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Its crazy to find out that i fucked my mothers boyfriend but what hurt the most is that I still had these weird feelings for him when i shouldn't
I couldn't get him out of my mind and him living with us didn't really make things better
I hated how he would stare at me or at times our eyes would lock and everything we did that night would come up in my mind
I wanted him so bad
I know im a horrible son but my body wouldn't let me forget
"Jungkook honey are you alright? You dont look so good" my mother said to me and she was right lately i have been feeling a little queasy especially in the morning
"Im fine mah don't worry" i said jumping out of bed getting dressed I needed to leave before taehyung gets up im scared of what he'll say to me
After i finished up i left off to yoongis house ready to drink my problems away I haven't since that night
I swore to never touch vodka ever again but maybe that's what I needed right now
"Kookster is everything alright at home? You keep coming over everyday which i dont mind your my baby and all im just tired of my dad asking if you get abused at home" yoongi said in worry
"Im not getting abused i just been having a lot of shit in my mind lately and its eating me up"
"You know you cant talk to me about anything right? I swear i wont say anything to anyone besides joon and I'll try my best to help you out"
I cracked telling him everything that happened that night it felt good to tell somebody, yoongi didn't really know what to say
"W-wait so you fucked your mothers boyfriend and now you have deep romantic feelings for him plus you've been feeling really bad lately?"
"Y-yep"
"Did you two use a condom at least?
I started to think then it hit me..... we didn't use a condom and taehyung came in me multiple times that night before i went to sleep
"Oh fuck fuck, no no no! Hyung we didn't use a condom yoongi what the fuck am i going to do i-i cant get pregnant most importantly i cant get a disease either my life will be over!!"
"Calm down your overreacting I'll go to the corner store and buy some pregnancy tests make yourself at home ok don't lose your shit or you'll have a panic attack"
After he said that he left quickly i sat on the floor trying my best not to cry maybe i should see a doctor but that would never work without my mother not knowing im a minor after all
I know she wont be happy about this either
If there was a possibility that i was pregnant what was i going to do? I cant tell tae then again i don't want to go through this all alone
"Im back and i brung joon sorry but he's better when it comes to things like this i can barely keep sane right now"
I didn't mind if anything i wanted hobi hyung to be there as well but he was out of town with his family
"Damn kooks i heard what was going on but its okay me and yoongs are here for you" he said calmly "now go pee on this so we can know for sure"
I nodded walking into the bathroom doing what i had to do and it felt like it was taking forever to know if i was or not
I have to say i was scared shitless
"Okay its been twenty minutes kooks look at the sticks" to be honest i wanted to back out maybe not knowing was best at this point but my mind was itching for the truth and when i got it i broke down
