"You know who's been a big support of you lot?" Lee said at the dinner table
Him and George made up some roasted vegetables and chicken
"Who?" I asked curiously
"Luna's dad" George finished Lee's sentence "he still writes about you all and how much he supports the cause. We tried getting him on the radio with us but he hasn't accepted it yet"
I thought about it for a moment
"Harry said something about him wearing a symbol at Bill and Fleur's wedding, I wonder if they are headed there? Or maybe they went to Godric's Hollow?"
"Wherever you go next I want to be the one to take you there, I'm not letting you apparate somewhere alone right now" Fred said putting down his tea "it's too risky"
I grabbed his hand
"I know, thank you for taking care of me"
He smiled and then kissed my lips
George gagged but Lee clapped
"It's so nice having you back El, you have no idea how awful Fred's been without you" Lee said "it was really hard watching him be despressed daily"
"I wish I could stay" I sad sadly
Fred squeezed my hand back
"You can you know...I would be happier if you did"
I sighed
"I know...I can't though. I'm needed with Harry Hermione and Ron for now, I'm sorry"
It truly hurt me to say those words out loud
I didn't like the idea of leaving Fred
No one in this room did
"When are you leaving?" George asked the question no one wanted to know the answer to
"I want to go to Godric's hollow to see my dad's resting place but I can't go in the day time so tonight?"
I felt the room tense
"We can go together and if they aren't there, we will come back here and then tomorrow morning we can check Luna's dads?" Fred suggested
I nodded my head, it was the best I would get from him
I was surprised he wasn't fighting harder to keep me here
Fred helped me dress in warmer clothes
Knowing where my dad's grave is, it will be cold and snowing by this point
When we were done dressing we went back into the living room
"When we get back you two know what to do" Fred said
They nodded and then we apparated together to Godric's Hollow
Snow covered the ground and was continuing to fall from the sky
It was dark except for the moon that shined brightly in the night sky
The moon was directly over my parents grave site
I looked at my parent's stars and like usually they danced for me
"Fred how are we going to get back without getting caught?"
He smiled
"We've got that down already don't worry, we have had to leave a few times since bunkering down at the loft and since then we perfected how to distract death eaters from our location. As long as one of us stays behind we have no problems"
Fred was wearing the locket again, and my bracelet has felt warm ever since he put it back on
"When Fenrir was wearing your locket my bracelet felt..wrong"
Fred squeezed my hand
"It's never coming off of me again, he got lucky the first time"
"How's Bill?"
"Enjoying his meat raw from the last I heard but hasn't shifted"
"Good"
We didn't see any signs of Harry or Hermione, they might have decided to not come here at all but we walked all the way to my parent's stones beside Harry's
I saw my dad's grave and felt my heart break
Loving Father, Husband, Friend
Fighter until the very end
Sirius Black
I let tears fall down into the snow as I kneeled down in front of his grave
I used my mittens to move snow off of it and cleaned the area up of dead flowers that were placed at his funeral
"Was his ceremony good?"
Fred sat down beside me
"It was short, but we all said good things about him and wished for him to experience eternal peace for once in his life"
I laughed
"He had me and Harry stressing him out, I'm sure eternal peace is glorious"
Fred kissed my temple and then helped me clear flowers from not my dad's grave but my mother's
He was always so thoughtful and caring, I didn't deserve him
"It's me who doesn't deserve you" he said
I stared at him shocked
"How did you?"
He pointed to locket
"Did you forget how this works? I hear everything unless you block me from it Love. Don't ever think you don't deserve me"
"I miss him so much...is it bad of me to miss him more than my mother?"
He shook his head no
"Your mother, sweet as she might have been in the beginning and end, wasn't around for you as much as your dad was. He was your rock, your family. You deserve to mourn the loss of him more than your mother, and I'm sure she understands" he said pointing above us
My parents' stars had moved to be directly above us, and my mum's star blinked brightly as if ok-ing Fred's words
I took a deep breath
"Dad..." I wiped away tears that fell down my nose "things are getting really...really hard now. I don't know what to do, I got separated from my friends. Dumbledore told Harry about this mission and I've been trying so hard to be helpful but I'm lost, if you can send me help in anyway please do" I kissed my dad's gravestone "I love you so much, I'm sorry you died protecting me..." I sobbed "I never wanted that...I should h-h-have listen-ed when I-I was t-told to hi-hide"
Fred held me to his side and let me cry for as long as I needed
"Fred it's not fair...I-I just started kn-knowing him. I b-barely had a-a few years...I'm s-so br-broken"
He rubbed my back the entire time, and kissed my head to bring me comfort
"I think it's time to go" I said after I stopped crying and sat silently for almost a half an hour looking at my dad's grave "I'll be here all night if I don't go now"
He nodded and helped me to get back up
"Goodbye dad...goodbye mum. I love you Merry Christmas..."
I looked at Harry's parents' grave and saw the symbol again
Is this a sign dad?
I looked up to the sky and his star blinked rapidly
Luna's dad's house it is
We disapparated back to the shop