Behind the smile

By Senseigotthesauce

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My pen is my release It's an orgasm to my soul -A collection of poetry and articles about my personal exper... More

Prelude
Dedication
Poetry- First phase: My Dear Melancholy
Nobody understands
Whispers
Conversation
Terrific journey
Dark was the only light
Behind these walls
3 AM
Devil and Angel
Demons inside me
Echoes of silence
Terror
Useless emotion
Numb
Melancholy
Daily battle
The haunting
Lonely
Why?
Fake friends
Faith
Alone again
Heartless
Wasted times
The town
I wasn't there
Masquerade
In the night
Escape to the morning
Wonderland
Insomnia
Universe of my thoughts
Second phase: 13
The day we met
Broken place
If you let me in
Back in time
Is it too late?
Can't let you go
Last dance
Wish you were here
Moonlight
After hours
Tears in the rain
Paper and pen
Sad melodic hours
Would you listen?
Saya
Sensei
Missing puzzle piece
X
Third phase: Trauma
Red & Blue
Mistakes
Secrets
Filthy liar
Mixed Emotions
The foreigner
Time travel
Living in the past
The child in me
Fourth phase- The world we live in
You are a man
"It's your fault"
Ugly
Pointing hands
They
What if
Fifth phase- Recall
Darkroom
The End
Articles- First phase: Mental health
Depression
Mood swings
Bipolar disorder
Anxiety
Autism
Schizophrenia
Phobia
Anger issue
Body image
Eating disorder
PTSD
Personality disorder
ADHD
Insomnia
Second phase: Social and personal issues
Childhood trauma
The house
Body shaming
Bias
Judging
Bullying
Social Media
Modern-day Romeo and Juliet
Women in our society
Toxic Masculinity
The mask we wear
Loneliness
Fake friends
Haunting past
Melancholic songs
Mistakes
Trust
You made it!!

It's all my fault

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By Senseigotthesauce


Here I am, standing in the middle of nowhere

Living in this terror hoping it's a nightmare

I'm staring at the sky

Asking myself why did I lie

Broke the love, broke the fragile

Here I am, paying the price and fighting this battle

The trauma of the past made me lose

But nobody knows, no one has a clue

Kept it for myself so I don't lose you

Now you're gone but still don't know the truth

But I can't blame you that you chose to leave

Nobody could be madder at me than me

I know you'll never trust me

I've brought this to myself

But if only I could turn back time

I would fix everything and make you mine

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