Shoulder to cry on

                                    

                                          
-05/09/20
                          
Dear Diary,
                          
On this page, i will say how me and Sakata Gintoki yo! Started dating
                          
Gintoki pov:
                          
I wake up as per normal i guess. I lay in bed and not get up
                          
'i don't feel like getting up..'
                          
"Gin san! Get up, even though we don't have jobs you should still get up!" Shinpachi came in
                          
"Aghh, nooo, i don't wanna" i whined
                          
"If you don't, Kagura will eat your breakfast" Shinpachi closed the door
                          
"I don't feel like eating.." i mumbled
                          
-No one pov-
                          
Some days, people have their times where they are blue. Its gonna get better but ya know there are those times
                          
And this day was Gintoki's sadly
                          
Gintoki laid in bed and scratched his head
                          
He slowly falls back asleep because he didn't slept last night
                          
*In his dreams*
                          
Gintoki watches scenery where it was Gintoki's child self, Shoyo Sensei patting his head and Takasugi's
                          
The next scene turned dark.
                          
There was fire around his old school, Gintoki's old self was held down and had to watch his sensei get captured while the school he loved burnt to ashes
                          
Present Gintoki watched in guilt, pain and regretted and wished he was strong enough at that time so he could've save his sensei
                          
There was another memory, seems that his dreams were just showing his past memories, there was Takasugi, Katsura and Sakamoto and his teenage self playing kick the can
                          
Present Gintoki watched his teenage self kicking a can to Takasugi's face, that made Present Gintoki laugh a lot recalling that
                          
The memory now changes to when he went to war.
                          
Present Gintoki saw himself slaying the amantos and people, Present Gintoki twitched his eye as he had to watch
                          
Then. 
                          
He saw himself..
                          
Killing.
                          
His own.
                          
Sensei.
                          
Present Gintoki had to stared as his teenage self watched himself raise the Katana to Shoyo's neck and splat
                          
The blood splattered to the ground
                          
Present Gintoki's eyes widened as he had to watch himself do it.
                          
Suddenly Gintoki wakes up, he woke up in sweat and he sighed
                          
"Why today?" Gintoki mumbles to himself
                          
"Gin Chan! We're going out and you better get up aru!" Kagura yelled from the door
                          
"i got it i got it!" Gintoki yells back
                          
Gintoki heard the door shut and gets up
                          
He walks to his bathroom and starts to look at himself in the mirror
                          
'eyes red, so satanic..' Gintoki looked down to his right arm
                          
He started violently scratching it, it soon turned red, so red that it looked like it was bleeding
                          
Gintoki opened the tap water and placed the icy cold water on the red part of his arm
                          
After he changed clothes, he goes to drink his strawberry milk