Calm down.
                          
"Since Yasmin is not here anymore, I expect you to pack your bags and be back in your own house before the end of today. I see no use having you around here." She explained.
                          
Her words felt like a bomb to my chest, my eyes wide as I tried to digest her words.
                          
It was one thing to send Yasmin away but to kick me out. I had really fucked things up.
                          
"H..hajiya please" I pleaded, I didn't want to be alone. The thought of going back to that house alone with my thoughts frightened me. 
                          
"I don't want to repeat myself Abba. By the end of today, you should be back in your house. I can see you're not hungry so you can go." Picking up her utensils, she continued eating, a clear sign of dismissal.
                          
I nodded and stood, my feet felt heavy as I walked out of the house to the chalet. Sinking onto the mattress, I stared at the wall in front of me, feeling every emotion course through me.
                          
Gripping my phone, I hurled it at the wall watching it fall to the floor with a crack. It didn't make me feel better. Instead it made me worse.
                          
I grabbed my box from the closet and dumped my clothes in, my vision blurring as I continued. I stopped what I was doing and slid to the floor, burying my face in my palms as the tears flowed.
                          
My life was crumbling before my very eyes.

                          
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By the time I was done packing everything, it was evening and the chalet looked like it had never been lived in. I had the security man take the bags to my car and I walked into the main house when I bumped into Atine. 
                          
"Where's my grandmother?" I asked.
                          
"She's in her room. She said she doesn't want to be disturbed." She answered.
                          
"I just want to tell her I am leaving"
                          
She shook her head "She said she doesn't want to be disturbed at all" she insisted. 
                          
I sighed and turned back, I loaded my boxes into the trunk and got into the car. I drove out of the compound and headed home.
                          
The word seemed so strange. Hajiya's residence had been home for the past months and now I was all but banished.
                          
I stopped by a supermarket and got the basics, while I was waiting on the line I spied a little girl holding onto her mother's gown. 

                          
What was Yasmin doing now?
                          
 Was she colouring or working on a puzzle?
                          
 Did they even have those at the orphanage?

                          
The attendant cleared her throat and I jolted back to reality. I tore my eyes away from the girl and dropped my shopping for her to checkout.
                          
A few minutes later I was back home, pressing on the horn, the gates swung open a minute later. I drove in and parked near the fountain. I stared at the house, it looked deserted, lonely almost ugly.
                          
Just like you
                          
I sighed and got out of the car. I waved the security man away and got the boxes from the trunk, I rolled them to the front door and unlocked the door.
                          
The house was surprisingly clean, not as dusty as I thought it would be. I could have called a cleaning team but I would rather do anything to keep my mind busy. 
                          
I rolled the boxes up to my room and walked downstairs to get started on cleaning the house.
                          
By the time I was done, it was 10pm, I dragged my exhausted self up the stairs and had a shower. The warm water doing wonders on my sore muscles.