23. Confront

                                    

                                          
"Our fears reveal 
What we care the most..."
                          
-Unknown.
                          
"Dr.Watson told me what happened a few days ago" said Deokboon; nervously twirling her wedding ring. Eunhyuk was sitting across from her with a faraway look in his eyes. 
                          
"Eunhyuk?" she said; slowly taking his slim fingers into her hands. "Please talk to me" 
                          
Hyukjae looked at his mother. Somehow seeing his mother's sincere face killed all the talkbacks that he had been practicing for over a week. 
                          
"What do you want me to say?" he asked tiredly. 
                          
"Anything" she said; her eyes filling with tears "I want to hear my son's voice" 
                          
"really? and you still want to leave me?" 
                          
Deokboon looked at the dark coffee wich was steaming away infront of her and sighed. 
"I'm sorry about all this darling" she said; pleading with her eyes for him to understand her.
                          
"I- I felt like I couldn't take it anymore. I was stressed out with work and your father was busy as always...he doesn't care about how anyone feels and with you ignoring us..I-" she took a deep breath 
"I had no one to comfort me and I realised what kind of a mother I've been to you and I started hating myself" 
                          
Deokboon looked up and saw that Eunhyuk's expression had not changed one bit. He still gave her a hard calculating look. 
                          
"Ever wondered why I hated both of you?" asked Hyukjae in a low voice. 
He knew he was about to cry but he didn't care. 
                          
"That's exactly how I felt when you two let me down EVERYTIME!" he shouted. 
                          
"Eunhyuk! please! control yourself" she pleaded holding his hands tightly. 
                          
"No I WON'T! you think I'm just going to stay silent like a fucking idiot? you two always acted like I'm some kind of idiotic loser! and I could never make you happy no matter what I fucking do!" 
                          
"that's not true Eunhyuk" gasped his mother. 
                          
"Really?" said Eunhyuk enraged more that ever "then tell me why didn't you come at half term" 
                          
"I already-" 
                          
"atleast YOU could've come! atleast once! but did you? what's the point of me dancing infront of people that I don't even KNOW?" 
                          
"It was an urgent meeting Eunhyuk please try to understand darling" said his mother softly. 
                          
"do you know why I ran away that day?" he asked suddenly and his mother gave a small shake of her head. 
                          
"becuase dad gave me the same fucking answer"
                          
Deokboon silently stood up and came over to him. Eunhyuk barely had time to think before she hugged him tightly. 
                          
Eunhyuk felt like an eight year old again. He hadn't even known how much his body craved for this motherly affection.
                          
Without second thoughts he snuggled into her sobbing his heart out. 
                          
"my poor baby" crooned his mother and started to stroke his head. "don't worry mom won't leave you" 
                          
Eunhyuk looked up with tear strained eyes "you won't?" he asked; his voice filled with hope. 
                          
His mother kissed him on his forehead and smiled affectionately at him "No honey...I won't ever leave you" she said; her voice breaking with tears. "You are my precious jewel" 
                          
Eunhyuk kept his head onto his mother's shoulder after a long time, and it comforted him more. Finally he musted up his courage and looked at his mother. 
                          
"I want to tell you something" he blurted out while his heart hammered. 
"but promise me that you won't overreact" 
                          
His mother looked at him expectantly. "what is it honey?" 
                          
"I- I really love someone and- it's a..a boy " he said and expected the worst.
                          
To his enormous surprise his mother gave a small laugh that lightened up her whole face. 
                          
"really? and who is this angel boy who managed to calm your fire down so much?" she said. 
                          
"Donghae" said Eunhyuk going red in the face. 
                          
"Donghae? is that the boy I met when I came to drop you off?" she asked and Eunhyuk nodded. 
                          
"no wonder...he did look like an angel...does he know?" she asked. 
                          
"what?- I'm really sorry it's just that I've never seen this side of you before" said Eunhyuk and his mother laughed. 
                          
"I asked if he knows this" she said. 
                          
"I-" stuttered Hyukjae. 
                          
"Look Eunhyuk I'm glad that someone finally managed to understand you and I'm glad that that he gave you strength when we did such a poor job as parents...whoever it may be, I'm willing to accept him if he can undertand you and comfort you" said Deokboon gently. 
                          
Eunhyuk was speechless. He had hoped for his mother to atleast try to understand him, but what was actually happening is beyond anything he'd ever imagined.
                          
He hugged his mother tightly. "I'm so glad you've accepted him mom!" he said while tears ran down his face. 
                          
"well well don't cry Eunhyuk" she said stroking his hair "I've never known you for  being a crybaby" 
                          
Eunhyuk laughed through his tears and looked up at his magically changed mother. Everthing felt light and bright to him; and for the first time in ages Eunhyuk felt as if things were going to be alright. 
                          
"Eunhyuk" said his mother and he looked up, "your farther said that he'll be able to visit in another few months"
                          
"Oh" said Eunhyuk in dejection,  "but somehow I think he won't be able to understand me like you did"
                          
"Don't worry" crooned Deokboon "I will try to support you"
                          
"Thanks mom" said Eunhyuk, cuddling closer.
                          
I hope that goes well, thought Eunhyuk or else I'll never get over it...