after buying what we needed, we went back to the apartment and watched 3 episodes of 'good girls'.
ironic fact, me and sofie used to love and always wanted to meet someone from the mafia, I know it's stupid and dumb but we were teenagers plus wattpad made it all seem so magical and hot.
we read hundreds of mafia stories on there and did some research too, but now that ace wants me it sucks because I am helpless and I don't know what to expect.
the worst I've see so far is when he beat up noah and threatened to take sofie's medical license.
I am not saying that's not bad but till now I've not seen the real side of his capo self, as much as I am grateful it just scares me knowing things could get worse.
which brings me to my decision right now.
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it's 6:30 pm meaning we have to start cooking, I will make some salad, chicken pasta, Italian tuna, and banana pudding.
Sofie will probably make cookies and a drink, whenever we invite someone over I don't know what gets to me, it's like no matter how much food we make or order it doesn't feel enough.
I walk in our kitchen and take out 4 bananas for the banana pudding. I will start with it first because it needs to stay in the fridge for as long as it can.
" what are you going to make?" sofie asks trying to take a peek.
" I am making some banana pudding, I will help with the cookies when I'm done , and then I will make some chicken pasta and the Italian tuna".
" I want him gone the moment he comes in so I can enjoy the leftovers without any stress" she says putting a slice of banana in her mouth.
I shake my head and continue cutting the rest of the bananas.
I place all the slices in a plate and turn to her.
"are you nervous?"
she sits on the counter and sighs " to be honest I am, and what makes it harder is that I don't know what reaction I want from him. You know me es, I don't know if I will be a good mom or not, and I don't want this innocent soul to suffer if I fuck up."
placing my hands on hers I say "you will know what you want when you see him, and yes I know you're scared but I also know that I will be here for you.".
she smiles and hugs me.
I guess it's time to tell her about my decision.
"I have to tell you something." I say.
she pulls away still smiling and nods for me to continue.
"I know we planned on leaving new york after 2 years, but if Mr. black wants to be in the baby's life then I'd be sure you are safe and will move to Italy because I don't want things to get worse between me and ace, and if Mr. black doesn't want to then we can both move like we planned to if you want."
I've thought about this, it's the only way I can get rid of him.
I know he's italian and italy isn't the best option but it's big enough for him to not find me.
" es you can't leave yet, even if Austin decides to be in the baby's life, you have to stay! don't let that controlling freak stand between you and your dreams." she half yells.
" It doesn't matter, I can work on my other dreams plus enough about me now tell me how are you going to tell him about the baby?" I say trying to change the subject because I'm not changing my mind.
she looks at me shocked and out of words, I don't blame her... I was the one who insisted on coming to new york first, it was my dream.
it still is but now I just want to be away from his toxic self.
first I have to make sure sofie is fine, which will be clear tonight. Noah is fine as long as he is away from me and knows nothing as well as josh, ace doesn't know lexi and leo so they are fine too.
lexi and leo are our neighbors, they got engaged 2 months ago, thankfully they left for a family emergency a month ago.
I called them twice but stopped when ace showed up in my life because I don't want to involve more people.
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after cooking I took a shower and wore an oversized green hoodie with it's matching green basketball shorts.
I know it's not the best for a dinner with my actual boss, but I don't know what to wear and I will go for a late night drive after the dinner to clear my mind and think about everything.
I put three plates, three cups and.. basically three of everything that we would need for dinner.
a knock on the door has me running to get it because sofie is still getting ready.
I open the door expecting Mr.black to be on the other side of it but it isn't, it's ace.
what the hell is he doing here?
" hello angelo" he smiles pulling me closer to him.
I try to push him away but it's useless like every other time.
he claims my lips but instead of fighting I stand still and let him kiss me.
he pulls away with a smile and looks at me up and down.
I don't know why he's here but I don't want him to make a scene.
he enters the apartment as if he owns the place when in fact he wasn't even invited.
I finished some work that needed to be done in the company and checked on the drugs shipments All while thinking of mio angelo.
I am mad that she hang up on me and didn't tell me about the dinner and that she would be there too, but I will let it slide this time.
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It's 7:00pm right now and all I've done so far is think of ways to make her fall in love with me.
I am still not sure why I want her to.
I know that I want her to submit to me, think of only me, love me, and stop fighting me.
a text notification pops on my phone pulling me out of my distraction. Austin (a.b is Austin, a.k is ace)
A.b: I have to tell you something, I know you won't understand but I just have to tell someone.
A.k: what's up?
A.b: I decided to confess to sofie this evening, I have to tell her that I like her. she might not like me but I have to tell her to either have her or move on.
I would tell him she was crying over him but I know nothing about women and their feelings, I don't want to give him false hope.
A.k: and why wouldn't I understand?
A.b: you are not the best with feelings man.
A.k: what do you mean?
A.b: look at you and nessa, the girl doesn't even know you like her, all she knows is that you want her.
A.k: that's because I don't like her.
I lied.
no I didn't.. I don't like her.
do I?
