Title of one shot; Motivation Lost
Requested by; LillithTheNerdyDemon
Type of angst; Donnie feels Depressed and Exhausted
AU; None
Prompt; None
Summary; Donnie has lost motivation to invent, His inventions always seem to fail, even though he's tried countless times. All the brothers notice his behavior and confront him soon after, and with extreme reluctance Donnie opens up. Comfort from da bros ensues, and soon he's back at it.
Brofluff?; Yes
Notes about AUs; None
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- Third Persons Pov -
Donnie was in his lab, he had been pulling-Nighters lately, at first it went off not noticed. Well, it only lasted for a week. The genius had black coffee next to him, as he tried to gain motivation but nothing seemed to came to his mind. He let out a frustration groan, as he tried to gain motivation which failed miserably. But he had been losing motivation, he glanced at his inventions that he had worked on before this 'Motivation Lost' wreck happened. He frowned, the inventions he had failed. Hell, even his Tech-Bo fails sometimes! 'Just like when we first tried to fight Draxum.' He thought, frowning.
Maybe his motivation is being stripped away from cause of his failures? At this point, he really know what to do. He had tried to leave the lair, looking for materials, parts from the junkyard for his inventions. He did indeed find some, but he never felt motivated to invent. He had started questioning his role since the whole drama in Witch Town, no matter how much April's words had tried to reassure him at the time. It did reassure him for the first 2 weeks, but it soon became a old quotation.
The softshell leaned back against his chair, he clearly hated the demotivation that he had been clinging onto after the first week. And the whole drama with shredder? Donnie shuddered, all of his progress had been destroyed. He had already repaired his battleshell, but he couldn't help but wonder, was he needed here? 'Science isn't better then Mystic powers. Those damn mystic powers and creatures can do so much then what I can do.' Donnie thought, feeling even more demotivated after so.
He glanced at the inventions that shredder had literally smashed into pieces, he stared. He then looked away, he can't even feel motivated to rebuild his inventions. God, he hated this so much. He let out another groan of frustration, speaking of his brothers, his behavior had gone off without noticed at first. For the first week, after the next few weeks. His behavior had gone noticed. Course' Donnie didn't realize that as he took the last few sips from his coffee, he realized he needed to get some more.
The genius looked at the clock, it read; '10:25 PM.' He grumbled, and stood up. Grabbing the now empty coffee cup, Raph snuck a glance towards the genius who went into the kitchen. He seemed to be mumbling something to himself as he started to make himself some more coffee, "Hey Dee." Donnie jumped slightly at Raph's voice, he quickly shook himself and looked at his older brother. "What now Raph?" He sighed, trying not to show his exhaustion, but he did show his annoyance.
Raph sighed at the annoyance from his younger brother, "Are you okay?" He Asked, no matter how much Donnie wanted to snap at him, he just growled. "I'm fine." He muttered sharply, grabbing his coffee and headed into his lab. "Leo! Mikey! Come here!" Raph called, Donnie sighed, knowing he needed to go to the 'meeting'. It's not like he can do anything about his motivation problem though.
The genius just stayed where he was, leaning against the wall. Taking a few sips from his coffee, it was warm and bitter. Just the way he liked it. Leo came into the kitchen, alongside Mikey. "What's the problem Raph?" Mikey Asked, his light yellow eyes glimmering.
Donnie just silently enjoyed drinking his coffee. "We are gonna talk about Donnie and his behavior lately." This made Donnie spit out his coffee, staring in surprise. 'THEY KNEW?!' He thought as they looked at him,
"Donnie? What's up with you?" Raph asked softly, staring at him.
The genius only shrugged, he just looked away. "I'm not telling you anything." He growled, taking a few sips from his coffee again. Leo sighed, "Why are you so stubborn?" Leo asked to himself, "Why are you getting into my business?" Donnie Shot back,
"Dee, just tell us what's wrong! Please?" Mikey begged a bit, but Donnie didn't budge. "I'm fine!" He scoffed, glancing away. Clearly furious and annoyed, he stifled a yawn though.
