a bit from tobio.

                                    

                                          
ART CREDITS: yamineftis 
KAGEYAMA'S POV
                          
we got there soon and kei was breathing but very shallow and happened to be in a coma apparently he hit his head. i didn't really know how to process it and at this moment in time i didn't even bother to try i just needed him to be okay. seeing him frail and as pale as ever twisted my stomach inside out, i didn't even know he was this sad.
                          
i bet if i did he would've just denied it and not have ever spoke of it ever again but what can you do with someone feeling suicidal? if you're so depressed that it gets to the point of contemplating suicide what can you do? there seems like there's nothing left to live for and living just feelings like a chore and it's almost like surviving and it's funny how you can mask it with a smile but as soon as the curtains draw..you break. i knew this pain and i knew how tsukishima was hurting now, i'm so sorry tsukishima.
                          
i rested my head back on the chair and just sighed. tsukishima may have always been a cold, cocky and stubborn cunt but i always loved him, always. he always seemed so strong even to me and i admired his braveness and his wise ways that's why i always asked him to help me with schoolwork. he always seemed full of himself and i never knew why but i was probably so focussed on volleyball and fighting my feelings off with him the thought most likely came and went. 
                          
he had tadashi and i had overheard he had a brother too but never mentioned him so i guesses he was dead since tadashi told me not to talk about him. i respected that and never let on about a brother or anything, he may have mentioned it but right now..i'm not interested in his brother, i want him back. his parents are just driving back from the place they were staying at whilst mine weren't even picking up the phone thankfully.
                          
TW: SCARS AND SELF HARM.







                          
hinata was coping rather well but i knew he was anxious and maybe even worried despite how much of a weird relationship these two had, it wasn't just nothing. the constant teasing and messing about it was almost like a friendship in a way and the same with noya and him. i wasn't planning on telling the others since this was quite personal and judging from the scars i had noticed on his arms he must've tried before.
                          
there were ones side ways and two large ones down, i rubbed them with my thumb gently feeling his cold skin. i missed that warmth near me, i didn't even believe he was going to make it and if he did he wouldn't be normal. 
                          
thinking back this was probably my fault for the way things ended yesterday, i was probably the cause of it. me. he told me he liked me and must've thought i didn't, fuck. this is all my fault, isn't it?
                          
FLASHBACK
                          
it was my first day at karasuno and i ended up with this prick, hinata was it? whatever his name was i don't give two fucks, he's an annoying orange to me and nothing more nothing less. who does he think he is showing up where i am? 
                          
"you can't even do it stop trying"  i rolled my eyes setting it for him again.
                          
he finally hit it but it went out of bounds crashing into a tall blonde, "oh sorry uh mister.."
                          
"it's tsukishima, tsukishima kei" he smirked looking at me, "the king is here, is he, huh? well it's great to meet you, you're not as great as you seem and you're rather small"
                          
i blushed in embarrassment and grabbed him by the shirt, "who the fuck are you speaking to four eyes?"
                          
"tsukki!!" the olive haired boy cried, "stop it mister"
                          
"i'm tobio kageyama not a king or whatever you've heard, got it?" i hissed at him but i could tell he enjoyed seeing me mad since that same stupid smirk i was blushing over was on his face, "go will you"
                          
the blonde just shrugged pushing me away chucking the ball with a snide chuckle, "bye king, you're fun"
                          
BACK TO PRESENT(STILL KAGEYAMA'S POV)
                          
thinking back that was the first time i had spoken to him and he was still just as hot and gorgeous back then, the way i fell in love with those almond eyes and that damn smirk..it's to die for. i miss those eyes, his scent i just need him, now.