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Sienna POV

                          
"What do we even need to talk about Alpha?" 
                          
    "Sienna you know why we need to talk. Also please you don't need to call me Alpha you can always just call me Shane." He tells me as he sits right next to me.
                          
    "That's too unprofessional for me to not call you by your title Alpha. As the next upcoming beta I can't be disrespecting your title by just saying your name so casually." I tell him still not looking at him in the eyes. I can't look at him even if I wanted to. I know that if I look at him my heart would break a little more and more if I were to still face the reality that we can't be together. 
                          
    To be together is a dreamt that is far from reality at this point seeing all of the odds stacked against us isn't worth it. I wanted to fight don't get me wrong but at the same time I felt like fighting was futile in a sense. That no matter what I say to him that this fight will end up being one sided. 
                          
"Please Sienna can we just talk."
                          
"Why? What else do we need to talk about that would change your mind? You have a chosen mate and an unborn child on the way? I was obviously not a part of your plan to begin with it doesn't matter anymore about what I say or do to change that fact" I told him with a stern face. I can't crack in front of him. I can't let him see my heart breaking in two. 
                          
He stayed silent for a moment. The nerves start creeping up ever so slowly up my spin reaching my the palms of my hand. 
                          
"Your right...Sienna... I don't know what to say except sorry." He said facing away from me and toward his future he had created himself. As he left me I began to realize how even though I had wanted the best for him. And happiness that I couldn't give him that he betrayed me. He took away any hope of happiness with a future mate that a small of me had envisioned in my mind. 
                          
    I can feel my heart breaking knowing that it shouldn't be this way. But I need to keep reminding myself this is what's best for us, especially for me. I was beginning to think about what I should do now in terms of being in the pack. Should I stay in the pack or should I give up my position and pursue a career outside of the pack and coming back every now and then. I couldn't decide at this point on what to do. I need to talk to Luke about this he already knows about half the story except that it was his brother who rejected me.
                          
    As I walk toward back to the pack house I begin to think why am I not worth it for him? Was I not good enough for him? I understand he has a responsibility for his unborn child but he didn't think about this before we had met. And that's when I finally noticed the tears come down my face. As I saw Lukes figure in the distance I then ran from behind and gave him a big hug. I began to think what would my life be without him. Through everything he has always been my everything holding me down. 
                          
    "Sen what's up? Whats with the sneak attack from behind did I do something goof for once?" he chuckled as he moved to face toward me. 
                          
The tears began to come down my face. There was no stopping it at this point. I wanted to stop this heart break that was taking over. The tremendous pain and suffering was yet to come as I had to be on the side lines and watch my mate have a family and the life that I had envisioned us to have as mates be with someone else that wasn't me. 
                          
"Oh Sen I'm here for you don't worry okay? I will always be here for you no matter what." he said as he nuzzled his face into my shoulder. The same side here my mates mark was supposed to be. My wolf flinched at the thought that it wasn't my mate and it was someone else who wasn't my mate. 
                          
Thats when the tears became more prominent and didn't stop. As if there was a way to stop the incoming tears from coming 
                          
    "Luke can we not talk about this ever again? I just want to forget about today and try and have a good rest of the day as much as I can from this shitty day." I tell him wanting to forget about the rejection and the pain deep in my heart.