My safe place

                                    

                                          
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I couldn't move, seeing and hearing his voice stunned me 
  "Love?" Fred picked up my hands and brought them to his face "Electra?"
I could feel tears threatening to fall from my eyes, my voice came out horsed when I replied back 
  "Freddie...I've missed you so much" I took my hands back and threw them around his neck. He picked me up and held me by my bottom 
  "I missed you more than words can describe" he whispered into my ear 
We stayed like that for a couple of minutes until I could hear Ron complaining that I haven't said hi to him yet 
So I let go of Fred, and ran and hugged the rest of the group 
  "Deary you look hungry I'm going to make some dinner" Mrs.Weasley said kissing both of my cheeks 
  "The house was boring without you" George said pulling me into a spinning hug
  "They were testing out new ideas on me all summer, it was awful" Ron said as he hugged me too 
  "I wanted to practice Quidditch with you so badly this summer, I want to make the team this year!" Ginny said hugging me as well
  "Hey now lets go eat and we can catch up at the table?" Mr.Weasley said giving me a hug too
We all walked to the kitchen table, the meeting had ended and the order members all left by apparating
I sat in between Fred and Ron, both who couldn't take their eyes away from me. 
I noticed they exchanged a look of concern
I'm sure they both are seeing me now for what I've become, a sickly pale girl. 
I've never felt so uncomfortable under their stare
The family chatted and everyone was catching up on what the summer had brought to them. My dad told Mr. and Mrs.Weasley In a whisper about the order meetings and how they were going to involved now, and I tried to stay excited while I told them about my first summer here with my dad and the occasional Remus. I felt myself getting tired as my story went, and even though I could have used more time with everyone I couldn't keep my eyes from falling shut. I haven't slept well all summer and I found myself taking naps most days. 
I got up from my chair and bid them a goodnight. I looked around the table, to my extended family. They all looked at me like my dad has all summer, worried. 
I started to walk away from the table when I heard another chair start to move 
  "Goodnight everyone, hey Electra I'm coming too" I heard Fred say from behind me 
I waited for him at the bottom of the stairs and we walked in silence together to my room, well our room I'm sure it'll turn out to be 
I opened the door, and he followed me inside. I could see his eyes wondering the room, seeing my mess for what it was. My clothes were spread out everywhere, and I had books half opened and some missing pages. My trash was over filled and the curtains were down already, they always were when I wasn't peering outside. 
  "Electra.." Fred said closing the door "what's been going on? I've never know you to be so messy..." 
Fred used a spell to clean up my room and lit a candle to make it smell more...inviting.
  "Nothing has been going on, the house has been getting cleaned daily so I guess my room just had taken a back burner" I tried laughing to lighten the mood but I couldn't. I couldn't even make eye contact with him 
I started pacing the room, something I got into a habit of when I started to feel anxious 
He came up to me, gently grabbed my face and made me look at him 
  "Blue...they've been blue since I got here...have they been any other color?" 
I stared at the ground 
 "Yeah I mean they don't stay blue. Mostly a dull brown"
He put one hand around my waist and the other behind my head and pulled me into a hug
  "Love, I know last year was really hard on you... it's ok to not be ok. What's not though is to lie about it or hide it, I want to be here for you but I can't if you shut me out" Fred said gently to me as he held me 
 "You have purple marks under your eyes, you feel like bones, have you been eating enough?" I didn't answer him "and your skin is pale like you haven't seen the sun all summer, this wouldn't have happened if I was with you I'm sorry we were apart" 
  "Are you insinuating that it's my dads fault?" I said pushing away 
 "Not at all love" he said pulling me back "I'm saying you aren't well. But I'm here now and I'm going to help you" 
I stayed silent as he held me. He wasn't wrong, I know him and Ron could see what a wreck I was, and I know my dad has seen it too. After Voldemort, I just haven't been the same. 
 "Im sorry that I'm a wreck" 
  "Don't be sorry, you almost died. Well you did die, and speaking if that I got you another bracelet" he said pulling a box from his back pocket 
I opened the box, and inside was a new bracelet to replace the one that gave it's life source for me. This bracelet said the same 'I love you more' and 'always' but there was a new part...my soul mate 
I stared at Fred, and kissed him passionately. The most emotions I've felt all summer went into that kiss as he lifted me up and kissed me hard back 
We moved to the bed where he started to take my clothes off 
I stopped him 
  "Is this ok?" He asked
  "I'm self conscious of my body now...I've barely ran and haven't been eating right all summer I'm ugl-"
He put his finger on my lips
  "You are not ugly, you haven't ever been and will never be. You are broken, but it's ok I am here to put you back together. I always will be, you are my soul mate. All summer I couldn't help but think of you, anytime I smelt strawberries I smiled, anytime I saw a creature run around the burrow I thought of how you would have turned into a fox and ran around with it, I could feel your emotions even being far away. We are connected by our souls, I knew you were down a lot, I can't explain it but my actual soul hurt when you weren't ok. Even when I saw you, my soul was crushed by how broken you became. I won't go anywhere, no matter how sick or healthy you are. I want to be here for all of your problems, you are my world" he kissed my forehead
My eyes were burning from the tears that wanted to be released. He kissed my eyes and then kissed my temples, he then kissed my jawline and my neck. I let him take my shirt off, where he kissed my chest and kissed every scar I had like he has done previous times when we were intimate  
He used his wand to lock the door and put a silence charm on the room, he then looked into my eyes and said 
  "Gold"
I smiled as I kissed his lips and I could feel him smile back
I missed him so much, his body looked just as good as it did when I left him. His touch was as warming as it's always been, and the sweet words he whispered to me as we connected were as beautiful as they were the last time we had sex. 
  "I love you" 
I said gently grabbing his face as he hovered over my body 
He looked into my eyes and said 
  "I love you more"
That was the first night since I left Hogwarts that my nightmares kept at bay and I didn't wake up countless times. 
He is my soul mate
He is my safe place
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