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𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘢'𝘴 𝘱𝘰𝘷
𝑮𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒚 𝒊𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅. Especially when you've been busy with dead family members coming back to life. Totally normal, right? Right now I am in the end of my second trimester and god am I really feeling it. I am more irritable, more hungry for blood, more hungry for Alaric, and I sleep a ton more. Thankfully everything this is back to the calmness it was before, because I don't know how much longer I could take the craziness before spelling everyone away.
Doubts about parenthood wasn't something that I thought about at the beginning of my pregnancy, But now it's evident in my mind. I thought that since I practically helped raise Hope as much as I possibly could, that I would be good but it's totally different when it's your own kid.
I haven't voiced my thoughts about this with Alaric. I know he isn't having these thoughts. He's raised twins, his own flesh and blood. I'm just nervous, scared even a little bit.
What if I am not a good mother? What if I become my mother? Or Mikael? What if I can't handle being a parent? What If I'm not good with juggling Alaric, my family, the twins, the baby, and my responsibilites at the school? Time will be the only one to tell.
Today Alaric is taking me out on a date. Well, we are going to go shopping for the baby at a shop in downtown and going to eat on a picnic. That's as much of a date we are going to be able to do for a while. It's getting closer to summer break, the students are more chirpier than usual, and with the baby making my body constantly irratated, We can't do much.
"Amelia? Are you almost ready?"
I turn to our bedroom's doorway and see my handsome man standing there.
"Yeah I just finished. Did you do all of the work that was on your desk? I don't want to have to worry about it tonight" I give him a suggestive smirk
"Of course I did. I didn't want anything to hinder my time with my lovely girl tonight"
He sneakes up behind me in the mirror and wraps his arms around my large stomach, I lean into his touch and watch in the mirror as he caresses my stomach where the baby sits.
"Are you ready baby?" He questions
I turn around and give him a sensual kiss on the lips, and nodding my head.
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"I think the baby has enough clothes now"
I kind of went overboard with the shopping, I can admit. It's just all so cute.
We began making our way into the clearing, with the picnic basket in tow. Our hands were tightly clasp together so Alaric can make sure I don't fall. That's another thing that's new, Alaric is very protective of me, more than he was before I was pregnant. I get it though, I know he just wants the baby and I to be safe, but sometimes he goes a little overboard.
For example, one time recently, the girls wanted to go shopping for new clothes for the summer months, and of course I agreed. The thing was, Alaric refuses to let me out of Mystic Falls alone. He insisted he went along, just so he could watch over us. The girls were more unhappy about that than I was, but I couldn't do anything to change his mind so he went. Let's just say, the girls made sure he regretted his decision.
"Is this a good spot?"
I look around where we were. The bright flowers were in full bloom all around us, the birds were chirping, and the small pond in the middle of the clearing had ducks peacefully swimming aorund in it.
"Perfect" I say
We lay out the blanket we brought with us, and sit down right in the middle of us. I open the wicker basket, and pull out the food we brought will us. We sit and take in the beautiful scenery, we make small take about our week and fill eachother in on the things we have forgoten to tell one another.
After finishing our food, we put all of it away and push the basket out of the way. Ric lays down and brings me with him. I lay on my back, same as Alaric, his around underneath my head, and his other hand rests on top of my stomach aimlessly rubbing it with his thumb.
"So baby, are you ready to become a momma?" Alaric asks
I sigh, "I don't know, I mean I feel ready in the sense of having everything. Like we have more than enough to take care of the baby. I feel like I am not ready mentally"
Alaric turns so he's on his side now, "You are going to be a great mother Mel"
I drly laugh, "I don't really have the perfect track record with good parental figures Ric. I don't want to be like Ester or Mikael"
"Hey, Amelia, Don't think that you are going to be like those shitty parents of yours. You won't. You are nothing like them, and never have been. Okay? You have me and that's more than enough. I will be there every step of the way to help you figure this all out" He moves his hand up to my face, and gently caresses it in a calming way.
"I know you will darling, but you have already raised babies of your own and did a pretty good job I might say. I have no clue what to do with being a mom. Yeah I help raise Hope, but it's different when it's your own child" I lean into his touch feeling distraut.
"Yes, I did raise children already but I haven't raised a boy. So, with somethings you and I will be learning together. You'll make mistakes and so will I but I promise I will be there 100%" I nod my head and smile at him,
