Alex: Surgeons are all messed up. We're butchers, messed-up knife-happy butchers. We cut people up. We move on. Patients die on our watch. We move on. We cause trauma. We suffer trauma. We don't have time to worry about how all the blood, and death, and crap really makes us feel.
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Owen: "This is how you went wine by watching two hours straight advanced coronary artery" he chuckles "Cristina?" looking over at Cristina he sees her asleep in her spot, making him turn to tv off and he settles in beside her, turning the lights off
A little while later after staring at the slow blades of the fan and Owen's eyes closed, Cristina is suddenly flailing around as he chokes her. Knocking stuff over on her nightstand she tries to get his hands off of her which makes Callie come out of her room.
Callie: "Everything ok?" opening the door she sees Owen on top of Owen, making her eyes widen "Cristina! Owen!" snapping out of it, Owen lets her go and she quickly hurries into the bathroom, coughing and gasping as she covers her mouth with sobs
Owen: "What...what...what..." he pants, looking around in confusion
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Meredith: "It's 3:00 in the morning, Cristina" she groans when her phone rings and she picks it up with a sigh "This better be g-Callie? What?" she sits up in her bed, becoming more alert "He what?"
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Meredith: "Audrey, wake up." she whispers, shaking her shoulders
Audrey: "What?" she grumbles, face pressed into her pillow
Meredith: "It's Cristina."
Audrey: "What happened?" she perks up
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Meredith: "It's us. Cristina" she knocks on the bathroom door as Cristina gets up to let them in, moving over to the mirror "What's going on? Owen's out there upset. Callie was screaming."
Cristina: "No changes in visual acuity. No petechiae. I'm fine" she nods "I'm-I'm fine." she turns to face them and they see the marks on her neck, making their eyes widen
Audrey: "Oh, my God. Your neck! I will kill him."
Cristina: "No, no, no. It was a nightmare. He had a nightmare." she stops them from turning to walk out the door
Owen: "Cristina, please" he lightly knocks on the door "She all right, Meredith? I just need to know if she'ss alright."
Meredith: "No. No. No. No. Cristina. No." she tries to stop her from going to the door but Cristina brushes past her
Owen: "I am so sorry. I don't know what happened. I'm...I don't know what happened. I'm sorry." he tears up
Cristina: "Look at me."
Owen: "I'm sorry."
Cristina: "Look at me. I'm fine. See? It's ok. You were asleep. It's ok. Ok? It's ok. It's ok." she nods, pulling him into a hug as he continues to cry in her shoulder
Owen: "I'm sorry."
Cristina: "It's ok. I know. It's ok. You were asleep. It's ok. It's ok. It's ok." she assures as the three women give the pair a look
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Audrey: "You're wearing a turtleneck under your scrubs" she comes up to the nurses desk where Cristina is standing "It's ugly. Not as ugly as the fact you hugged him" she shakes her head, turning to face her "You hugged him."
Cristina: "I get it. Hear you. Let's move on."
Meredith: "Turtlenecks aren't ok" she comes up to the pair, giving Cristina a look "You're not ok, and your boyfriend's not ok."
Alex: "Is your boyfriend ok?"
Meredith/Cristina: "What?" they look up to see him standing on the other side of the desk
Alex: "To be cutting into brains today. Is he ok to be back?"
Meredith: "Yes. Of course. Derek is fine."
Alex: "We all know about his carnage in the OR. This isn't just any patient today. This is Izzie."
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Bailey: "You four. Ok. I understand why you're here. I know you wanna help. But I will be the resident on her case today. I will be preping her for surgery. And if you are going into that hospital room today, you will do so as her friends. Izzie needs her people around her. She needs you to tell her everything will be fine. She needs you to hold her hands. She needs you. Not more doctors. Understood?" she orders as they nod in understanding, heading into the room
Izzie: "Great. Let's get started." she nods, handing Meredith her knitting supplies as she looks at everyone
Bailey: "As you know, you have stage IV metastatic melanoma. We have a lot of surgeries and a lot of procedures lined up for you over the next few weeks."
