Chapter 26

                                    

                                          
Finn's POV 
                          
It stopped raining outside, now the sun started to shine. 

                          
It wasnt my first time, but it was definitely the best. 

                          
I knew that it was Rachels first time, since everything we did together in our relationship was the first time in her life. 
                          
She lays next to me, her hair in her face. 

                          
I cannot tell how happy i am. It wasnt actually the reason why i came to the school but it was worth it. If i didnt come we still wouldnt talk with each other. 

                          
I lay down right next to her so i can see her face a little bit better. 

                          
I wipe the rest of hair that hangs over her face away and stroke her cheek with my thumb. 
                          
She smiles a little. I cant say if shes awake or if shes dreaming of something that makes her happy. 

                          
Of course i wish that she dreams of me. 
                          
But with every minute more im laying here i start to get what i actually did. 

                          
I cheated on Sarah. It wouldnt matter if she wasnt the one who saved me of doing something stupid. 

                          
The fact that i slept with my ex makes me feel more guilty than i thought it would.
                          
But i love Rachel. I just love her. And she loves me as well. She hurt me, but she also hurt herself. Im not happy about that but it just seems fair to me that Rachel understood what she did to me. And that it also hurt her. 
                          
Maybe im still not able to forgive her. But im definitely one step closer to it. 
                          
She smiles again, now with a fully smile and turns around. 

                          
sometimes i wish this moment would never go away. That we could just stop the time and sit here for forever and a little bit longer. 
                          
I start stroking her hair while i think about what is going to happen in my life. The fact that i cheated on Sarah isnt just going to make me single again, i will also risk my job. 

                          
Sarah is my boss in the end, she can easily fire me. 
                          
The fact that i just risked my whole life is like a punch into my face. 

                          
I risked eveything for Rachel. Of course i love her and even though we'll be together for forever, what is going to happen then? If i dont have a job im lost. Lost in this whole stupid world. 
                          
I decide to forget about this and stand up. 

                          
Im maybe not the perfect guy for her, but i want at least to feel comfortable here. This is the first time shes in my apartment and we didnt even get to my bedroom. It just happened so quickly. 
                          
I put on my boxers and a T Shirt and walk to the little kitchen.

                          
Im a miserable cook but this time i really have to put out my not existing talent and surprise Rachel. 
                          
So i start to make pancakes and bacon. 

                          
I also take a bottle of orange juice and place everything on a server. 

                          
I would've put a rose on it either but i dont own things like that. 
                          
Shes still asleep and i try to place the server on the table next to the couch as quiet as i can. Then i stroke her hair again and kiss her cheek to wake her up. 

                          
"Mmh..", she mumbles and turns around to me. 

                          
Her eyes smile at me. 

                          
"Good Morning.", i whisper while i try to control my heartbeat.