Father is a business man. Dad had one condition. He promised to let us go if Lan Xichen, my big brother would take the business after him. Mom tried to put up a fight but Xichen states that it would be fine. That he likes business. But he wants to stay with us while studying. He is 17 at that time. Now he is taking his masters degree.
" God bless you two. Love you " mom says as she kisses us. 
Together we head on to the train station. 
" Don't worry Mei-mei. Once Im done with my studies, I'll definitely have a car then I'll be the one to drive you to school. " Xichen said while were walking.
" No need, brother. Commute is fun." It's true. Even though its crowded, I really enjoyed the train. Thank God for this blessing. 
" But when it happens I'll still drive you to school."
Sigh. "Mn" This brother really... But I'm grateful that God gave me Xichen as a brother in this life. 
....
Arriving at school we said our goodbyes then headed to our departments. I walked through the corridor plugging my earphones.
~playing In Christ Alone ~
It's a wonderful song. It reminds me that nothing can separate us from God's love. No matter what we've done. 
Room 111. Arrived. I entered the room then sat at my usual seat. The first row near the window. I closed my eyes as I let the music fill up my mind. So peaceful...
Thank God for this peace amidst the chaotic world.
After a few moments I heard some noises in the background. Must be my classmates. Suddenly, someone tapped my shoulder. I pulled out the  earphones from my ear then turned towards the person.
"Bunny!"  She smiled. Her name is Xing Chen.
"Mn."
Xingchen sat on her seat next to me. 
She called me bunny, didn't she? Were both born in the year 1999 and it is the year of the rabbits. Hence, the bunny calling. She's a Roman Catholic. I'm a Christian. We get along very well. I still remember the time we first met. It's during senior high school. I met her at a bench on the first floor of our school building. Not knowing who smiled first, we smiled at each other. Maybe I didn't smile. I don't usually smile to people. Some says I have an ice block appearance with a stoic face most of the time.
We seem connected somehow. We keep on bumping with each other during the first semester in 11th grade. At the second semester I was transferred to block A, being in block C before. We became classmates and we became rather close.
Xing Chen is very hardworking. My classmates during senior high would take advantage of her most of the time when we have groupworks. Above all that, she would smile and says it's fine. Her mom died early and her dad.. We both seem to have dad issues. Right now she's living with her aunt. She works to pay for her tuition fees. I really don't know how she manages all that. God is doing wonders in her life. 

When I met Xing Chen, I'm still a baby Christian.  A baby christian who needs spiritual milk. But I would willingly share what I know with her as we became close with each other.
And so over the years, together we would read the bible and then watch some Christian videos or movies. We subscribe on Off the Kirbs Ministries, Lion of Judah and other channels that promotes information about our God. 
I really didn't know what made her stick with me in the earlier years of us being friends with each other. Being aloof and stoic was my exterior before. People only come to me when they have something to do with me (except brother and mom)  like group project and such. Xing Chen seems to have a different mind. And so during one of our sleep overs I asked her about it. 
"Why does bun stay with me?" 
Currently, we're in my room on the bed. She's on the other side holding my laptop. We planned on watching a movie first. 
" Why would I not?"
  "I...." 
" The famous Lan Zhan is stammering.. Oh, oh " I huffed making her chuckle. 
" Well I don't know myself. I just seem drawn to you somehow. Like there's some kind of string of fate. Oh my, so this is love hmm hmm~ so this is love ~~ " she laughed out loud. ( It's a song from Cinderella yes, if you have watched it)
-___-  This woman..
" Okay, seriously speaking, it's true though. I seem connected to you. Mm.. I'm sure it's God who lead me to you. And aside from that, I see or felt that there's more to that cold exterior. That you have deep emotions hiding deep inside of you. And as a bonus, you are very beautiful." I blushed at the word. 
" Let me see that cute bunny ear blushing.." I spanked her playfully after she poke my ear softly and she just laughed some more. I can't help but shake my head at her fondly. 
In that conversation, I remembered a verse during my meditation earlier that day. It states: 
" .. Man looks on the outward appearance 
but the Lord looks at the heart" 
1 Samuel 16:7
An index finger poked at my cheek. •_• I blinked.
" Bunny, you remembered a verse dont you ? "
I tilted my head to the side as if inquiring.
" You always have that expression on your face like you're in a trance or something whenever you remember a verse. Then you would suddenly quote it to me."

" Mn. 1 Samuel 16:7. " 
" What does it say?"
"Man looks on outward appearance 
but the Lord looks at the heart"   I cited the verse.
" That's awesome, isn't it? That God looks at the heart instead of the appearance of a person. But if God looks at appearance then you have the greatest advantage, Bun! Haha" 
"Ridiculous."
" Haha anyways, let's go watch the movie?"
I nodded.
I am aware of my outward appearance. Thank God for creating me this way, but sometimes I wish that I have an average face according to human standards. Sometimes, the stares given to me gives me the creeps. 
Alright, let's stop wishing to be someone we are not just because of circumstances we cannot control. That's an insult to the One who created us.