- song at the top!!
- and this is me ranting btw((:
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dear v. h.
kinda sucks knowing you're the only boy I will never get to have a chance with. you're well-known, have girls on their knees for you, you like moms and older girls haha, you have many friends and you don't even know who I am.
The thought of dating you is nice and all but if we could just be friends that would be amazing too. You're very cocky and quirky but hey, it's cute to me. My hope is to create a good bond with you one day. I know it won't happen but its not gonna stop me from trying.
You don't realize how much I pray and hope for your dreams to come true. For your clothing line to get even bigger than it is now. Your family receiving many blessings as you guys go along with life. Opportunities falling in front of you that would take you far. Date the girl of your dreams. Have as many kids as you want. Everything.
Don't get me wrong, you put me through a lot of shit. Which is really weird knowing you don't even have a clue on who or what I am. But you're unlike the rest. You're kinda like my comfort character. The boy who's in my imagination, helping me go through all the BS in my life.
The amount of times I have cried over you is low-key disappointing to me. I'm crying over a fucking boy and there's no stopping it.
I know i won't likely be in you're future which is okay, but I'm just trying to say thank you. Even though you just stand there and make videos, you have helped me more than you think.
99% of me knows I don't have a chance with you. The 1% is what keeps me going.
Anyways, enough of my emotional bull crap. I hope to meet you one day vinnie and become great friends with you. As I write this while I cry...
I love you Vincent Cole Hacker.
i love you.
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I kept that little note in my secret box for years.
Watching him fall in love with these beautiful girls, then seeing him fall into a depression state because he just broke up with them.
It would always end with him getting into another friendship or relationship with yet another perfect girl. Who has wonderful teeth, curvy body, silky hair and a healthy diet.
But he still doesn't see me. After all these years. After all those nights I've cried because of him. All the days i would mope around my house, knowing there wasn't gonna be a day where we fall in love with each other.
Screams of pain coming from my mouth at all the anger and disappointment i have in myself.
All these things, yet I'm still invisible in his eyes.
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