you said you shall be here in 5

                                    

                                          
warning/s: mpreg, sad,angst, mentions of sex


                          
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'hey ill be there in 5 '
                          
message received .
                          
You said that, but you never did be here , i waited for you,yet you were gone.
                          
10 years have past since that day, yet I remember it like yesterday.
                          
I was so happy, you know? I was gonna give you the best surprise, i found out on that day that i was pregnant with twins. When you were to come home, i was to give you a small present and ask you why i had done so, i would give you a hard time guessing and when you found out, i would maybe gift you with mind blowing sex.
                          
wouldn't that have been a fantastic night?
                          
But unfortunately, that was the worst night of my life.
                          
i didn't know that the 5 you said you were gonna be here in, would never happen.
                          
the day i saw your dead body on the road, i couldn't comprehend on what had happened, you were dead before you even reached the hospital. i tried to let you go, tried to move on,but couldn't ,so i dedicated my life to raise our beautiful twins Scorpius Draconis Malfoy and Octavia Dray Malfoy.
                          
you know? Scorpius is an exact carbon copy of you, except with emerald green eyes and Octavia's grey eyes are as striking and beautiful as you, she has wonderful black hair and the best part is, it is easy to maintain y'know? They are more of your children than mine, Scorpius has your same eating habits, talking style(mainly due to spending too much time with Lucius) and even the way you walk. Octavia is just the same with her impeccable style, her messy eating habit as you when you used to eat  to chocolate, she gets it all  over her face, sometimes it forms a moustache and other times a beard, i really can't stop laughing seeing that, you used do the same every time  i was feeling down . The lot of you are just a bunch of poncy gits and prats. But my prats and gits with all the stupid attitudes and dumb habits. 
                          
Looking at all this, Octavia and Scorpius are the only people who are keeping me from insanity and depression and helping me move on.
                          
  When i used to feel sad/depressed like this you would lend me your shoulder and give me comforting words though you were a natural pessimist, when it came to me you were always trying hard to make me happy and fill me with optimistic thoughts. Those days are over now, but i'll try to do the same for are kids.
                          
Do you remember those times? especially are marriage when we ditched the after party to go shag in the corner, never have i ever been so embarrassed when Blaise caught us in a compromising position, he couldn't look at the area without turning bright red, it was hilarious and embarrassing and you shameless bastard kept telling him about are sex adventure to the point where he couldn't look at us. I hated you so much at that time that make up sex didn't make us up.
                          
 Do you remember are Hogwarts time? with all the sneaking around , kissing in the empty classrooms and  sneaky Hogsmeade trips, they were all so joyful with ice-creams, candies and all.
                          
looking back at all those times, i keep realising that you are not here. 
                          
God i miss you so much, your parents and best friends do too.I once in a while meeting up with them, When Pansy found out she had nearly lost all her weight in a month and Blaise didn't get any sleep, i'm so grateful that  you had such amazing friend during your worst moments. They all love and miss you so much.
                          
 So i have been living with your parents at the manor, Lucius being as tolerant as ever and Narcissa being as kind as ever. Octavia and Scorpius love Lucius like they have made him their idol or something , though thankfully Lucius isn't teaching them those stupid beliefs about muggle borne,pure-bloods and half-bloods. We get along some times ,me and him and have heart-to-heart conversations sometimes, usually about how he was never there, but wished he was and how  when you were younger, he had realised that you had crush on me and to keep me away, but failed, really Dray why didn't you ever tell me about it?He really loves you Draco, I have never seen him talk so animatedly about anything in all the years i have known him.
                          
  Narcissa sobs sometimes while seeing your pictures and wails sometimes too,but  Aunt Andy and Teddy try to console her while trying not to cry themselves . You know the day we told Teddy that you were not gonna comeback , he cried so hard , seeing him like that broke my heart,but we are better now, he misses you a lot, when he thinks of you he makes his appearance look like you.its kind of cute.
                          
We all miss you Draco, though Octavia and Scorpius have never seen you, they still cry for you. 
                          
sometimes all three of us cry together on bed,sometimes Narcissa joins and rarer times Lucius does too, i have never seen him cry, it is really heartbreaking to see a man who never shows emotions cry.By the end of the night all five of us sleep in your room when we have sessions like this.
                          
i cried days for you, i only did stop after the doctor said it was bad for the babies , but there are times where i just can't hold it in so i let it all out, but i'm getting better, i have stopped crying every night instead just a few times a month. 
                          
I really wish you were here to see how things have grown and how amazing  are children become. They miss you too. They never ask me why you aren't there, maybe cause they know something, but they never pressurised me to tell them what had happened to you, sooner or later i shall tell them, but they know all about you and are extremely fascinated and proud of you.  
                          
The message you sent, 'ill be there in 5' is still there on my phone. I keep thinking how different things would have been if you hadn't been hit by the truck, but i remembered the words you used to say "you can't change the past Harry, and you can't see what happens in the future, but you can surely cherish the present" so that's what i have been doing cherishing my present, i don't know what will happen next, but you will always be a part of it in my heart.
                          
thank you for being there for me Dray.
                          
you will always be in my heart, so my love, where ever you are, i hope you are happy.
                          
I love you so much Draco. 
                          
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A/N NOTE :
                          
hey guys, i hope you enjoy this, next story will be updated soon
                          
see you.
                          
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