Teach Me

                                    

                                          
"Teach Me How To Love"
                          
(1766 Words)
                          
It has now been a week. George was still on his "break" from me. He said he needed a lot of time but I honestly didn't expect it to go for this long. We talked, sometimes. They were always short and simple, no meaning to them. I was slowly losing motivation to learn how to love. Everyday gave me more time to think, that wasn't a good thing. As the days passed I started wondering if I should just stay scared of love and put soulmates and everything behind. Then I thought of George crying and I couldn't bring myself to even think those thoughts for the rest of the day. That doesn't mean it still wasn't an option, it would just be harder. 
                          
I wished George was able to have someone better. He deserved it, I didn't deserve him. I tried to late. I feel like this break is never going to end. 
                          
"Clay."
                          
"Yes.."
                          
"I want to try with you, I've thought about it a lot and I think you mean good. I still need to gain my trust back for you... but I think it's ok."
                          
"Really George? You don't know how much that means to me."
                          
George nodded. 
                          
"Wait but how are we going to try, I don't get it." I looked at George. He shook his head, and laughed a bit.
                          
"You really are clueless aren't you? Everything we did at the beginning was trying. Little dates and stuff I guess, just quality time." Oh. That made sense to me. When was this all going to happen. I wanted it to be soon.
                          
"So you agree to teach me how to love someone?"
                          
George scoffed, "Clay. I can't teach you how to love." He smiled reassuringly. "You have to feel it, you have to actually love me. I can't make you love me." He shifted his eyes to the TV. I had a week before the next check up, a week to love George for real this time.
                          
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Dreams Birthday- 12:03 am
                          
"HAPPY 19THH" George shouted in my ear. I got startled, I shot my body up and looked at George. He smiled warmly. 
                          
"Clay, it's August 12th!"
                          
"Oh." I rubbed my eyes roughly. "I forgot it was my birthday today." George shoved a wrapped gift in my hands.
                          
"You got me a gift?"
                          
George laughed. "I promised myself the day I met you I would get you something, plus it's your birthday that would be rude." I smiled and started unwrapping the gift. I pulled out a stuffed animal, it was a cat that looked exactly like Patches.
                          
"It's adorable! How do you know about Patches?"
                          
"Sapnap helped of course, I'm still learning about you so I didn't know what to get. He told me some stuff about you and I decided to get you this. You have to be away from her for awhile so I thought it would be nice." It was nice. It made me feel good that George cared about me now. 
                          
"Sorry for waking you up, we can sleep now" George said. I nodded. George climbed in bed next to me and turned around.
                          
"Night George."
                          
"Night."
                          
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"Soo, what do you want to do birthday boy?" It had been awhile since we woke up. It was already 3. I was sitting on my phone, we both didn't mind though. 
                          
"I don't mind. We can do whatever." I smiled and shrugged. I was staring at the cat in my hands. 
                          
"Hmm.. we can." He started tapping his foot on the ground clearly thinking. "Food then beach?"