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after watching draco storm out of the cove i quickly gather my clothes, barely processing what i'm putting on as i do it. it seems as though every time i think i'm beginning to understand draco he does something to prove me wrong. once full dressed, i take a few moments to compose myself. 

                          
i pull the tapestry from the entrance and try to walk as nonchalantly as i can, it's not like draco malfoy just ravished me or anything. i assume that dinners already over so i decide to head straight for the hufflepuff common room. the walk is short but the hall seems to never end. 

                          
"honeysilk," i mumble as i reach the entrance to the common room. the room glows orange as the sunsets outside the castle. in the far right corner of the room i see ced, luna and jules sitting on some couches. i give them a half-smile and make my way over to them. before i even get the chance to take a seat, i hear jules screech. 

                          
"oh my god!" my head snaps up abruptly. "oh my god," her voice is quieter now as she covers her mouth. soon enough both luna and ced are also openly gaping at me. 

                          
"venus," cedrics voice is full of concern. "that's not a hufflepuff tie." my veins run cold and i refuse to look, knowing that if i look down i'll see the telltale sign of a slytherin tie. quickly, i reach my hands up to get it off in a huff. jules pulls me into a tight side-hug as luna delicately smiles at me from across the room. 

                          
"can you get theo to give this back to draco?" i ask jules, passing her the green and silver tie. she ticks it into her robe pocket and nods her head. 

                          
"somethings off." cedrics hand makes its way across the table and onto my knee. "do you wanna talk about it?" his voice is as soft as silk and i melt into his gentle touch. numbly, i shake my head 'no' as i lean my head onto jules' shoulder. 

                          
the week passes by agonizingly slow. draco doesn't speak to me, let alone looks at me. i've lost my appetite since the day at the cove, that was three days ago and i've barely been able to stomach any food since then. my appetite has simply just vanished. on the weekends i lay in my dorm with the curtains pulled tight, shutting out the world around me. when jules tries to talk to me it sounds muffled, as if i'm underwater. 

                          
i'm in potions currently, snape left the class a few moments ago to go gather supplies for our potions. it doesn't matter, draco will make it while i sit here. it's not like i haven't tried to help, he refuses it. when snape returns he calls our names one by one to gather the supplies for our table. it's when theo stands up that jules turns around to face me. 

                          
"venus, you don't look well." she reaches her hand out to feel my forehead. out of the corner of my eye i see draco glance at me before turning his attention elsewhere. i shrug at her and close my eyes. my breathing feels shallow and my palms are clammy, it's just a side effect of being near draco i guess. 

                          
"ms. tugwood-zabini," snapes monotone voice drawls from the front of the room. i slip out of my desk and make my way there. i've only taken a few steps before i realize something is wrong. i pause, trying to keep my feet grounded to the floor. i can feel my heartbeat in my throat, and my vision swims. 

                          
jules' shout is the last thing i hear before the edges of my vision turn black and i fall backwards. 


                          
i awake later in the night, the moon outside the window is high in the sky. madame pomfrey rushes in the room immediately to shove potions down my throat. she scolds me about self-care as she does so; she reminds me a lot of mum. she crosses her arms and sighs gently as she cast a warming charm on me. 

                          
"you have a visitor, normally i wouldn't allow this but in your case i believe it will help." and with that, she leaves. a few seconds later draco walks in, his eyes downcast. he takes his bottom lip between his teeth as he takes the chair next to my bed. 

                          
"i don't know what to say," his voice is rough as if he'd been crying. "but i know that i have to apologize," his eyes are pleading for forgiveness. "i get jealous. that's who i am and i'm sorry for that."

                          
i stare at him. "that's a piss poor apology," i huff. 

                          
he rolls his eyes and quirks his lips up into a gentle smile. 

                          
"however, i know that i had nothing to be jealous of." finally, he understands that i'm not shagging cedric. "because you weren't mine." all that i can do is blink at him. "i should only be jealous when someone touches what's mine, and id like for you to be mine." my hearts racing and i'm sure that my cheeks are scarlet. instead of attempting to stutter out an answer, i nod my head. 

                          
draco lifts himself off of his chair and walks over to my bed, motioning for me to scoot over. i do so and he takes the place of where i once was. ours knees knock together but it's peaceful, we gaze at each other in silence. i close my eyes gently as he reaches up to cradle my jaw. 

                          
"say it." he whispers, his grip on my jaw tightens ever so slightly. "say that you're mine."

                          
"i'm yours." i whisper back to him. his grip loosens, he trails his fingers up my face so that he can tuck my hair behind my ear. 
                          
"good." a smile dances across his moon lit face as i fall into a deep sleep.