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One morning I woke up and walked out of my bedroom to my baby brother being picked up by his hair off the couch and thrown through the air across the living room. Who is this man why is he pointing a Gun at my sister, I run to her she is helping my brother off the floor I give him part of my blanki to wipe the blood from hos nose.
                          
"Where is he ! Where the fuck is that piece of shit Bill"
                          
This crazy man is yelling and waving a gun in our faces i am petrified tears start to fall from my eyes. Finally my mother comes out or there room followed by Bill he has something in his hand but i cant tell what it is through the silent sobbing i am doing.
                          
'" Give it all to me now or i will shoot her " the crazy man shouts
                          
"I don't have all of it and shoot her i don't give a flying fuck"
                          
as Bill says that he holds up whatever he was holding and slams it in to the back of my mothers head she fell to the ground instantly. NO NO No........ what is hapening why did he hit her so hard he always hits us but never like that never that hard.Then the gun gose off in to the air or somthing I dont think it hit anyone but Bill jumped and ran out the back door. By then the cops come running in the front door and chase after Bill and the crazy man, they ran right over my mother who is still lying on the ground.
                          
"Is she dead " I ask britt my older sister
                          
"I dont think so but lets go in my room and wait this is not right "
                          
She says as she leads me and my three year old brother back in to there room. I dont know why he was on the couch anyway he gets to share a room with britt. I always wanted to i thought she would watch over me but bill insisted she stayed with damin because she could take care of him in the night. We are not to bother mother and bill if they are in there room.
                          
"kids are you guys okay?" My mother came in crying and bleeding from her head
                          
"Yeah mommy who is that? What did he want ? Why did Bill hurt you so bad ?"
                          
 I ask crying in between words 
                          
"Honey don't cry it's okay bill was protecting us, mommy and Bill are going to go away with the police for a while. when they catch Bill they will come back for me , your going to have to go with them to okay ?" 
                          
 "No Gina that is not okay I want to call my mother."
Britt spits at her she seems so angry I don't understand I'm frozen with confusion and shock what is happening? 
                          
 "That's okay Britt you can call her when the police come back she can come pick you up I'm sure and I will see if she can take Damon and Emma with you ." 
                          
Why is my mom leaving and why do I have to go with the police if bobby Brits mom won't take me . 
The police say that Britt can leave with her mother but Damon and I have to go to a "fun children's home" until an immediate family member can come pick us up. Damon's grandfather come to get him but because bill isn't my father he isn't my grandpa I guess the police said I can't go with them. I am all alone with all these strangers where's my mom or my grandma and grandpa that's who the police contacted my mothers parents they live close by , so where are they its been three days . 
                          
 "Where is she , where is Emma Moore, why the hell wasn't I notified sooner what is going on here!" 
                          
It's my grandmother on my fathers side I haven't seen her in years Bill says she is bad that she will keep my from my mom if I talk to her , but she's here and I really want to go home ...
                          
 "Gramma Elle ! Gramma I want to go home please I'm scared can you take me home gramma !" 
                          
 "Emma honey no you can't go home your going to come stay with me in Sacramento for a while okay sweetheart everything's going to be okay I won't let anything happen to you lets go ." 
                          
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 "Rylynn are you going to continue or have you lost it ?" 
                          
 "I have lost it , I'm confused dose it normally wear off so ubruptly ?"
                          
No not typically is there anything also bothering you to make you lose your concentration?"
                          
"Umm no nothing really nothing I think we need to discuss , how much time is left in our session?" 
I ask we have been trying a new method of therapy for a month now Dr. Kenny makes me a drink when I get here , it tastes very earthy but I would make me feel like I was back in the situation that she would bring up it is like I go in to a trance and when I came to I can still temper but the details fade away. we had tried normal therapy at first but I just couldn't open up about anything just give the basics its like I suppressed all of the memories. 
                          
 "We have about a half an hour left are you sure you don't want to tell me what's bothering you that is what I'm here for Rylynn . "
                          
 "Well I know that it's not possible but I feel like he found me. I always feel like I'm being watched or followed, nothing has happened I just can't shake the feeling you know ?" 
                          
 "Oh dear is it possible that he followed you , but when did this feeling start have you felt this way since you moved ?" 
                          
"It just started about a week or so ago. I have no proof or reason to think its him , it's just that feeling I'm always on edge . since I still don't have a car I stay in my apartment all the time unless I run to class or work. Its not possible that he followed me I left in the middle of the night his sister was over she said she would let me know if he woke up. I disposed of my phone right before I boarded the flight I put in someone's trash bag ..so no he couldn't have found me. Why do I feel this way doctor ?" 
                          
"Well it may just be a form or ptsd post traumatic stress disorder we will have to look in to this further Okay . same time next week ?" 
                          
"Yes of course thank you for your time Dr. Kenny have a great weekend."
                          
"You as well Rylynn, here take my personal number if you feel that your in danger or need anything before next Friday do not hesitate to call me ." 
                          
"Thank you I won't , see you "
                          
"Get home safely Rylynn . "
                          
 I started home feeling fine I suppose I begin to run just in case , I wonder to myself if I should take a different route maybe if I am being followed I can throw them off it would take me longer to get home but I'm convinced.