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After we had our lunch and eat a piece of cake which Daniel brought, we went to the living room and sat on the couch.
However during wholemeal and even now I couldn't shake the tension that fell over us. Exhaling a short breath I broke the silence "What's going on with you guys?" I asked genuinely curious causing them to share a look between each other.
"So.." Daniel started while looking at me "..are you sure you want to do that.. you know, leave? I mean... you could stay here, find a job here or maybe if not here than somewhere else but closer or...or-"
I cut him with a soft "I'm sure. I really am."
"But why? Why live on the other side of the planet when you cou-" I cut Matteo off.
"Listen. All three of you know why I'm leaving, I always wanted to go to New York and now I have a chance. And.. I also think that this is gonna be great for me, you know, so I can have a fresh start. Besides you know how much I need that. I need to start over, new people, a new place, a new city, a new state, heck even a new continent. But that doesn't mean that I won't miss you guys. I just want to go away from here and all these toxic people." I explained while giving them a soft reassuring smile.
"You sure, what if you don't like it?" Daniel asked with concern written all over his face.
"Well if I don't like it over there then I'm gonna come back here, don't worry I'm going to be completely fine." I said as light laughter climb its way from my throat.
"I know that whatever I say now won't help you to ease your nerves but please believe me when I say that I'm gonna be fine. Have a little faith in me. Huh?"
With a heavy sigh his head slumped down "Okay, you are right that didn't erase my nerves not even slightly bit. I guess I'm just scared for you, you are going on literally the other side of fucking planet alone." He said while slowly raising his head and looking me in eyes "Without anyone of us, you will be completely alone without anyone to protect you."
And that's when I saw it - fear, it shone in his eyes. He was scared for me, he is my only family, the only one that cares for my wellbeing and that thought almost brought tears to my eyes.
No one else cares. My parents never really cared for me, but for Daniel, that's a completely different story. Dad always had a soft spot for Daniel because he was the only thing left from his brother.
For them, I was a disappointment, a waste of money and air, a mistake. They wanted a son but instead, they got me and trust me when I said that they weren't happy.
My grandpa from my father's side left my dad a lot of money which they were able to get only under one condition. They need a son.
My mother wasn't able to have kids but somehow 'a miracle' happened and they had me. Yeah, they had me, but not the money and that hurt them badly.
