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"Mommy what's wrong with daddy?" I asked. I was covered in his blood and I didn't know what to do. I was scared and confused. I was crying and screaming the whole time I heard the loud noises, I didn't know what they were.
I looked at my hands as they shook with blood on them. I was crying so much my vision was blurry. I looked up and seen an older version of myself standing in front of me, pointing a gun at me. I pulled the trigger.
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I woke up breathing hard and I felt tears on my face. I grabbed my phone and seen it was close to 10 a.m. I guess I had another nightmare.
I started having them after the situation but I was little though and I was traumatized. I don't get why all of the sudden the nightmares are coming back.
This nightmare was different though. Usually the person pointing the gun at me didn't have a face and most of the time it'll just be the whole situation happening over and over again. I don't know what to think now.
I laid down staring at the carpet for a while until I finally got up doing my morning routine. Afterwards I looked in my closet to pick out my outfit for today.
I just wanted to be alone today, I don't want to talk to nobody. Thinking back to that incident is messing me up again especially since I remember everything vividly.
After I got dressed I grabbed my keys and left my phone before I closed my door quietly and left out. I turned back around and thought against leaving my phone cause they'll probably think something happened to me.
I decided to drive to the house that it happened at. Once I got there I opened my car door to get out and just sat down on the front steps. The house was big and even though nobody stayed there , well that I know of." I was scared to go in that house alone.
A tear fell down my face as I looked at the driveway thinking back to how my father protected me. Just as I sniffed I heard a car pull up in front of the house so I wiped my tears before standing up.
The dude that got out the car had dreads and was a lil bit between lightskin and brown skin.
"Oh my bad you live here?" I asked.
"No I don't, I just check up in this house from time to time." He said and slicked something into his back pocket.
"You know who used to live here?" He asked.
"No." I lied.
"You know Some crime happened at this house I'm surprised people come here, you sure you don't know the people that used to stay here?" He asked.
"I don't know who used to stay here I just know nobody be here so I come here when I need to clear my head, I gotta go but nice meeting you-
"Langston." He said and my heart dropped and I kind of stepped back a little.
"Oh I'm Amiyah." I lied going to my car and he watched me as I pulled off. I got a good look at his license plate. I decided to go to a house down the street driveway and act like it was my house cause he might've thought something just by me driving to this house.
When I seen he went in the house I left as fast as possible taking my ass home. I had to park in a parking lot because my hands were shaking so bad and I started crying.
The person that tried to kill me twice was just standing in front of me and talking to me, my head is all over the place.
After I parked I FaceTimed my daddy and waited for him to answer.
"Hello- what the hell wrong wit' you Naylani?" He cut himself off.
"Daddy I just saw Langston." I sniffed.
"The fuck? Where you at what you talkin' bout?" He asked.
"What she just say?" I heard my mother's voice.
"I went to our old house cause I had another nightmare and this dude pulled up. He asked me if I knew who used to live here and asked me that twice and he told me his name." I wiped my face.
"He looked like this?" My mother asked showing a picture from her phone and I nodded my head.
"Move where my gun?" My mother asked.
"Chantelle Sit yo' pregnant ass down , Send yo' location." He said and I did exactly that. Xavier was calling me but I declined it.
"You sure that's who you saw?" He asked.
"Yes I'm sure." I sniffed.
"Did he follow you?" He asked.
"No he went inside the house, but I lied about my name and about knowing y'all." I answered.
"I'm on my way, you good to drive back?" He asked.
"No." I mumbled.
"Imma bring Zyair so he can drive your car back. Stop crying unless you wanna look ugly like yo' momma." He said.
"Boy shut the hell up and get out." She said and I chuckled a lil bit.
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When they pulled up beside me my brother got out the car and walked over to my side.
"You Ight?" He asked as he hugged me.
"Yea." I mumbled.
"Stop lyin yo' ass still shaking, they gone handle it though." He said before he got in and I went to my dad's car.
"Calm down first, just breathe before you hyperventilate." He said calmly.
"In ten out ten." He reminded me and I breathed in holding my breath for ten seconds before I breathed out releasing my breath for ten seconds repeatedly while I rested my hands on my lap.
I did this when I was little and I had these problems. It helped me relax and calm down.
I held my hands out and they weren't shaking anymore and I started to say what was on the License plate.
"You speaking in code or some, what the hell you doing? You sound possessed, imma need you to chill out I said be calm but not that damn calm." He said and I started laughing.
"That was his license plate I remembered." I said typing it into my notes.
"What exactly did he say?" He asked me.
"He said you know some crime happened at this happened at this house I'm surprised people come here, you sure you don't know the people that used to live here?" I recited.
"What?" I asked cause he looked like he just put two and two together.
"I'm probably reaching." He said but I doubt it. Anytime he peep something he always right.
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