina was calling me. I was debating whether I should pick up or not. As I in my hesitation the rings stop. To my surprise this was the third time Mina called me. Then, I saw her message and I froze when I read her message. I quickly took my handbag and rush to my car head to hospital as soon as possible. What's happening? Finally, I reached the hospital and the only person I saw was the one I'm deeply in love. I saw her face was depressed. She leaning against the wall and staring up the ceiling. When I reached her, I couldn't control myself. I went to hug her tightly and break down then she embraced me calm me down.
"Everything will be okay, Chaengie." She said softly.