Chapter 12

                                    

                                          
A/N: so this chapter has forwarded in time to the after movie premiere. Hope you enjoy x
                          
Josephine's pov:
After weeks and weeks of hard work on set, not to mention all the effort made by our phenomenal crew, we're finally at the premiere. Tour was amazing, and my heart is so full right now. Everything and everyone looks amazing. I can't stop staring at Hero- he looks gorgeous from head to toe. His hair is gelled to perfection and he chose to wear a navy-ish plaid suit, with a white dress shirt underneath and smart, white sneakers. He manages to blend his usual causal style with the typical formal assumed dress code at a premiere. Hero notices my jaw practically on the floor as he passes by me on the red carpet and just gives me a cheeky smile, clearly aware of the press and paparazzi surrounding us. Being here in LA feels surreal. When I first found out I'd got the role of Tessa Young all those months ago, I never thought it would feel this amazing being here today. Also it is just really nice for the whole cast to be together, along with the director and producers. It's like a huge family reunion. I shiver slightly as I look over as Inanna, who looks flawless as per usual. Although we get on well and I treat her like a good friend of mine, I still feel slightly intimidated not only because she's older than I am, but also because of the way she acted around Hero during the first few days of filming. Her actions almost really did mirror Molly's from the movie, as she'd hang around him a lot and some of the crew suspected they were dating in secret. From the first time me and Hero spent any time together romantically, he assured me that nothing ever went on, not as far as a single suggestive text between them. 
However, I can't help but worry about them being together in the same room, despite my trust in Hero and friendship with Inanna. 
                          
I wasn't feeling all that confident in my outfit at first, until I sent Hero a photo of myself wearing it and he rung me to let me know how hard he'd become- so charming, as always. 
I'm wearing bright red sparkling trousers that flair out at the ankles, with a matching suit-like jacket that cuts down quite low on my chest, revealing a lot of cleavage. But I do feel confident now I'm here, strutting about in my black heels. 
                          
Hero's Pov:
I hope Josephine realises how amazing she looks right now. I can't get over how her outfit accentuates her bust while still remaining modest and formal. She isn't one for showing herself off in short dresses like many other famous actresses, which is something I admire about her. I find her beautiful in anything she wears and she knows that. I notice her gape as she sees me in my outfit for tonight. I wish I could just scoop her up into my arms and kiss her to my heart's content, but I know I can't. At this premiere, we are nothing but co stars and friends. Hopefully she notices how I look at her in awe when we pass each other. It's the most indescribable feeling sharing part of a red carpet with Josephine. It's so hard to control myself when our bodies press together for a photo of the two of us. A number of photographers have to get shots of Josephine and I, and holding myself together proves more and more difficult. I hold her waist as we pose for the camera, and it takes everything I have to keep my hand there, rather than slipping it to a place further down her back. It's like we can both sense the tension between us before we separate and continue on with our evening, it's already so amazing and it's only just begun. 
                          
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After a short period of time has passed, its time to get a full cast picture. Unfortunately me and Josephine are separated since Jenny, our director is between us. I look at Jo and smile, which she returns before we're all bombarded by camera flashes.
                          
Josephine's pov:
I can't believe how amazing this whole opportunity has been. We're all still in shock at how lucky we are. We know there's gonna be a film adaption of 'after we collided'. Which is such great news but somehow I feel conflicted. Anna is even hopeful for a 3rd and 4th movie. Somehow, I'm not as overjoyed as I should be, not as thrilled by the news as everyone else is. This means that it'll be at least another year of rehearsals, filming , interviews, touring. My past year repeated essentially. I know I should be happy. But I just cannot imagine going through another year of the after franchise taking up so much of mine and Hero's relationship. It's caused so much damage already. The nightmares haven't stopped and I feel awful about not telling Hero that they're still haunting my sleep. Of course I'm thankful for the movie- it's what allowed me to meet the man I love. But I can't help but fear it's going to bring more sadness to my life than happiness. But this was Hero's breakthrough role. He has the chance to star in another three major films. That is amazing. I couldn't possibly take that away from him. It'll wreck his career for sure and I know that he will quit if I do. 
My heart sinks at the thought. I see only one option. Keep quiet about these fucked up nightmares and continue with the job I love. It's better that way. And all I can do is pray that they eventually stop and that I'll be at peace with my own mind. As the night is now drawing to a close, Hero gazes into my eyes so lovingly. And I hate myself for what I'm doing to him without him even knowing. But it's the only way I can hold our relationship together and im sure of that. I smile back at him, ignoring the guilt rising up in my body...