Breakdown

                                    

                                          
We decide to call for help and say,"Whoever it is outside, please help us, we are stuck in the library." 
                          
"OH MY GOD, there us a ghost in school, looks like they say true, lets get out of here"
                          
"Hey, Not ghosts, Its Jason and Iris, The hot nerd and the geek. Don't go. Please help us"
                          
Nothing, they ran off, even when I gave explicit narratives on our personalities. 
                          
"Hey, did u just call me hot nerd?"
                          
Oops, I just had to do that. This is so shitty, I can't even comprehend.
                          
"Yeah, I did."
                          
"So u think I'm hot"
                          
"I don't know really, usually girls swoon over u"
                          
"Not others, I want to know what u think?"
                          
"What if I don't wanna tell?"
                          
"I'll make u tell"
                          
"How?"
                          
"Just wait"
                          
He comes near me and tickles me. Yes, Tickles me. I have  tears in my eyes.
                          
"Now tell me, What do u think?"
                          
"Okay, okay ur hot. Stop now."
                          
Then he burst laughing too, and we both stay there laughing.
                          
" Its fun to have friends, I have't had so much fun since.." He stops mid sentence.
                          
"It's okay, u know, u can have fun"
                          
He has tears in his eyes. He says,"U are so nice, But I don't deserve u, I don't deserve to be with anyone, I am a horrible person who killed his brother, that's why my parents hate me, go around the world rather than stay at home, I am a bad person, u shouldn't be here with me, I will only bring u harm."
                          
I console him. I don't know the story, I shouldn't dig deep.
                          
"It's okay, I don't know what happened, but blaming urself never help."
                          
"U don't know what happened, If u know u will hate me"
                          
"Trust me, I won't, we are still young and we make mistakes, big and small, but we must move on, not let them hinder ourselves and others."
                          
"I'm a really bad person, and I don't deserve what I have..I have held it...I am horrible"
                          
"Shhh...its ok. U stood up for me, when no one else did, u are not bad"
                          
I figure out the only way, when I feel down and melted, I used to go to the terrace and repeat the events to myself..and I felt relieved. I must persuade Jason to speak up.
                          
"Even if u were the worst person on Earth, I wouldn't judge u, because trust me, I am worst. So why don't u be brave and tell me, remember, nothing leaves the room, I won't utter it even under third degree torture."
                          
"Sure that nothing will leave the room?"
                          
"I promise"
                          
"Well then, listen" and he starts his tale.