Richard: "We've seen evidence of METS on your liver so one of those surgeries Dr. Bailey and I will resect them. We also lined up Dr. Parker from O.B. to Harvest as many healthy eggs as she can before you undergo any radiation."
Izzie: "Right. Babies."
Bailey: "We're just leaving the option open for you if you want it."
Derek: "But our priority today is to address the temporal lobe mets on your brain. I'm surprised we didn't catch it sooner. This kind of thing can cause headaches and seizures. And intense hallucinations. But hopefully the lesion has clear margins and I can remove it all."
Swender: "Are you people done?" she questions, stepping up as she looks at Izzie "Over the next four weeks, you're slated for three major surgeries. Seven out-patient procedures. And that's just for the METS we've already found and in all likelihood we will find more. Which means we may have to cut into you more. You may get used to the idea now. I'll be adiministering all your radiation, chemotherapy and immunotherapy. The treatment will be agressive. It would be harsh. You should prepare yourself. I will be overseeing all your procedures, Including today's with Dr. Shepherd. Which means every surgeon in this room now answers to me. Welcome to the cancer wing, folks." she nods, walking out the room
Derek: "See you in the OR." he nods as the others walk out beside the four
Izzie: "Seriously, don't just stand there staring at me while I knit. It's making me nervous. Get out of here. Go save lives."
Meredith: "Yeah. We're on rounds."
Alex: "Ok."
Izzie: "Ok. See you later." she nods as they all walk out the room
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Callie: "She doing ok?" she comes up to Audrey and Meredith as they stand at an opposite end of a nurses' desk, looking over at where Cristina is standing
Meredith: "Uh, yeah. Well, she said she is."
Callie: "Do you believe her?"
Meredith: "No. Not really." she sighs
Audrey: "Hell no, she's not ok. She just doesn't want to admit that because Hunt gave her his little sad puppy dog eyes." she scoffs
Callie: "Oh. Heads up." she motions to Owen who is heading down the hall
Locking his gaze on Cristina, he goes to move towards her but Meredith blocks his path. Looking between the three women who give him pointed looks he nods, turning around to walk away
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Cristina: "Swender has no vision." she shakes her head, looking through a couple of files
Meredith: "He wrapped his hands on your throat this morning and you're pretending like nothing happened."
Cristina: "Just focus on Izzie." she sighs
Audrey: "Hunt literally tried to kill you. Literally tried to kill you."
Meredith: "He's barely back from Iraq. It's obvious he has issues. That doesn't mean you have to stand by and-"
Cristina: "Ok, so, like, if he had a heart attack or stroke or lost a leg would-would you walk away? So how is it anymore acceptable that I walk away from this? He's wounded. He has war wounds. It's not cut and drive. And it is not as bad as you think it is."
Audrey: "I went through the exact same thing with Julian. He didn't see or go through half the stuff Hunt did but he saw enough. And I'm telling you right now that the longer he goes without help the worse he's gonna become. You wanna stand by him fine, at least stand by him with a professional. Otherwise you're never gonna get a good night's sleep with him around." she gives Cristina a soft look before getting up once her pager starts going off
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Audrey: "You paged me?" she questions, coming into the oncall room where Alex is sitting on a bed, looking down at a cup in front of him "Did you need something?" she asks as he stays silent
Alex: "How did you and Julian get kids?"
Audrey: "Well see it's this little process called procreation. It's where the man and woman-"
Alex: "No, no. Not like that" he quickly cuts her off "I mean did you two plan for it or...?"
Audrey: "Not really" she shrugs "We always said we would have kids together. Never picked a specific time. Why?"
Alex: "The chief gave me a cup."
Audrey: "A cup?"
Alex: "A cup." he holds it up, making her eyes widen in realization
Audrey: "Oh, ok. And I take it you're not ready for that step?"
