love, hana banana

                                    

                                          

hey there soonyoung,

                          
				if you're reading this, im most probably dead already lol. 

				i hope you're doing well right now and not crying your eyes out. you look funny when you're crying so i hope you don't cry at my funeral. you might make someone laugh unintentionally lmao.
                          
				when we first met, i instantly knew that i'd love u for a long time. and i did.
                          
				you are seriously the most awesome bestfriend ever (u and wonu of course uwu). thank u for being my bestfriend. 
                          
				i know, im selfish for not getting the surgery. i just cant imagine a life without loving you. ive always been so selfless when it came to u and wonwoo, but this time, allow me to be selfish for the first and last time, alright? i hope you forgive me, soonyoungie. 
                          
				goodluck on your debut huhu. im so sorry if i dont make it:(  i probably wont, but its okay. im sure you'll do really well. you were born to be a performer.  tell your members i wish them goodluck, okay? 
                          
				OH YEAH, if you meet bts in the future please tell them that cha hana loves them with all her non beating heart. 
                          
				please don't forget to eat well. live a long and happy life, soonyoung. dont forget to visit my grave okay? AHAHHAAHA. 
                          
				dont be sad for too long, soonyoung. continue to be the star that you are. Hoshi. it means star in japanese. that shouldve been your stage name, it suits u well. 
                          
				i hope in my next life, we meet again. i love you, kwon soonyoung. always.

                          
love,
hana banana