𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕞𝕚𝕤𝕖

                                    

                                          
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I dropped off issa and Larry and I picked up the kids and we were on our way home 
I put the kids to bed and Alicia was asleep the boys weren't back yet 
So it was jus me by myself 
I decided I'm not going into work tomorrow so I called my boss and told him he said it was fine I jus had to do overtime Wednesday......
I need to shower........
I was in the shower and I let the water run down my body as I jus thought random thoughts.......
I was brushing my teeth and I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror.....
Like how could I let him do that 
I'm such a hoe 
I'm not even pretty 
Ale deserves better then....this 
I started to cry 
Katie was right then and now 
I'm not pretty or anyone special
What dose ale even like about me 
I probably deserved what Mar did to me 
No I did deserve it 
These thought only made me cry harder but I needed to take my pills 
So i opened the cabinet and saw my old blade that I used to use 
You can kinda still see the cuts on my thighs 
It won't hurt to cut a little 
Matter a fact it will make you feel better Y/n 
Pick it up
Now! 
So i picked it up 
                          
❗TRIGGER WARNING❗
                          
I picked it up and instead of my thigh I brang the blade up to my wrists and slowly drug it across my wrist and at first I winched in pain but soon pain became pleasure ever cut made me feel a little better 
I had 3 cuts on my left wrist 
                          
Y/n: ok that's enough 
                          
I said thinking out loud 
No! 3 is a odd number you should do 3 on the other hand jus to make it even 
                          
Y/n: uh ok 
                          
Then I put the blade in my left hand and slowly drug it across my right wrist 3 times 
                          
❗END OF TRIGGER PART❗
                          
Ale: Y/n! Where are you!
                          
Y/n: shit shit shit 
                          
I whispered to myself while cleaning up the counter and my wrist and popping my 2 pills in my mouth and putting the blade back in the cabinet and pulled my hoodie sleeves down to make sure he didn't see but I couldn't do anything about my red puffy face 
I walked out to see ale with snacks, candy, and a big teddy bear 
When he saw me he had a big smile then he analyzed my face and his smile turned into a sympathy look
                          
Ale: baby are you ok 
                          
Y/n: I'm fine 
                          
I say forcing a smile 
                          
Ale: ok I guess 
                          
Then he walked up to me and hugged me 
It took everything in me not to cry and break down 
I was thirsty so I let go of the hug and started to walk away but ale grabbed my wrist 
Not even hard but my cut are so new that they hurt 
So I let out a grunt in pain 
                          
Ale: oh shit I'm sorry 
                          
He said immediately letting go 
Then he had a confused look on his face