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"oh- Beomgyu and Icey...were official now?" Areum thought as she walk to her home. "I'm proud of them." she added as she smile. She proud of Beomgyu because he can stop loving her more than a friend. 
                          
She knocked the door twice, her mother quickly open the door, welcoming her with a wide smile. Areum smile back, she held her mother's hand as they walk to the living room. Areum throw her bag on the couch. "Soobin already told you right?" her mother blurted. Without a second thought, Areum nodded her head.
                          
"So you're agree?" her mother asked again. "Yes I am." she replied. Her mother felt guilt because she control her daughter, didn't let her stay at her favourite place. She bitterly smile, suddenly she remembered something.
                          
"Oh yea, someone just give me this I think it's your friend." her mother said again as she hold the box. Areum got up slightly, taking it from her. She bowed and run to the room. the box is red, neatly tied with a butterfly tie. Areum slowly untied it and opened it slowly.
                          
Dear my Areum,
                          
To Areum who I hurt terribly and miss so badly... I just want to say I'm sincerely sorry for putting you through my overdose. I know I made it seem like your fault, but it was never your fault, I was lying to myself and it was easier to blame you than to realise that.
                          
I can’t believe I did that -- after the overdose everything just fell apart, we argued and argued and argued.
                          
I know I’m probably the last person you want to hear from, but please hear me out. I don't know where to start so I’ll start with this; I’m really upset that our friendship is gone and it's made me miserable for the past couple of weeks.
                          
Every time we fought it hurt me more, and now we’re not even talking anymore, let alone friends. I'm really struggling without you now, we used to be best friends and you mean a lot to me, more than you know.
                          
I hate fighting, especially with you. My mistake ruined our friendship and I don't know how to make things right between us.Knowing that I did this to my best friend kills me. I don't know what I was thinking and I hate myself for it.
                          
Our friendship is too valuable to me to end over this. To find another friend like you would be impossible, you’re caring, patient, funny... I can go on and on, and it doesn't feel right without you anymore.
                          
I didn't mean for things to be like this and wish I could take everything back to when we were close friends, I know I can't but I can show you that this will never happen again and I'm still the guy you trusted and thought of as your best friend.
                          
I keep apologising because I’ve been completely in the wrong to be so inconsiderate and act like I have, I wasn't the friend I should have been but I don't want to lose you because I think you're worth holding on to, I don't know why, but whenever I had a bad day, or week you always made me feel better, you were one of the few who could do that.
                          
I'm honestly heartbroken things are like this, I don't want my mistake to ruin our friendship and it would mean so much to me if you could give me a second chance.
                          
You genuinely mean the world to me and I can't believe how much I miss you. I know you find it hard to trust and I’ve made it even harder for you to trust me and it'll take time for you to feel ready to talk.
                          
I'm ready to wait until you can talk to me. A lot of people walk in and out of my life but you're one of the few I ever really wanted to stay, and until I make things right with you, you're going to be constantly on my mind.
                          
I really do miss you so much and I don’t want to lose you. I made a mistake, and I really regret it. I don't think it's worth ending our friendship over though, I hope you think that too. I haven’t changed, I know I seem like I have but I really haven’t. You did see something in me and I hope I get the chance to show you that it is still here and prove to you I’m still someone you can trust.
                          
I’ve been a terrible friend for the last few weeks, but I think I was a good friend before, couldn’t we try and go back to that?This wasn’t easy for me to write, and I hope this letter helps show you just how I feel, how much you mean to me and how sorry I am.
                          
Whatever you decide I'll always treasure our friendship and the good times we had. We went through a lot together, and you’re one of the few people I trust. You’re very special to me; I’d go through hell for you. I hope you know that.
                          
Please accept this apology and I hope you can forgive me; I can’t help believing everything will turn out okay, because I find it hard to think of my life without you in it anymore, and I’ll always be there for you.
Please text or call me if you decide you can give me a chance.
                          
Thank you for being my friend.
                          
-kang taehyun
                          
A tear rolled on her soft cheek, she didn't know Taehyun love her so much even as one of his special friend. She took another letter, reading it with tears can't stop flowing.
                          
dear Areum,
                          
I heard you will transfer to another school and I'm gonna graduate. I can't bear to think what will happen to me without you beside me. 
                          
If it was your choice, I can't force you to stay. One day I'll find you and hug you tightly. 
                          
Oh yea, I have a gift for you!
                          
She look at the box, spotting a white scarf with a bunch of chocolate beside it. she smile widely, wiping her tears away. "so sweet..." she muttered. 
                          
"Even if you just considered me as your friend I will always stay with you until the end of our journey." she added.




                          
P/S : IT WAS A LONG CHAPTER THAT I EVER WRITE LMAO