So many comments
Too much to take
Cover the pain with a smile
But god knows its fake
The haven't seen me fall apart
They haven't seen me cry
They haven't seen me scream into a pillow
And the endless sleepless nights.
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I couldn't take it anymore.
Why keep a love so strong a secret? You can't bottle up something when its fighting so hard to be set free. Its like shaking a bottle of soda, the lid flies of eventually.
"Dan. Dan we have to talk"
The man whom I was directing my speech to turned around and gave me a puzzled look
"Sure babe whatever you need."
I slumped down next to him and locked our fingers, like a padlock, just to make sure he didn't run away
Dan was good at that. Running away when things got too hard. I should know, I'd been abandoned many a time.
"Dan we have to tell them" I blurted after taking a shaky breath.
"Phil-" he began, a stern edge to his voice, but I wasn't going to let Dan cut me off this time.
"NO DAN, let me speak. I can't take this anymore! Okay? Everyday. ITS EVERY SINGLE DAY. That's all the comments are about on my videos. 'Phan'. If we tell them, it could just work! They'll stop Dan, I need them to stop."
I didn't realize that there were tears running down my face until a few trickled onto the sofa.
I waited expectantly for Dan to brush them away as usual, a soft touch on my hot cheeks, like ice to melt my troubles... but it didn't happen
"Phil. I can't. I'm not ready"
The anger I felt in my chest couldn't be controlled.
I stood up, dragging dan up with me and looked him straight in the eyes.
"Well until you are, I'm not prepared to be with you anymore."
And with that, I walked out of the door and slammed it behind me
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I don't know where I'm going
I don't recognize this scene
The air is silent
Apart from the ring of a scream
Now my body is numb
As it hits the ground
The hum of an engine
The only sound
Headlights shining
Bright lights blinding
Pain unbearable
My smile now unwearable
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*Dan's POV*
My phone rung.
I didn't answer
It was probably phil. It was always Phil. I wanted to make him happy but I wasn't ready for the whole world to know. Not yet.