Alex: "This isn't a step. This is a dixie cup full of my swimmers. It's crap. This is crap. You just can't go messing with people's heads like that" he shoots up from his spot, beginning to pace around the room "I mean, even if she freezes the embryos, you think-you think we'll get a chance to use them? You think she'll still be here? You think she'll survive all this? Do you think..." he raises his voice before trailing off with a sigh "I think...she t-told me...she told me she was seeing a ghost, okay? And I'm so used to all the crazy chicks in my life that I didn't even...I'm a doctor. A doctor! And I didn't even think to...and now she's...this is...this is wrong. This isn't how it's supposed to happen." his voice softens as he fights back tears
Audrey: "I know."
Alex: "It's crap."
Audrey: "I know." she breathes, taking a seat behind him on the bed as he sits back down
Alex: "I hate this."
Audrey: "I know."
Alex: "This isn't..." he shakes his head as she rubs his shoulder in comfort "This isn't how we...how we were supp-this isn't how I wanted to do this. This isn't how Izzie and I were supposed to make a baby."
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Meredith: "Hey, how's Izzie?" she greets George when she joins him at a table in the cafeteria
George: "I don't know." he shrugs as Cristina joins
Meredith: "How's Izzie?"
Cristina: "Why?"
Meredith: "Have you been to see her?"
Cristina: "No, I've been working with swender all day." she shakes her head and the three look at Audrey and Alex when the pair take a seat at the table
Audrey: "What?" she raises her head
Meredith: "Have you been to see Izzie?"
Alex: "No. Haven't you?" he shakes his head as everyone besides George exchanges a look
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Meredith: "Surgery started." she informs Alex when he comes to stand besides her at the OR board
Crisitna: "Hey, have they started the surgery?"
Alex: "Yeah."
Audrey: "Hey." she greets, grabbing a chair from the desk to wheel over
Steve: "Dr. Grey, we were wondering, did Dr. Stevens' surgery start yet or-"
Meredith: "Keep it moving. No loitering in the OR hallway. That's the rule."
Alex: "If they want to stay, let 'em stay" he snaps a little "People are better than no people."
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Richard: "What are you all doing out here?" he comes over to the hallway where a small group has gathered around the OR board
Alex: "Waiting for Izzie, sir. We're...waiting."
Richard: "You're scared. I'm scared, too." he nods, squeezing Alex's shoulder as he walks off
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Looking towards the door they all perk up when seeing Bailey coming over to them
Cristina: "Were her vitals stable the entire time?"
Audrey: "Were there any spikes in her intracranial pressure?"
Alex: "Is there any residual tumor?"
Bailey: "Uh, Shepherd was able to resect all of the tumor. She'll be in the pacu for about an hour. She's fine" she assures as they all breathe in relief "Your friend is just fine, no thanks to any of you. Tomorrow, do better." she gives them a pointed look before walking off
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Alex: "Doesn't matter how tough we are...trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home. It changes our lives. Trauma messes everybody up.
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Cristina: "What are you doing here?" she asks Audrey, seeing her come into her room while taking her shoes off
Audrey: "I hate shoes on furniture. It's a major pet peeve." she shakes her shoulders, shrugging off her jacket
Cristina: "No, I mean, what are you doing here?"
Audrey: "Preparing you." she climbs over to lay on the other side
Cristina: "Preparing me for what?"
Her question is answered when Audrey points to the door, motioning to Haleigh and Hunter who come into the room, using the step stool at the end of the bed to climb up
Cristina: "Oof." she groans when they launch themselves at her
Audrey: "Figured you could use some company tonight." she shrugs as Cristina looks at her with a sad look, putting a smile on her face when Hunter shows her his toy
They turn their attention to the door and they look up to see Meredith come into the room
Meredith: "I'm engaged."
Cristina: "I broke up with Owen." she rasps, looking at Hunter who gives her a hug before she lies back down on the bed and Meredith joins
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Alex: "But maybe that's the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap...maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward. It's what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up before we can step up.
AN: Does anyone else feel like whenever Owen doesn't want to talk about his problems he brings up everyone else's?
Also this might be a spoiler alert for anybody not caught up with the show...but I know it might not be an actual legal matter but shouldn't Izzie have given Alex the heads up that she was planning on using him sperm? I myself have only watched a couple episodes from seasons after 15 but aren't their kids more than a year old? She's had them for a while I'm pretty sure and she only recently told him?