Leo frowned, "Can't you see we are worried about you?" He mumbled, "Please tell us Donnie! We want to help you!" Raph said, a slightly plea in his voice. "I don't need your help. I'm fine!" Donnie argued, he still had the strength to argue back. Due to his exhaustion, he was even more tempered then he usually was. "Oh really? So you think that your drinking coffee — Black coffee now is okay? That your waking up exhausted? That you haven't invented anything in weeks is okay?!" Leo growled,
Donnie rolled his eyes, placing his cup of coffee down on the table. "Is it bad that I don't want to invent something at the moment?! What if I just wanted some breaks?!" He hissed, "Dee. . .Have you been pulling-Nighters?" Mikey Asked, The genius felt the words stuck in his throat but he shook himself. "No! I told you, I'm fine! Now why don't you guys mind your business?!" Donnie huffed,
"Oh really? Just answer the question, truthfully in fact." Leo scoffed, Donnie grumbled. "And how long are you guys gonna keep bothering me until I say; 'I'm not fine'?" He Asked crossly, "Until you tell us!" Raph responded, earning a sigh of exasperation from the genius. "Well have fun with that. Cause I'm not telling you." He growled,
Mikey went a bit closer to the genius which caused him to back up a bit, as he growled quietly at the box turtle. "Please! Just tell us! We won't get mad!" Mikey pleaded, his light yellow eyes glimmering with such grief, and begging for an answer from his older brother.
Donnie realized there wasn't a way out of this situation anymore, "Promise?" He whispered, "Promise!" Mikey answered, the genius took a sharp deep breath and sighed. "I've haven't been. . .motivated to invent, repair/rebuild anything." He finally answered with such extreme reluctance and frustration, he watched his brothers exchange glances before looking at him. "And I've been pulling-Nighters, Yes." He added,
"Why don't you tell us these things Dee? We are your brothers!" Raph whined softly, "It's just, you guys wouldn't understand! I keep demotivating myself every time or whenever I start thinking about my role and how much I'm a failure I am! I came to a realization that mystical powers are more superior than science, which means; You guys are better off without me. You guys are better than me." He whispered, looking at his hands. He swallowed down a grieving lump that hanged in his throat, he didn't want to look at their faces.
"And whenever I remember how shredder smashed all of my inventions into bits and pieces as if they were nothing but paper, I know I don't ever stand a chance against you or these mystical creatures. They get stronger and stronger, and maybe one day, you guys might need to rely on a mystic genius. Not a scientific genius like me. . ." He mumbled, he was doing a pretty good job of trying to stop himself from crying or having a breakdown in front of his brothers. "Dude! You saved yourself and our lives! How is that not amazing?! You saved us from shredder!" Mikey exclaimed,
But Donnie just frowned, "By using a handkerchief! Mikey! I used a stupid handkerchief!" He hissed, he felt his eyes growing a bit hot as he realized he was losing against the urge to breakdown. "Even that didn't help very week! Sure it did blind him when we finally defeated him, but it was utterly useless!" He spat, then looked away. Avoiding their gazes.
"Don. . .We don't need a mystic genius on our team, we got this far without one. We gotten this far with you and your incredible inventions, despite they malfunction, it's still amazing how you can build those machines from scrap. If we never had you as our brother; We wouldn't be here, alive. You are not a failure, sure, you may not have a mystical weapon like us but we don't have your smarts. And for the inventions that were smashed? You can rebuild them, upgrade them if you'd wish to. Just please; Never bring yourself down. Don't make yourself feel worse than what you already are." Leo murmured, rubbing Donnie's battleshell.
"Don't ever think that we don't care or don't love you, we are your brothers. We will always love you, no matter how rude or sarcastic you are. No matter how much you don't show affection, love or emotions to us. We care about you deeply, Okay?" Raph joined in as Donnie stifled his sobs, he choked them as tears formed in his gray eyes. "We will always be by your side, no matter what! You are not alone Dee!" Mikey joined in as well, the other three turtles started giving the genius a big group hug.
Donnie couldn't hold back his tears anymore, he sobbed into them, hugging them back. He had never thought he would do this, especially with his brothers.
But their words definitely motivated him, probably more then they all expected.
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- 5 days later -
Donnie was still doing All-Nighters but since the comfort and contortion from his brothers, he got many motivation. They even are helping him with his depressing state, he had been on a inventing roll since then. He was mostly focused on repairing his inventions, he kept himself quiet. Occasionally His brothers would come in to check on him, which he didn't mind. Probably for now at least. But he knew he had to thank them at one point, he sighed as he finished repairing one of his inventions. He had finished 4 of them, now 5.
But he will always be eternally thankful for his brothers.
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Aww! Such a fluffy ending -(O o f)
I hoped you guys enjoyed the oneshot!
And I hope you loved it LillithTheNerdyDemon!
Sayonara my lattes!~