CHAPTER 19

                                    

                                          
CHAPTER 19
                          
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 Please note (and I apologise in advance for this) there is some swearing in this chapter and there might be in some more in the chapters which follow. Hope it's still enjoyable though! ♡ 
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Jeremy rushes ahead as I storm off towards his car. I expect him to ask me about what just happened but instead he just reaches out and opens my door for me.
                          
"I'm not cripple and incapable of opening a car door, Jeremy," I snap at him. Shit, why did I just say that? Urgh old feisty self go away!
                          
Jeremy raises his eyebrows at me and then slams the door shut again. "Fine," he says as he raises his hands up in a surrendering gesture. "Do it yourself, then."
                          
I take back what I said. Old feisty self come at me with all you've got. Jeremy deserves it. How can he be such a jerk after seeing what I just went through?
                          
"Whatever," I mutter and open the door.
                          
Once we're both seated in his car I start to feel a bit claustrophobic. I guess there just isn't enough room in here for both of us and the all the tension surrounding us.
                          
"You don't have to be such a self-centred idiot, you know," I say to him.
                          
"Look, I'm sorry Jules. I didn't mean to be so inconsiderate. But you don't have to take out your anger on me."
                          
Now I just want to slap him.
                          
"Well I'm sorry for having emotions," I say sarcastically and in an over-dramatic tone. "You have no idea how confused and worried I am right now, Jeremy."
                          
Jeremy's face softens a bit. "I get it Jules. Your parents are hiding something from you and you hate that. But why can't you just talk to me about it? I'm here for you, you know."
                          
I have no retort for that so I just look out of my window. "Just drive."
                          
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After about fifteen minutes we reach the school. As soon as the car stops I open my door and get out. I need to get away from Jeremy because I feel so guilty about how I'm treating him right now. And I don't want to make things even worse.
                          
"Jules," he says as he grabs my arm. I try to pull away from his grip but he just pulls me close to him and hugs me.
                          
I feel so upset and angry and frustrated and annoyed right now and it's just a mix of emotions that are making my head hurt. I want to push him away and find a quiet spot where I can just think. Or maybe scream a few swear words.
                          
Instead, my arms wrap around his waist. Urgh, I curse hugs for feeling so good. I know I sound like a crazy person but I want to feel angry. And Jeremy's hug isn't helping with that. Because maybe if I feel angry, I'll stop feeling so worried and hurt that my parents don't trust me enough with whatever they're hiding.
                          
Jeremy places his hands on either side of my head and kisses my forehead.
                          
"I know you're upset, and clearly a bit angry, but just try to forget about it for now, Jules," he whispers against my forehead.
                          
I want to do just that right now. I want to forget about them and their secrets but I can't. The worried look on my dad's face keeps slapping my brain around and makes me angry all over again.
                          
"I can't just forget about it Jer," I say, removing his arms from around my shoulders a bit forcefully.
                          
"Well then at least let me help you," he says as he takes my hands in his. "Just talk to me, tell me how you feel and get it out of your head."