A.b: ace we've known each other for a very long time, I would know if you like someone and you like her. you can lie to yourself about it and deny it, but the truth will always be there.
A.b: back to the point of this conversation, I need a favor.
A.k: what
A.b: I want to be alone with Sofie when I tell her, and since you are going to force yourself in the dinner anyway how about you take nessa out later somewhere nice and try to fix what you did? it would give me and sofie some time alone and you and her as well.
that's a good idea, I can take her for ice cream or just drive around, she did say she liked these simple things.
A.k: okay.
I put my phone in my pocket, gather my stuff and make my way to the elevator.
the "I lied" that immediately popped in my head is disturbing me. do I like her?
fucking hell.
what if I love her?
no.
Im fucking pissed.
I hate not knowing my shit and this is as confused as I can get.
wanting to calm down, I grab my phone and scroll through the file of her pictures.
I start the car and drive to her place still thinking about how I should act to gain her trust and love.
after a 20 minutes drive that I had no idea was that long till I looked at the time because I was too caught up in my thoughts, I finally park my car next to her apartment.
I make my way to her door and knock.
I wait for a few seconds before footsteps approach the door and to my luck she opens it.
" hello angelo" I greet.
she is wearing a green sweatshirt and green shorts.
she likes green. noted.
a little childish voice in my head reminds me that my eyes are green.
it warms my heart but I push it aside and focus on her.
she looks at me with wide eyes probably shocked I'm here, good.
I pull her to me wanting to feel her closer.
Her touch alone drives me crazy, she raises her head a little and tries to push me away.
I would be lying if I said that I am not mad, but I have to stay calm, I claim her lips because I want to and it would help calm me down.
as usual she doesn't kiss me back but that doesn't make the kiss any less special.
every kiss is with her.
I walk in asking " why didn't you tell me?".
"I didn't because sofie wants to tell Mr. black about the baby, please leave I don't want anything or anyone to ruin this for her".
I love the fact that she calls Austin Mr. black, I know he won't try anything because he has sofie and she won't either but it's comforting.
It also shows that she is warming up to me without realizing it because she calls me ace, it would be better if it was something like babe but ace will do for now.
"Austin wants to talk to her as well, and I am here to take you out after dinner so they can have some time alone".
she frowns at my statement.
does she really dislike me this much to the point where the mere thought of us going out together upsets her?
she starts walking to the kitchen without saying a word to me.
I follow her not really knowing why, I just want to be around her.
" I will leave as soon as dinner is done no need for you to take me out, I know you probably have some important things to do so go on with them" she sighs getting a plate out.
what does she mean by 'important stuff', does she really think I have anything more important than her? she is my priority.
" you are important, and I wanna take you out" I say.
a shade of pink covers her cheeks. adorable.
walking behind her, I wrap my arms around her waist while she washes the plate.
she doesn't move or push me away, instead she washes the plate while being a little stiff.
she'll warm up.
"ES WHERE THE FUCK DID YOU PUT MY PICKLES?" sofie yells as she walks in.
she stops once she spots us and her eyes widen, probably at how I'm holding mio angelo.
glaring at me, she asks " what are you doing here?"..
she's so lucky austin has a thing for her.
" I am here to take es out after dinner because austin has some important matters to discuss with you" I say blankly.
mio angelo tries to free herself but I tighten my hold on her.
she's not going anywhere.
" where did you put my pickles?" she asks ignoring me.
what's so special about the pickles she is talking about?
" I hid them, you ate way too much, it's unhealthy" mio angelo answers as she wiggles in my arms again trying to break free.
I let her this times.
"I didn't eat too much" sofie scoffs.
" yeah 4 large jars in less than 3 days is not too much" mio angelo says.
I am not a doctor but that is too much and she is pregnant she shouldn't have that amount of salt.
" Es don't be a bitch and give me the damn pickles" sofie sobs.
what the fuck.
is this what pregnancy does to women?
I will have to go through this with mio angelo one day, let's just hope she craves something healthy at least.
I never thought of having kids because I didn't think I could trust any woman.
I wouldn't want to risk my kids having a horrible parent.
now that mio angelo is in my life...the idea of having kids sounds....nice.
I am serious and tough, a monster as people call me but I plan on being emotionally present in our kids' life.
I know she dislikes me now but she won't soon and as much as I am trying to keep her away from my life of the underworld I still should have an heir to carry our legacy
having her as the mother is a plus.
thankfully a knock on the door interrupts their heated argument, sofie quickly wipes her tears and sniffs.
mio angelo opens the door, as expected it's Austin.
he greets her with a smile and she does the same.
if only she smiled at me too.
the thought of her smiling at others and not me makes me feel incomplete, like I'm not capable of making the only person I like smile.
it's true.
but the truth isn't always nice.
the tension grows thicker as sofie greets austin.
mio angelo brings the plate she washed for me and puts it on an empty spot.
we all head to their little dining area and take a seat.
mio angelo is in front me and next to sofie.
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