losing you

                                    

                                          
jisung pov 
                          
it's been a year since the incident. we're all still living together. we have movie nights almost every night, it's a good way for us to bond. 
                          
i woke up to minho cuddling me on the couch. we all fell asleep in the living room last night. quietly, i get up to make breakfast for everyone. i decide to make pancakes, felix's favorite. i miss spending all my time with my best friend. 
                          
as i began cooking them, i felt a pair of arms wrapping around my torso. i turn around and peck minho on the lips. 
                          
"good morning sunshine, whatcha makin?" 
                          
"haha good morning love. i'm making pancakes for us and the boys." 
                          
"the boys, you make it sound like we're their parents." 
                          
"hey, we'd be the best dads ever." 
                          
"ohohoh are you saying you want kids?" he looked at me smirking. 
                          
"minho!" i slapped his arm playfully, turning around to flip the pancakes. 
                          
"what?! i was just asking!" 
                          
"hhhhhh you're gonna give me a headache."
                          
"well...?" 
                          
"after the wedding, we can have kids."
                          
"how'd you know?"
                          
"how'd i know what?" 
                          
"u-uh nothing." 
                          
"o...kay?" 
                          
"have you taken your meds yet?" 
                          
"not yet, could you get them for me love?" 
                          
"of course, brb." 
                          
as i finish up cooking the pancakes, i hear a cheerful felix running into the kitchen. 
                          
"I KNEW I SMELLED PANCAKES! JI YOURE THE BEST!" 
                          
"good morning to you too lix." i laugh at him as i hand him a plate. shortly after, everyone else is seated at the table with pancakes in front of their faces. 
                          
"hey ji?" minho turns to me. 
                          
"yeah bubs?" 
                          
"let's go on a date tonight, yeah?" 
                          
"okay! where are we going?" 
                          
"that's a surprise silly goose." he giggles and i shake my head. 
                          
after breakfast, minho announces that he has to go somewhere before our date tonight. i kiss him goodbye and take this as my chance to spend time with felix. 
                          
"seo changbin, your boyfriend is mine for today. felix, let's go to me room!" i say, grabbing felix's arm. 
                          
"pfft bye babe!" we run up the stairs, laughing like kids. 
                          
"so..what are you wearing for your special date tonight?" 
                          
"i don't know lix, probably something casual?" 
                          
"no no no. let papa dress you. come here." he got up and walked over to my closet, opening the doors. "go shower while i pick your clothes." he instructs me. 
                          
i nod, quickly going to shower. i look at the scars on my arms and i feel weirdly proud. proud that i haven't been harming myself. it's just now that i realize just how much i improved. 
                          
when i get out, felix is waiting on my bed for me. it's october, my favorite time of year, so i hope he isn't putting me in a mini skirt. he gives me fishnets, a white long sleeve, a black dress, doc martens, and i put them on. he sits me down and does my hair and makeup. for makeup he keeps it light and simple, and for hair he curls it.